So you say that your hearts not ready
Do you believe that mine was steady
And now I hope you figure out
That I'm not coming back
You've missed what we could of had

I'm a fool
For falling for you
Spending all this time
Trying to make you mine
So I set you free
And I'll miss your company
But I'm not waiting anymore
Its time for me to take off and explore

I tried to give you time
But you were practically blind
And I hope you realize
That I'm not waiting around
You can stay lost but I'm waiting to be found

You and I aren't meant to be
So I'll gladly set you free
To be left alone in your company
I can't push till you can't breathe
So its the end to what we could be
I hope you miss my company

You see that boy
Well he just came out
His families world
Got flipped upside down
They can't look at him
And he can't make a sound
He knows that they'll accept him one day

You see that girl
She hasn't eaten in four days
She looks at herself
And wishes she could change
People laugh at her
They point and stare
But someone will love her one day

And I know
What you're going through
I know
That it can be hard
But you'll make it through
You can be who you are

Smile
Cause you're still here
Yeah you've come so far
Smile
You're in the clear
And you can have it all

Life is what you make it
And I'll take it
Whether you believe in me
Or underestimate my ability
To make you feel something
We all have times when we don't want to feel something
Mistakes are just life lessons waiting to happen
My future is based on making things happen
And I happen to have adapted to your constant belittling
I have a feeling that my feelings don't appear to be anything but deceiving
Do you see me being an exact image of who I want to be
And that is somebody whose name is related to fame
For people to know where I came from but love me all the same
If not that's okay
I'm blessed to be here today
In the 6th grade that would of all changed
I'm changing to be creative
If I'm not creative then I feel outdated
Being outdated is beyond my amazement
The amount of amazement in our world today is dwindling
If you want to hate me I promise it doesn't offend me
And offending my personality is honestly a form of flattery
So it matters to me if you chose to succeed
I will be the only me that ever ceases to exist
So now I chose to exit this form of expression
With a smile on my face
And footsteps permanently engraved in this place today

Your walls are up
And I know why
You don't want to sacrifice
What's left of your life
You hold your heart in your hands
Wanting to let go of it
Hoping someone's there to catch it

I can tell you've been through a lot
By the way you hold your head to the sky
And I can tell that you wanna be loved
Even though it comes at a cost
But doesn't it sound so sweet
To be with me
Cause I know it takes a lot

And I know that when you push me away
Not to take it personal
And part of me knows you want me to stay
So just say the words
And I'll stay

Are you proud
That I'm even your daughter
Are you proud
To know that I'm gay
Would you love me any more
If I were straight
Are you proud of what I've accomplished
Do you wish I were different
You've demolished every once of my self confidence
Do you love me
Do you regret having me
If I had left this earth
Would you want me back
You see dad
We are not that different
We talk like we are strangers
Fight and put each other in danger
And I want to make you proud
Your negatively is loud
Constantly in my head
I think of ways to die while in my bed
And you don't even care
How dare
You call me worthless
How dare
You call me ugly
How dare you sit there
And tell me everything that's wrong with who I am
And then wonder why I resent you
I've never needed to depend on you
I will travel across this earth before I call for you
You made me afraid to be myself
You made me want to **** myself
But you sit there and continue to justify your actions
I'll continue to write
Did you know that's my passion
So dad
Can you tell I'm trying to get your attention
You never gave me love or affection
You use ever excuse to put me down
Then kick me while I'm still on the ground
I just want to make you proud

I sometimes ponder life outside these walls
We are all just tall buildings waiting to fall
I wonder how people can hate
Continue to live in such a negative state
I wonder if there is more out there
I try to believe that life is fair
That we are all connect by tiny microscopic hairs
That make us who we are
But let us know that we are not far apart
I wonder if the after life
Is more than an after party
I'm sorry
That I could not live up to your expectations
We all need to live life through inspirations
A single invitation
To join me on my quest to find what's out there
But I hate dares
How can you judge me
But say you love me
You talk so much crap
Like its your job to know all the facts
And even then you aren't happy with yourself
So how about around of applause
For the people who are strong
Even when everything is crashing beneath them
I can honestly say my friends
Saved my life
They know my struggle
Know my strife
Took my troubles
Into their own life
I am here today
Because they wouldn't let me go away
But I'm afraid
That once I leave
I won't believe in living
These walls are a tight cage
That keep me from feeling
I sometimes ponder my own destiny
My past has gotten the best of me
I'm slowly rebuilding my tall building
Making it stronger
And taking longer
To achieve my ongoing dream
Of making it past 18

When she was little
The world revolved around the little things
The way the raindrops slid down the window
How the leaves changed
How two people could portray so much hate

When she was little
The world seemed to show a different light
Not necessarily bright
But a low gleam
Always being covered by negativity

As she grew up
Life seemed to knock her down
The ground became her home
The light became unknown
Love became a shallow hole of uncertainty

Now she struggles between the light and the dark
Looking for a new start
If you know her
You show her unconditional love
She walks through life
With an undeniable weight on her shoulders
But you hold her
And show her that life is more than what it seems
And she believes you
Has faith in you
So hold to the truth
We all have things we don't want to lose

She is now at a crossroads
And where to go is unclear
But she can't live with fear
Her past is one big nightmare
As she gets older
Those little things begin to grow
And she begins to show signs of fighting
Igniting her insides
Don't believe all the lies
I am who I am
If you don't understand
Don't bother opening your mouth

She is no longer little
So remember her name
She believes in fame