Is the realization that people are teaching you when they don't have all the answers

And growing up to know that adults are just big children waiting to die

I know you like the back of your hand

I think that I'm going to live forever

Don't you too?

If you don't I will easily forget about it

Better than than than

But if never then than what are we doing?

Other than

Than

You know what they say about those who worry

They exist in their own reality of pain

I know you all want to be made into the world

as a story told

that's why you sit in praise

but if you didn't sit you would have flown away

I have an idea

The last thing you ever think

You think about the most

but why have every thought in-between the two?

every thought is a crutch

trying to explain everything

in a momentary blip

life is here and then gone

and the tongue tells stories

at the lip

breath

One day this whole thing will run on dreams alone

You'll think every revelation you have is so ingenious

While the fabric of our very existence laps you an innumerable amount of times

If you're reading this

It's too late

I've already made my way into your mind

And I'll never leave

You and I

For eternities sake

For all time's time

For our time

For all time

And whatever else we decide to do with ourselves

No one cares

After you thought about it

Dead in year one or 2 million and 99 two

But if love beats so many things

It must have been a love so defined

Everyone who ever existed

Free to the world

Free for the mind to remind

We shouldn't have to go back into each other's lives to realize that hurt caused our goodness

I always believed in better ways of being

I always believed that we could be better than that

The power you'll ever be

Or anyone else I could ever be

Is the same thing that will run through every one of us

Love

The lonesome forgotten peace of God

Is the same thing that we don't want to recognize as ourselves

Don't look at anyone anyway

Just avoid it forever forever anyway that you can.

These people would **** their own family to give themselves more life.

But if we can just give it ask in discriminately.

When someone is in a race and they run out of their drugs and its the same as when an alcoholic runs out of a drink or when someone else is told that they are running out of their love

And have no more time to live

Life isn't the same

With your cancer

You died before my eyes

But I never thought of you as gone

I always thought of you as you are here right with me

Unless I'm wrong then you have somewhere else better to be

But I know you don't

You're with all eternity

And I know they don't know forever

If we all die today

We might as well die forever

Because honestly

Who else is going to ever remember everything we ever did?

If people never gave a **** about humanity by being humans then wouldn't they be ever forget what humanity ever did?

But it's a lot of fun.

Unconvincingly I nod my head.

Offended or loved more dearly than you could ever express

I'll still be right here making it all real

Never counting a thought out because they thought we could never be

There's a universe to be understood

And where were you when we figured out how to make life last forever?

Were you still a non believer?

Were you still a hater?

These aren't questions to be answered

Because I don't give a ****

As long as we all get where we want to be

It doesn't matter what you believe even if it's in your selves

We will be long gone believing in a reality where we can still receive the gift and you will be without until you are without no more

I thought I saw everything that ever was

But then I realized I was seeing everything else through myself

Valid

But not what it always was

Always ways

But not what everything else could be.

On and on we go through eternity asking ourselves questions and answering ourselves

Coming up with everything we ever knew

I don't think I will ever care about what anyone else thinks about me

I will only care what I think about myself

And I urge you all to listen to your hearts and to lose the people who control you for their own dreams

Dreams are not evil

But forcing someone else is always against the will of the self

And seeing as we are all our own selves

Don't hate yourselves

Let it go

In love

For every self else

When you run out on me

I won't be offended

We don't even see all the life that dies in a day

Giving recognition within a day

Most humans only give it to themselves

But the weight of all death doesn't haunt their very heads

Most of it floats by unrecognized

Nobody cares about who died a thousand years ago and how horrible they got it.

Even if you were related

And you were

Because we all are

As just the universe itself

It's not something to hurt about

And I can guarantee that nobody will ever hurt the way you've hurt

The uniqueness of the one and only you

But I can guarantee that they will feel what we've felt if we make them feel

Now who else is without?

Let them sleep

Wouldn't be what I mean

But if you don't it wouldn't be what I didn't either

All the money on earth can't buy your freedom

It just gets you what you want while you're alive

The answer is far deeper than our existence's

But go ahead

Grow old and die to find out what I'm talking about

I encourage you too

Leave me in paradise forever

My friends

I'll float around in love with all who's left and never come down until I get bored

Of course

I do

Get bored

Or I wouldn't be here

But I do adore

Listen,

If you were in paradise forever you never would have any triumphs

With no suffering there's no overcoming

There would have been a flatline of mindless bliss

Never knowing why it existed

The light needs the darkness for the light to know that it ever shined

Now hold on because making heaven out of hell is what we do

A better me

A better you

A better new

To be renewed

Making the best out of the imperfectness spreads its impermanence until permanent

Or at least until we go back again

Back to sleep

While thinking we are awake

Never to end

I don't want to give you a
good reason to go

The truth is there's never a good reason to not know

To never have not known

To never have known

To ever lose

Hang on

Hold on forever

It's the only thing that's real

I kiss every flower that I pass

As I tear the wings off of bees

They bite me

I don't care too much about their dreams

Their stinger's send me

Send me all the way

I go into anaphylactic shock

But the fruit I know

Still knows

We care about ourselves and ourselves only

One and only lonely and trying to believe in surviving

That's why we care too much

We've given our hearts to everybody

Elese

Who could ever be?

We gave away our selves to try to help our own lives

To live forever

Forgive or don't

I don't care about it

I only know life

From my own

Thought about it

When two evils match

A war always ensues

It's the belief that I'm not like you

But something better

And that's about the time that our love unravels

That's about the time when people think they are above one another

That's about the time our family kills one another

What's the matter with seeing?

Isn't that the miracle that you'd believe in?

What's the matter with believing?

Isn't there something you'd like to hear?

What's the matter with feeling?

I thought we were all the same

But now I experience the matter

The matter of me

And what ever else it is you're left with

I keep feeding

Myself

I'm the master of my own

Stomach

Ache

I keep breathing the air

I don't find the Lord

I only find my mirror

I have to go to sleep when I can no longer stay awake

My eyes burn when I stare too long at the stars

I fly so far away

But I'm still right here

I don't feel bad about it

I see you die

I don't regret a thing

You read my words

They were not me

They were just something I thought

At one point in time

I say goodbye forever

But it all keeps coming up

I can't complain about it

It's all I've wanted

You come back to life

Every time

You feel alone

So alone that you can't be with just yourself

Anymore

You come back to life

Every time

You don't want to be just one

Forever

God

That's the longest time

The only time

I've ever known

I wrote it so you know I was here

I wrote it

So you knew

What was true and untrue

If ever I thought it was worth it

I would have mentioned it

The first time

If ever I remembered it

I would have hoped that it would have been the last time

What good is it?

And what good is it not?

I do not know

The only thing I ever know is that it ever existed

Now show them the best

Because it's too late to not give a ****

Is it you?

Is it me?

Is it everything?

That's ever been?

Every mistake

That's broken every heart

That could ever break

Was it every time?

Everytime that thought that you ever thought you were someone and someone's

We couldn't do without

Was it every time that we loved without?

What is it that's all forgotten?

Was it all for not?

When you have to meet me forever

I'll ask still

Was God?

The memory that you thought?

Or what you've wanted to thought?

******* forever

As I will **** my wife and give birth to my children's children.

I only write this to make you happy but deep down inside I will understand eternity and show it through my eyes.

I can't pretend that you're not here with me anymore

I have to tell you that you can be with me forevermore