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Jul 2013 · 1.4k
Stop Romanticizing
AJ Jul 2013
I really don't think you understand.
I will explain it to you.

Being bulimic is convincing yourself,
That you don't like pizza, or chips, or ice cream.
And eventually you believe it whole heartedly.
And you cannot stand those foods anymore.

Being bulimic is pretending
To eat dinner in your room,
And just hiding it in a plastic bag,
Until you have time to get rid of it.

Being bulimic is more than just counting calories.
You count calories, and bites, and calculate percentage of calories from fat,
And how many calories you have left that day.
And you can't sleep if you haven't written every bite down.

Being bulimic is having an absolute panic attack
When dinner plans are changed.
You planned for this meal.
And now everything you worked so *******, is gone.

Being bulimic is waiting till 2 am,
When everyone is asleep,
So you can sneak out to the kitchen,
And take a bunch of food back to your room.

Being bulimic is binging on so much food,
Way beyond what makes your stomach feel comfortable,
And you don't even like the food your eating.
You don't even like it, and you just stuff it in your mouth.

Being bulimic is being able to ***** without a toothbrush,
And doing at least 600 crunches that night,
So that you don't need to cut yourself
For what you just did.

Romanticize it all you want,
But my teeth rotted,
And i still have friends that listen outside the bathroom door.
Have fun, because I'm not.
Jul 2013 · 925
Son III
AJ Jul 2013
Collin was not very kind today.
He beat up another little ghost boy, he told me.
This one didn't die in the fire,
This one was in a car accident,
And he was named Bobby.
Collin didn't play nice,
And he is now in time out.
He made a candle fall off my bookshelf because of it.
I am tired of your **** today Collin.
Behave.
Other stories about Collin can be found in the collection "Son", which you can find if you look in the notes down below.
Jul 2013 · 2.4k
Most Likely Coffee
AJ Jul 2013
"There's nothing you can do that I haven't already done to myself."
I can dance naked to MSI if I really want to.
I really do want to.
That song awakens my inner stripper.
I'm making a tattoo appointment for this week.
Going to get a semicolon on my suicide scar so I never forget,
That I was once a dumb teenager
Who had more courage than I do right this second.
It makes me panic to think that they don't call english muffins
English muffins in England.
Two types of muffins?
Who would've thought?
It gives me anxiety.
My computer keeps translating all my pages into Polish.
Nie wiem nic.
Strange thing, but I don't mind.
I need more coffee,
Possibly *****,
But most likely coffee.
Jacob is going through a new phase,
And I will wonder if it'll last a few more months,
Till he turns four.
"You can't do that"
"Aaaaactually..... I can."
Aaaaaactually you can't munchkin.
But you keep reminding me you're not a munchkin,
You're a boy.
Silly boy.
Silly me.
Jul 2013 · 946
Ugh. Legit.
AJ Jul 2013
I am not a big fan of people getting tired of me.
Time to find a new toy, I guess.
Jul 2013 · 614
Just... Don't... K
AJ Jul 2013
I am fifty times more annoyed than ever,
At least this proves I was right,
You had fallen for me.
And now you're just a little *****.
Jul 2013 · 682
Son II
AJ Jul 2013
There's a little boy named Collin,
Who lives just outside my head.
He asked me to share our secret.
And that secret is, he's dead.

He lives in my peripheral vision,
And vacations in my dreams.
Sometimes he's very sad,
But he's not as lonely as he seems.

He tells me stories of his other mom,
Her name, in fact, was Kim,
She loved him very much you see,
But she could not save him.

Collin burnt up one day,
When a bad man bombed a church,
He cries when I sing him hymns,
He tells me that it hurts.

I let him cry on my lap,
And I tell him about that moon,
And in my dreams, if he wanted,
He could go there very soon.

We stayed there for three days,
And we ate all the moon cheese,
But when it was time to go home,
Collin wasn't pleased.

