You were dandelion cute
You kissed me
And I kissed back
You giggled when I jokingly bit the tip of your nose
I listened up real good
When you said
"It may feel weird cause my tongue is pierced"
I listened up even closer when I pulled down your underwear
You had a moment in my ear....making me gasp and shake in excitement
My eyes must have
Cha-ching
Cha-ching
Because you laughed
And pulled me closer
Leading me inside your soaking dream
You weren't as bad on top like you said you were
You twisted all the right ways
Until you had me so close I could taste It
I had to make you stop
we played house on every surface
Until morning came
We fell asleep in the shower
The taste of you
Still tight on my lips

That ******' got-**** screen door fell off the hinges. Sit there and smoke your cigarettes while I fix it.
Outside Texas was hotter than a hot greased griddle
You could feel the tinge of hot on everything
Until the sweat drips from every inch of your body

Privacy

Crushing a blue
On the back of a toilet
Numb Thumb Dumb

Metling and thawing of liquid gold
Rubbing
Slap Slap
Tying up the dinasour
Pulling so tight with my teeth
They want to come-out of my head
My second time
I have the shivers

Throb-Throb-Throb
Says the purple vein
Poking up to drink the elixer

Ecstacy dripping from the tip of a hypodermic catalyst
So ******* beautiful
Pierce me
Plunge me
**** my brain so hard
That I won't come back from the black
I floated up above myself
Watching the magic happen
Takin' it all in
**** oh ****
Oh ****
Take-***
Multiply by
one million
to the tenth power

*******

One perfect little hole
Poked inside out

I love to lick my blood clean
It's a tradition now
Beautiful metallic redness
Hugging my throat

*******
Just *******

I have nothing else to say

I wrote my suicide note in blue marker on a McDonalds napkin
I am going to start keeping it in my wallet

"Goodbye world, you dumb ******* ****"

Get wet
Get nasty
Get off my bed
Get off
Get off
Just get off
Don't *****
Lick me up
Lick me down
Back and forth
Forth and back
Slap Slap Slapping
The rubbing
The kissing
All the perfect
Warm wet
Soft hair
Soft lips
Soft thighs
A tight grip

Pillow talk
Ramblings
Dogs barking
Quiet kissing
I didn't know where I was
But I know where I am going
Dogs scratching at the door
God ****** dogs scratching at the door

Johnnie Walker
Gave me the blues
I should sit down for a minute
On the phone
Call to see if your friends are home
Your gonna have to sit alone
And laugh at my name
Rave on

I have waited for so long
To find something to make it go
I was looking for a way to make it all go
And so I saw your picture and read your words
I felt them wrap around my heart

I used to go out looking for something to do
Just to get my mind off of you
But now the sun shines
In the afternoon
I haven't felt like things could work
In a really long time
All my gears seemed broken
My engine out of steam
Nights were getting shorter and shorter
I think I forgot how to dream
I saw your picture go around my head
Take me once or twice
I have nothing to lose and everything to gain


What is money to me
What are objects to me
A waste
Of time that I could spend
Looking at your hair
Living in your eyes
And dying in your smile

And despite your commitment
To stop at the store
You said keep drivin
-your headlights were pink
Presents from your rich daddy
Real pink headlights  on the road
He bought you the Cadillac on
Your sixteenth winter
Along with those god ****** pink headlights
*******
We didn't stop for m&ms; and chico
You were a lamplight
Stupor raddled
So far so good you see
Lays the vine against the tree
Blow on wind
Crystillian sea
Turn around
And throw your
Handbag
Into a lava pit

It's bed time here for horses
Hours on new years eve
It's bed time for son of Sam
Killing drilling willing
What a dream
But the children have all spoken
It's time to go to sleep
Blaring speakers
Flowering vines alive
Swimming in the ocean
Sun and salt and skin
A fire place build pillars
Of monumental glory
Fighting dogs
****** broke bottles
Spiders crawling on your roof
Give me stones and boulders to sleep on
And don't whisper in your jersey accent

Watch us roll down a quiet ocean road
The night was only punctuated by looking at the moon
It was upside an upside down crescent
Waxing in the black

