you're not all one
but in my mind you shall be
through your bedroom window and the floor beside your bed i lied
in the garage i smoked *** with you and your baby-mothers-father
in the back of your car where i first heard the melody of my soul
in your inner city house i spent too much time in
waking up in your arms and you lying to me then and months down the road
sleeping in your van while it was 40 degrees
in your arms because i was lonely
in your heatless house with candles lit and all but it wasn't romantic
running on no sleep while the sun scanned over us that morning
in your basement while your mom was at work
in another basement as i stared at the posters on your wall
you are different people
but i still got what i wanted

dude like listen
i love you
i grew inside your womb
you created me with your own flesh
the best of our relationship
was before i could even form a thought
and that's kind of sad

i'm in unimaginable pain
but i have never been happier

I don’t want peace
I want chaos
I don’t want stability
I want endless uncertainty
I can’t feel anything else

“Is this how you want your life to go?”
No
That’s why I’ll be gone by 21

my head feels dizzy
my soul feels funky
i have googly eyes
there are stitches in my soul
my eyes feel glossy
i have doe legs
my head hurts
i can't think right
i feel sick

it has been 3 years since ive seen you
who are you
there's an image i have of you in my minds eye
but i don't know where my pupils are
you use to make me laugh until i couldn't breathe
but i haven't felt my lungs in years
what are you if i ain't me?