She peeked through the blinds into the dark street with only one bright light atop a lamppost outside the window.
The glow  from the lamppost seemed stark white against her white shirt with dark bars across her chest from where the blinds covered the light.
In the dark shadows she waited....
He would be there soon to sweep her away into another world.
She could see the headlights in a distance, it was her escape.
She ran into the night blocking the thought of her precious children.
She wanted more than he gave her and she would return soon.
It was only after she realized the pain they endured. They needed her too.
The void can never be replaced.
What she thought was need was selfish desire paid in full by her children's anguish.
Now regrets are her memories and heartbreak to know that what was taken in darkness can never be returned.
Innocent children had to grow up too soon because mommy and daddy needed more....

I ran down the hill in a furious dart
My bare feet burning in the summer dirt
The sun beating down on my dark, curly hair
As I ran

How could the words I heard be truth?
Why didn't I know before I was told?
Confusion and grief were filling my head
As I ran

Years have gone with questions unanswered
Truths still not uttered
Hopes dashed upon a fear
And I run

Time is a motion moving away
Climbing and clawing
Running away
Time only stops when love is about
Then scurries out
Don't close your eyes while time moves on
You'll miss the sweet, the laughter, the dawn.

I dance

Alone and in silence
To the music within me
No one hears

I dance

With grace unbalanced
Like a swan on water
With no fear

I dance

Like no one is watching
Even though I know
No one hears

The sweet sound within me

But I dance

With great pride I dance
With love I sway
To the sweet sound no one hears
But I dance anyway

I talked to an 77-year-old man who was washing the windows at Pizza Hut today.
He was young and so happy.
He was kind.
And wise.
He was rich.
He had no money.
He had nice eyes.
He was going blind.
He had a beautiful smile.
His teeth were rotten.
His name was Jerome.
And all he wanted to do was help people.
He taught me so much in 6 minutes.

Confusion sets in
Doubt consumes my soul
Intuition becomes second nature
With each breath, I release control

With everything I become
And all I leave behind
Anew, my spirit soars above
Releasing my troubled mind

Enlightenment fulfills me
Awakening me from slumber
Now my life is not my own
Through love, I finally found more

Sunshine can now brighten
In darkness I'll only dream
For I know that I will awaken tomorrow
With a new song to sing

I long to be perfect
But I'm consumed with shame and guilt.
I see what's before me
Yet I only feel what's real.
Can I overcome my own destiny?
How do I change my fate?
Love is only a diversion.
My life is at stake.
I crave your acceptance.
Yet I receive your contempt.
I digress once more.
My life is already spent.

In my heart
I feel a sweet melody.

Albeit, playing a little off-key.

Deep, insightful dreams
Do awaken me

And disturb
My sweet insanity.

No love, for which I do seek
Can remove the remnants
Of sweet animosity.

Playful moods disturb my reverie
And all succumb
To my blissful idiocracy.

If anyone asks me what i want right now

besides the obvious answer being YOU,

all i want is to write poetry and

see your face in my head as the words come to me.

it's not hard to believe that you are

the sole subject of my prose.

As if writing about you could heal my soul

i hate that you have this hold on me

i never knew how weak i really was.

For as often as i see you,

you might as well be on Jupiter instead of the

other side of town

I gave my heart
You crushed my soul
With a mocking grin
You let me go

How dare you hate
And now I find
You gave to others
What was only mine

To walk away
Will be my trial
No looking back
No denial