You were right beside me
Wrapped around my arm like a spider
clutching to her eggs
Your kiss beneath my ear
Brought me the peace of an oak tree
You put up guidlines
As you lie naked in the light of a red
Astro Lamp
I remeber
Your red neon eyes pulling at my pants
At the skin of my neck
You brought blood to boil in my head

I watched how sixteen billion nerve endings
Collided inside your universe
The song of a thousand red blood vessels
Played in our ears

Your blacklight mentality kept me stumped
Up all day and night
You thought it was cool to ride the motorcycle
next to the ocean
I could hear your words wisp around my ears
As we rode
Your arms clinging warm against my t-shirt
Pressing your lips against my neck
And returning your gaze to the ominous ocean
Spread out in the beautiful night
Rocks rise up
Twenty feet beneath us
In the mouth of the ocean
These rocks they call the demon's teeth
The sea gaping its maw
And laughing at us as we speed by
Your candy-cane eyes
Wrapped your arms tighter than everything
Thunderstorms
Blundered to the east
You yelled out to me between the black void
"On nights like tonight
You always  make me feel like
An actress"

I drank heavy from the river
To quench my parched lips
Clear cold water against my
Hands

I am always thirsty
I have broken my teeth
On the ancient rocks
To show loyalty to mother nature
I let her **** me
Without giving her my name
I let her spit in my face
To teach me humility
I let her pluck out my eyes
So I could see the color
More clearly
She stabbed a screwdriver
Into my ears
Until I heard them POP POP
So I would know the beuty of silence
I let her peel my skin
With sharpened stones
So I would know every breeze
You were not easy to me
As you tore my tongue from it's roots
So I would remeber the taste of blood
Forever
Take my fingers
Take my toes
Arms
and Legs
I am dead already
I died a long time ago
The day I was born

I have one minute to write out a poem

One pencil I think I have broken

And one broken heart

I'm taping together

So I took this broken pencil

And I pushed it to the page

The lines that I was making

Start to scream your name

So I sit back wondering

If I deserve it

You make my mind blank

Make my time slow

But I really don't need

I have time

Girl, it's none of your buisness

But I guess your close

So we might as well do this

You dont have a name

Or a penny

So I'll pay for the groceries

With useless paper money

And I fixed your ceiling fan

You are so hot, honey

When your car broke down

I spent the night

Under your hood

You didn't give a thank you

Even when my hands were ******

From the corners of my broken heart

From all the metal you left rusting

The oil and the blood

Don't look so poetic

In the afternoon sun

Is there dirt on my face

When I walk back up to your place

To say that your car works

And I guess you won't be needing me

So I gave up on trying

To win you over

Each time I came up for breath

You push me back under

The waves of dying come slow now

To all of us

Nothing a cigarette

and a beer won't fix

I'm going home

I don't need this

I need a fire

But you only

wanted sparks again

Each moment for me is
A moment of clarity
Finding myself growing ever more tired
Searching for a fact
Or a reason
To explain why I should not cast off this
Earthly form
Why bring the air
Why bring the bread
Or the water
To these lips
Why do I prolong this
Misadventure into being
My body belongs to the earth
The very atoms of my carbon based reality
Once slept in the belly of a star
All of this Big Bang talk has got me thinking
Why should I press on further into my fragile existance
When all beauty- belonging in temples
Is not worshiped as a king

Crawl along dear afternoon
The flaming hoops I'm jumping through
I lie alone against the floor
The car is slamming on the door
You ring my bell and spill my drink
But I am already drunk I think
The taste of smell the luck of smoke
Cars are sliding down the road
Repeating reflections of red brake lights
Shining in my eyes
I am too high
To run the numbers
To poke the embers
Add some quiet
Along this street
I dream of walking down this street humming
Your arc of an arm
Around my heart
Writting our name in sidewalk chalk
Waiting for you on my bedroom floor
Wrapped in your blanket
Wishing for your skin
To make me warm
Begging on the street
For a minute of sleep

Hands Hands Hands
Reach Reach Reach
Sparrow
Like
An
Arrow
Passing through the trees
Riding
Down the
Road again
Hand Hand Hand
Against the wind
Stuck behind a school bus
Waiting on a train
Follow me to nowhere
In a driving rain
I forgot about the days
When I was most alone
And fell in love with anyone
Who called me on the phone
I beg your pardon please
Someone say my name
Fumes of burning ether
Licking up my brains
Licking up my brains
Lick me up again