We have a summer home there now.
Other stories about Collin can be found in the collection "Son", which you can find if you look in the notes down below.
Jul 2013 · 1.1k
Leaves
AJ Jul 2013
If you treat me like dirt,
I will become dirt
And I will lay there.
And I will not move until you move me.
Then you'll feel how "insignificant" I really am.
I've always been banging my head into walls,
Started at age two.
It has gotten me a lot farther than you think.
Saying your name brings me so much exhaustion
That I could faint by the time
The first syllable exists my lips.
If I ever start to make sense,
Let me know.
It means I'm starting to lose it,
Well actually,
Starting to find it.
Tragically I fear my subconscious has been looking for "it"
On my days off.
I believe you taught it to do that?
**** you.
Jul 2013 · 1.3k
Iya
AJ Jul 2013
Iya
Call me honeybee one more time,
I dare you.
I love it.
I am so platonicly in love with you.
You are better than starbucks.
Maybe five times better,
But I'm contemplating six and a half.
I just want to make sure you're always super duper happy.
And bring you soup, and tea, and fuzzy blankets, and fab movies when you're sad.
You are the absolute cutest.
You no think I'm pretty.
So dot zee to you.
But I'll get over it,
And I'll never be over you.
No ****.
With all the **** in the world implied.
I feel like I should insert some sort of suggestive emoticon here.
Jul 2013 · 1.3k
La Da Da Di Dum
AJ Jul 2013
So I will tell you a story,
Of a little party girl.
Who created her own world.
And in that world,
She was religion.
She was a goddess.
Her body was everyone's temple.
They prayed to her.
They prayed on her.
Her word was gold.
She ****** like a high class *******.
She could never figure out why they all loved her so much.
Stargazing, naked, on the roof, with a bottle of tequila.
Falling in love with a magical mouse girl.
She felt like Lenny from Of Mice and Men.
She practically snapped her in two.
How can she be so powerful, yet such a mess at the same time?
Jul 2013 · 673
What?
AJ Jul 2013
I cooked amazing baby carrots today.
I honestly thought I was going to die.
This is not a joke.
They were so good that I was caught totally off guard.
I was so cared.
It made me want to run right out the front door,
And down the street,
And all the way to Boston.
You could not possibly understand.
If we could control emotions,
We would have done so already.
We'd all be steady.
Jul 2013 · 1.1k
I Am Slightly Annoyed
AJ Jul 2013
Can I make a sandwich at midnight?
Yes I can, actually.
Shut your
God
******
Mouth.
I like to ****.
I like to eat sandwiches at midnight.
I like to smoke.
I like to write poetry.
And make out in elevators.
And be young.
And I will **** **** if I want to,
And I will be  **** if I want to.
Try and stop me?
Jul 2013 · 1.9k
Peachy Keen
AJ Jul 2013
Cheesy eighties shows make me feel like
Being a bulimic alcoholic is a good choice.
Why is everyone so ugly?
That's a confidence booster.
I could cry over the amount of sunlight I see.
I'm like a little warrior,
Standing on a hilltop of daisies,
With a pair of pink, sparkly safety scissors in my hand,
And a smirk of a five year old genius across my face.
Take my hand and tell me I'm perfect,
That my scars are beauty marks,
My absolute beauty is incomparable,
That I'm your china doll.
As you lay me down on your bed,
And let me know that I'm the only girl for you,
This week.
Take away my safety scissors.
Condescend me.
Tell me I do not know what I am talking about.
But I see everything from my daisy hill, you know.
Jul 2013 · 1.3k
Crocodile Tears
AJ Jul 2013
Ugh, I'm disgusting.
Cigarettes, nail biting, and *****.
Bad habits die so much harder than I do.
I bought some sheets today,
And some bowls,
And a power strip.
And that made me think of a power trip,
And how I wish I was on one.
I have wrinkles under my eyes, you know?
I'm not sure when they happened,
But I know why.
Maybe if I ******* ate something....
They're not as dark as the scars on my thighs,
But still.
I am too old for this masochistic *******.
The days where I was fourteen,
And the school counselor would call my parents
Are over.
There is no poor little ****** senior boy who wants to save me.
Kiss my scars,
And mend my heart.
Force me to eat,
And fix me.
It's not cute anymore.
It's just annoying.
I'm just annoying.
Ugh, I'm disgusting.
Jul 2013 · 684
Really Though
AJ Jul 2013
I'm not going to write an angry poem about you.
Stop looking.
Jul 2013 · 618
My Apologies
AJ Jul 2013
Awh honey,
You didn't do it again did you?
Don't fall for me.
I already told you I was broken.
I'm a warrior.
I've been to battle.
I created the battles.
I shot myself.
I'm like a siren.
My bad.
Awh honey,
Just stop.
Jul 2013 · 1.8k
Goodnight Moon
AJ Jul 2013
When I was little
I read Goodnight moon every night.
And I'd goodnight kiss my bed.
And my door.
And my rocking chair.
And the floor.
And then I'd set up four little stuffed animal guards,
Back to back,
To watch the four walls of my room.
So that all the demons couldn't get to me.
They were my troops.
If I closed my eyes,
The ceiling was made of raindrops,
Frozen still.
But they weren't cold.
If I layed flat on my back,
I could hear the sound of my guards talking.
Mutiny they said.
They were going to over throw me.
They had secretly been the demons the whole time.
Those sneaky little *******.
So I crushed them under the weight of my toys,
That very second.
