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Sep 2011 J Allen Bertsch

David Nelson

I surrender

I wish it would have ended differently
I wish it would have been like the beginning
like a couple of high school kids
we were both so excited

I'm not sure the excitement ever left
it certainly didn't for me I know
but it changed we changed

I surrender all my thoughts
they still are about you

I surrender my lonely heart
it still misses you so bad

I surrender all my tears
they still fall for you

I surrender

Gomer LePoet ....

Sep 2011 J Allen Bertsch

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Sep 2011 J Allen Bertsch

Alexis Lehrer

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Nothing comes out quite even,
My hidden Lucifer always appears flights ahead,
While I settle into *******,
Silently captured by my anxiety,
My prayers fervently surrendered
to the One I call my Almighty.
Reluctantly, I slide gracefully-
into a waltz with Lucifer,
Heals over head,
I allow him to sweep me off my feet,
but I find my heart more heavy,
more guilt laden,
than ever before.
All of the sudden,
I cry out,
My dearest Papa,
please take me away.
My eyes open, my fears release, I am in His arms.

How quickly my heart lightened as I return to my Fathers fulfilling contentment.

Sep 2011 J Allen Bertsch

Beautiful Dear, I Need to Assure You, I Need to Assure Myself

Sep 2011 J Allen Bertsch

Alexis Lehrer

Beautiful Dear, I Need to Assure You, I Need to Assure Myself

Please understand,
There will not be a place and there will not be a time,
There will only ever be a here and now.

You must understand-
There will be a breakthrough,
You will have a dawn.

I understand,
you cannot see your breakthrough-
You probably don’t feel your dawn,
but one is waiting.

Could you understand?
You can make your future happen,
and you will be able to fix your problems?

We can understand,
You might not be happy,
You might feel like crying,
But we can help you through this.

Will you understand,
Without you there will be no end,
Without you there will be no help?

I beg you to understand,
Because if you cannot live through,
I have no hope to survive.

Aug 2011 J Allen Bertsch

Without Blinders

Aug 2011 J Allen Bertsch

PrttyBrd

Without Blinders

I see you
Alone in a crowded room
Speaking about nothing
Going through life lost inside yourself
Thinking that you're invisible
But I see you

I see you
Cigarette in hand for something to do
Working away your time for nothing
Throwing yourself into anything to keep busy
Hiding from the pain you're afraid will lead you to hell
I see you

I see you
Silently crying yourself to sleep
Wondering why it has to be so hard
Wanting nothing more than to be free
Locked behind who you want to be
I see you

I see you
So good inside, masked by a hardening shell
Heartfelt smile that shines in your eyes
So beautiful a heart that the world seems ugly
Too much disappointment, afraid to let go
I see you

I see you
Pain, excruciating, nothing to fill the gaping wounds
Liquid poured right through your soul
Ashamed of the past, afraid there's no future
One day at a time, a means to an end
I see you

I see you
Fighting everyday to be closer to good
Yet, believing all you touch turns black
Those who seek you out don't rate
Assuming they must be crazy to hang around
I see you

I see you
Happy for a minute and ashamed that you were
Thinking you poison all that you love
Caring so much that it consumes you
Believing your doing right by cutting loose
I see you

I see you
Feeling like damaged goods
Sitting on the cusp of acceptance
Trying to re-assimilate
But more afraid of success than failure
I see you

I see you
Ignoring what's right in front of you
Pretending it's not deserved
Fighting your demons alone
Afraid to smile and bask in the joy
I see you

Can you see
That you don't have to fight alone
That you are loved just as you are
That you are an imperfect person
But you are still a good man
Can you see that I see the real you