Moss hangs like a dead man
From a white oak tree
Outside a party is shining
A Golden Yacht Club Dream
I work as a server
To the Local Rich
Old Money
Women still wear pearls
Something different in this night
You can feel it on the breeze
A cigar chomping governer called my name
A refill on his drink
...Wine aged God ******* knows how long
A beautiful night in all respects, but not much of a thrill
He called me to your table
You sitting there like that
An angel burning fire
In the carbon dioxide you must be breathing out
Your blue eyes so pale blue I could see full long summer skys stretching out into your minds
Your hair so perfectly tossed
Crashing round bright red lips
Your father called me
And tore you from my brain
Another glass of wine
If you would sir please

Things had calmed down inside my head since then
My break was coming next so it's outside
For a cigarette
And for one shining moment of my life
I recieved a shining grace
Your blue eyes and red lips asking
For a cigarette

I woke up and wrote your letter
The Morning sun wash shining
After a long rainy night
I spent it trying to understand
How I am supposed to float
How the trees are supposed to wrap and squeeze
The raven on his branch
****** harm of the moon
White light through forest seeps
Forget the meaning of a moment
Pressing on the tile
How your skin was warm
And your hands alright
Fire burned from Hades that day
And the claws of demons reached up
To scratch my screams
Your parables are a common monolouge
******* in my brain
Revalations and Galatians, Ezekial, Jeremiah
John the APOSTLE to christ
Was exiled to the island Patmos
A bullet would put my brain on ice
Character Speech of Naked demons
Pouring Fire onto the world
to ash
to ash
to ash
The seven seals
Breath the ash in and out
Standing strong footed in the Millenium
Where he rules again
With an iron rod
Despair
Rebellion Screams in the blood of your young heart
A spray of ****** violence against a creator of lust
and love
and pain
and ash
The prince of peace
Whose blood anointed the sins of the childerens childrens children
Speeding up to heaven on winged steeds
Let your words pierce my armor
Unto my very bones
It is better than this pain I feel
Your own annointed son
Bleeding on an alter
Incense swirling this
I wish the mounains
Would fall upon me

I hate to read the poems I write
Because they sound like a little boy whining
Because they sound like a stupid teenager crying
Because I sound like a child, trying to talk like big people do
**** poetry
Fucky you
Ok...maybe one more poem after this

You made me no more mister nice guy
Sitting on the curb
I watch you drink beer from a can
Your skirt is just short enough
To show me your skin
Your t-shirt is covered
In some pink cartoon
In the dark you seem quiet
Your words float away
Broken windshields
Crackeling
Explosions
Carry the silence
Into the rain
"Tell me the truth?"
"Yeah, sure I guess"
"Will you kiss me even
If I taste like cigarttes"
"Yes, I will kiss you if you
Kiss me back"
So I lit her cigarette
And she lit my mind
I could get used to having you
"Not all the time"

Standing on the Japnese shores
I hear you speak in gentle tones
Yet your words float over oceans and oceans
Swimming in the sea
The ripples float on gentle wings

I am lying in a sea of grass
Open to the universe
I am trying to do nothing
But close my eyes and see

I swear as I lie here
Over the sea
Your voice comes floating
As a gentle breeze

I swear as I lie here
Over the wind
The ripples flow softly
Over my skin

It seems I've been proved a fool again
Your saying it to me
I keep walking these same old roads again
And your driving straight to me
You hold your hand out asking for alms again
Your looking right through me
I drank the heavy smoke in straight again
Your trying to choke me
Your always trying to choke me
Always trying to **** me
Always trying to thrill me

My great grandfather was a killer
In the IRA
I loved to sit and listen to the stories he would say
He fought for blood and country
And to keep his family safe
O
My grandpa was a sailor
Traveled every sea
Kissing foreign women
Seeeing sights few see
He used to tell me stories
Of Caribbean sunsets
And sunrise in the east

My father in the army
Fought in Vietnam
Haunted by the memories
Humid smokey skies  
Dead faces fill his dreams
Every single night
He sent letters to my mother
Wishing for his home
But fought hard as any other
Tooth and nail and gun

But I ain't in the army
Or sailed upon the sea
So  my dreams are not haunted
And are beautiful to me

I don't use a bookmark
Or fold the precious page
I remember where I stopped





Even after days

Books
are
stacked
as
tall
as
me
In piles                                       'round my room
Some nights I lie awake in fear
"This book
(Gulp)
is over due"

A S.W.A.T. team breaks down my door
And cuffs me on the floor
They'll find the evidence on my shelves and stacked around my door
And drag me to the the little room to make me sweat a few

The moustached cop with coffee stains yells:
THESE BOOKS ARE YEARS PAST DUE!"

But I don't fear the ******' cheese
So when moustache left the room
I used my skill with paperclips, and left the handcuffs strewn
I grabbed myself a hostage
To hightail it outta here
I made it to the front door
Smiling ear to ear

To the Mexican stand off

The bang bang bang


I whispered in her ear
To stop all the crying and whimpering
Her eyes do full of fear
"I promise that you'll see your kids;

I will not hurt you dear

The Pigs creep close
My voice it croaks:
"ALL I WANT'S MY ****** BOOKS
AND WE'LL ALL WALK OUTTA HERE


I'm an outlaw now
A vagabond
Walking through the Wastes
I will not see my home again
Or any friendly place
Nothing now but the open road
And a bag of way-past-dates

Even the wolf with the thickest coat would shiver at your guile.

You are a princess of lies, ruling oe'r your spineless
Subjects

You are known well in a far away land, but here your words have no sway

Here the sun does not set or rise at your childish beckoning

Here you are a liar, thief, and mother of hate

Malice is your brother, and you both walk hand in hand

As do I little sister
As do I

My darling My darling
I have watched you sleep these three nights
And I have whispered into the deep
"There is not a more beautiful creature in this plane"
You are an angel
Your wings curled beneath your fragile form
The gentility of your breathing...
The rising and falling of your supple *******
I would not dare kiss you in this form my darling
I would not dare caress the curves of your earthly body
I have drunk the wine of infatuation
Until I could hear the great beast call your name
We shall be wed my darling
Our two hearts melted into a blinding holliness
Forever entwined
Blood to blood
Flesh to flesh
Fear not this blade my darling
Fear not its mortal sting
Fear not it's cold touch upon your silken skin
Let it find your young heart quickly
Feel it cleave the muscle in two
Fear not my darling
Fear not the sadness of our mortal plight
For in the darkness
A flash of silver will bring you salvation
A sacrafice
A moment of stinging beauty
For an eternal moment of ethereal bliss

Now I see you
You *******
"FIRE ALL TORPEDOES"
“But captain...that is our own ship, sir”
“I said fire all torpedoes”
“Yes Sir, Right away, sir”
“Captain says fire all torpedoes”
“Wait…aren’t we still at the dock?”
“Yes we are…fire all torpedoes”
Red flashing lights
“Fire in the hole!”
Fire in the hole

Words:
Click and purr
Tape recorder
Tell me words
In any order
I remember like it was yesterday I last saw you
11:59 on the clock
Knock Knock
I open the door
Your eyes
Your eyes
First of all those eyes
Pulling and prodding inside my chest
Your smile was a sly one
Making me wish
It was me and you
Years and miles away
Your pale skin was just kissed
By the yellow sun
A long day out seemed to wind all down
I just wanted to tell you
That the center of my universe
Is standing on my doorstep

Firewood turned to ash before my eyes
The desert is cool
Tall Rock night
The thorn bush turns to thickets
Cold black river water
Long haired coyote
Covered in sand
Vultures circle me
Under the moon
I hear voices in my head
Y la lengua es un fuego en el mundo de maldad

Repeat
Repeat
Water dripping from your hair
Cold numbing vibrations
Repeat
Repeat
Roll the Tape
The scars on my knuckles
From punching walls
That punch back
I knew this day would come
So I put my sunglasses back on
Spit the taste of blood from inside my mouth
And wiped  my lips with my wrist
I need five hundred dollars
To get to the next town
And a new pack of cigarettes
Repeat Repeat
A message after the tone:
And there with marker scrawled on the tile
"Self-preservation only prolongs the inevitable"
Beep
" Self-preservation only prolongs the inevitable"

Lucy in the sky with diamonds
Close your eyes to the fractil light dear friend
Climb up to your sunsets and sundowns
Wash them of all lonliness
**** that hot afternoon sun
Far out man that's real far out
Television Air Conditioned
Gas stations
Are heaven on those afternoons
Well I can swim right in the Atlantic ocean
Right across to you
And we can build bombs together
To blow up the stars
You're fully aware of the power of fate
Handing you a ciggarete
Looking for a suicide
Looking into big blue eyes
Your looking at another lie

Everything happens for a reason
No one who ever knows anything
Is not a someone to me
Usually
But your blue eyes know
The inside of my mind
I'm an Indian prince
Of chikiwa descent
It's my birthday today
Red dress
Your whistle seems dry
Drink up this
Fire water with me
Hands lead to shoulders to mouths to tongues
Music plays on the radio
Crackeling in the dark
Smoking coffin nails for scientific research
You have stumbled on a space age invention
Number 666
I got out of jail for this
****** ******* town
So I smoked the peace pipe
For days and days
We shot bullets and tequila
Numbing Human pain
I'll pray for you to Allah
You pray for me to fate
Jesus was my friend
My favorite cellmate

Poetry I'm sure is no little mystery
I am unsure of her ways
If she sleeps or if she is awake

Sometimes her stone tools and weapons
Sometimes her love and care

Poetry is no easy task
A poem to write can be as hard as a job
As mowing any field
As hoeing any row
Her fruits are as satisfying as any
They hold me fast for a while
But I will always hunger again
So it is out to a field to toil and work
I hope my crops are sweeter this time

Perfect camera angles
Make normal people
Act like fools
Actor

Trading foodstamps
For cigarrettes
Under streetlamps
Long broken

I have a fix
Whispering from my pocket
Why should I deny her?

I found a place to hide
Torn rotted rusted
Walls of cinder block

I am sure all the bridges crossing here
Are burnt unto ash
Carried to the oceans

What used to be a window
Is shattered o'er the sea
Birds dive and soar in the fog

Cement monuments
Knee scraped asphalt
I could cry out to the sky

Do you watch me god?
Go about my day
Do you want me?
Am I not poor and naked in thine eyes
Then pour out your mercy upon me dear heaven
Remove me from my earthly plight

My oh my dear handmaiden
The brevity of your eyes is a childish curse, but
Long is the chill of a single winter night
A basement full of taxidermed trophies
Death and dust fill flat stale air
Lying in a corner of silence
Bound in electrical tape
Gagged by a silk tie
There is no rhyme or reason
Or meaning to it all
It is the addition of numbers and variables
Multiplied by powers
Do you not understand the color of sunsets
The beauty of a passing day
Human passing is not a thing of beauty
It is a quiet tune playing on a record
The sound of cold water dripping from pipes
The feeling of sleep washing over me
With a thousand angels
Waiting to carry me on

A constant nagging of lonliness pulls at my skin
I am sorely cursed by long nights of solitude
Although in the night's fall
There is a mysterious beauty in her depths
I am cursed by a glance at the clock
I have two more ours until I am raised again in sunlight
I crave the hours of darkness
The unmade bed of insomnia
Cold barefoot walks in the wet grass

Oh yeah
I once saw a tomb
In some silver moonlit corner
Of a dark garden

A young girl had died in the year of our lord
1852

Scratching on stone walls
A terrible chill


A murderous mother  
Began to leave tear stained letters
On full moons

One blood red rose
And three long and painful letters
Each sealed with a wax seal
Signed in blood

They began to print the notes the next summer in the local paper
The heart breaking lines
Printed in smeared black ink
And sudennly the letters stopped

Story goes one night some kids were going out to the tomb
To try and catch her but ended up having ***
Well they go up to the tomb
And layin against the tomb was a beautiful black haired woman
In a pool of blood

But thats just legend
People still leave letters on moonlit nights on the tomb
Confession letters
Of ****** and ****
You name it...

The police leave them alone
......I myself visited that moonlit garden one night
and placed a letter in beneath a rose
I fear that I can't let it take over my life
It takes me from all love
Boiling hot water up to my eyes
and just like that...I never wanted another lover
but the maiden of ******

Yeah, I been to space
Yah wanna see the scar?

I am on my second...No third I think......
Red pill of the Night
I am surprised that I have not become smaller
Or is it
Larger?
No one ever really remebers do they?
Question? No answer
I am compelled to get up from my plight
A beer soaked boredome
I have no idea of the people surrounding me
Or why they all seem to be so uptight
Although the rich boys have laid their suitcoats upon
The velvet arm chairs
It's almost unbelievable this air that I breath
For a moment I think I have become the center of our universe
Or I forgot where I put my matches....that spilled box of matches
Yet I wiggle my way out of the smoke
Understand that I have to walk out and pick these matchs up
While pretty rich girls laugh and drink beer
How cute they think they must look
Drug addled
Becoming the girl
I want to take home to mom.
Good Ol' fashion American Capitalism
Buying and selling and smoking their imported African Marijuana
Taking *** shots off of brandy bottles
I bet if dad knew you were in his brandy
He'd beat your rich boy ***

Ah the glimmer and the silver glow of this place
Shimmering left and right off of bottles and jewelry
I have a knife in my pocket that seems to grow heavier and heavier
As I rest on this brand new White
I MEAN SOFT EGSHELL COUNTRY WHITE
Leather Couch from Europe

I can breathe it all in
and breathe it all out
you know when you don't belong
A weapon in your pocket becomes
A weapon in your hands

I just want to understand
Someone else
For a single moment
But
I give up
Drink straight from the bottle
It drinks straight from me
I see seraphims and a calling hand
I hear it say my name

The cops got called at one a.m
An she's sitting on the front step
Smokin a cigarette wearing sunglasses
Hello officer he's inside
In the bedroom sleepin
Let me see what's under them sunglasses
A ******* eye and her lip is bleedin pretty good
The cops run in stomping over and on Christmas presents
The kids are cryin Daddy, daddy!
Mommy what's goin on
Their comin to talk to daddy about him bein mad
Dad is a fighter though and takes the first cop
Right in the throat with a balled up fist
The second cop got him good with his nightstick
Straight to the gut
Daddy is layin there while the good beat him on the ribs
In chains they drag him out to the car
Cussin and yellin up a **** storm
Momma sittin there cryin her eyes out yellin
Baby I love you im sorry
I love you I'm sorry

Time is gone by
Things have called down
While the pigs are takin statements an ****
Right there in the trailer park I see that girl
Some construction workers daughter from west Virginia throws her glasses on the ground
And asks to talk to her lover
He cryin in the backseat
Locked up
she broke my heart when she cradled his bleeding head to her *******
Whisperin I love you baby
With all my heart
She kissed him on the lips
A good long kiss
A movie kiss
Tommorow is Christmas baby I'm gonna bail you out
No you won't baby
We got our rent to pay
There ain't never a passionate kiss in this trailer park
That don't end with both of em tastin blood
Christmas eve in Tennessee means broken teeth and ******
And cops givin out a whippin

I rember when we used to live
In a filthy little apartment
I had no money to my name
Just a box fan and a microwave
I was so poor back then... What else is new?
I lived from day to day
Worked my hands to the bone
Just for some food and water
I rember you said
As we sat on our bed
Looking at the color
Of peeling walls
"Kiss me til' I'm tired"
We were poor as could be you and me
Not a penny, nickel, quarter
But we had a piano and an old guiar sitting in the corner
We  played love songs late into night
Laughing at our lyrics

Our little bed
Was big enough
To sleep each night together
The neighbors would come knocking
YET
We loved
We loved
And swore and swore
We'd never love another
Those were the days
I must say
Although we slept some nights hungry
Dirt poor we were in others eyes
But rich in love
Together

You have to sleep sometime you know you cant keep this
going on forever what are you so afraid of
is it something in your dreams is it someone in your dreams is it somewhere in you dreams
are you lost
I am
its ok but you just cant
lie awake
you need a break
just close your eyes for
one minute
trust me that you need it
and
if it is me who haunts your dreams
I am sorry

But, it is your fault you can't get over it
How I just left you there alone
It's not like you couldn't tell by the look of my eyes
That I was going home with him

Yes beautiful dreamer
It is you who haunts my dreams
Sleep Sickness
It's not that I want to remeber you, dearest
I am just not as heartless as you
Or as quick to forget