And the next day I pierced all their ears with a bidazler.
And I drew them tattoos.
I made them the thugs they wanted to be.
They didn't like it.
Repented for their sins.
But I used no crayola.
Punishment is a sharpie,
I had told them that before.
And that was the night I realized
I'm so much stronger than the demons.
I do not need a guard.
Goodnight moon.
Jul 2013 · 1.0k
Son
AJ Jul 2013
Son
Sometimes I see a little boy,
In a blue and yellow striped shirt,
In the corner of my eye.
He told me he is a lost spirit,
And that I was to adopt him.
The boy did not remember his name,
He only knew that he was four.
So I tried to call him timothy.
He gave me a headache,
He does not like the name Timothy,
He prefers Collin.
Sometimes he is in my dreams,
And he asks me to sing to him.
He cries when I sing church songs.
And he cries when I smoke or light a candle.
I think he died in a church.
I think he died in a fire.
Poor Collin.
Sometimes he just watches me.
And he sings a little song.
"The wind moves the tree.
And I move too.
But what moves me?
That is up to you."
Poor Collin.
Other stories about Collin can be found in the collection "Son", which you can find if you look in the notes down below.
Jul 2013 · 1000
Careful
AJ Jul 2013
I have decided I am mad at you.
And it does not even matter.
I do not even care.
Your words have repulsed me like raw onions.
No take backs.
Druken fools.
Druken tools.
Which ones are we?
AJ Jul 2013
Some people are madly in love with me,
And it makes me so sad.
I know some of you might not think of much me,
But I regret to inform you that I'm a real heartbreaker.
The way I walk around this earth,
With my high heeled attitute, my mermade hair, and my blue dragon eyes.
"She'll save me,
She's magic."
It's completely false.
And completely tragic.
I can only reflect what you're putting into me.
I try not to use you all,
I really do.
I didn't want to be your first time baby girl,
I didn't want him to give me his heart on a silver platter.
It didn't matter.
I was only playing a stupid little game.
I can't quite remember the name.
But it's all I know to do.
I'm sorry I'm such a good ****.
I'm sorry I'm so **** cute when I'm high.
I'm sorry I have the voice of an angel.
I'm sorry I can read you so well.
I'm sorry every time I say one of your names there's an electric current
Running from your stomach,
To you fingertips,
And back.
I'm sorry every slip up is precisely planned.
I'm sorry I have you in my hand.
I can't tell if it's a conscience effort or not.
I guess I forgot.
I'm just an alcoholic nympomaniac.
But the real problem with that,
Is that I am unbelievably brilliant.
And I am unbelievably sorry
That you all ran head on into the little web I forgot to unspin.
Jul 2013 · 603
Peace Out
AJ Jul 2013
I am cold.
I am quiet.
I'm in a hotel room with the shades drawn.
I have four bottles of pills
And two bottles of sobieski.
I could not be more tempted.
I love you all.
I'd like to thank the accademy.
Thank you all for having me.
Jul 2013 · 1.5k
General
AJ Jul 2013
This is killing me.
You are killing me.
You sick little ****.
I'm not going to answer your calls.
It is making me feel like I'm in a baracade.
And you have opened fire.
You're trying to luer me out
With ****** voicemails
"Baby I wanna *******".
"I love it when you scream no".
"Make me a sandwhich doll face".
"Let me ******* to death".
I will rip out my own heart before I answer.
Before I leave my bunker.
******* you sadist pig.
Jul 2013 · 1.2k
Fucking Fuck
AJ Jul 2013
OH MY ******* GOD.
I need a night out.
I need to drink.
I need to do lines of snow.
I need to dance.
I need to go crazy.
Swim in a heated pool at three am.
Throw a bottle of ***** in a wood chipper.
Scream at the top of my lungs.
Turn a few girls gay.
And walk around like I own every
******* person in the room.
Someone take me out.
I'm bored.
I need a power trip.
Jul 2013 · 1.1k
Thrashing
AJ Jul 2013
I've been stuck reading a deranged book
Where twelve year olds are *****,
And a small child is more philisophical than my professor.
It makes me want to become "Manda and the Giant Peach".
But instead I grab a steak knife and a peach from the fridge.
I listen to the rain on the tin roof.
It is a deafining constant.
It's the soundtrack to infinity.
Every other time you blink
You're naked in a bathtub in a mental institution,
With some lady named Mrs. White
Looking down at you as you throw a fit.
I throw good fits.
I hate to blink back to my peach and my knife and my book.
I might as well just throw another fit
And throw the peach away.
Oh Mrs. White?
Jul 2013 · 919
Purposely "Untitled"
AJ Jul 2013
You were a *******.
And I really hate you.
Jul 2013 · 3.8k
Pick Me Up
AJ Jul 2013
I want to sleep.
I am very tired.
Things are blury.
I don't remember getting on the ground.
I can feel my heart beating loudly.
I blink for ten point five seconds at a time.
Where am I?
Jul 2013 · 1.1k
Irreversible
AJ Jul 2013
There's something very sad about
Watching a big boulder erode away
Into millions of tiny grains of sand.

There's something very sad about
Finding the big dipper amoungst the stars
But never finding anything else.

There'a something very sad about
Realizing that this is your last horra
And the party is over.

There's something very sad about
Putting on a blindfold
And taking a sunset stroll on the beach.

There's just something very sad.
AJ Jul 2013
It's just one of those miserable nights.
I didn't push people away.
I kicked them out.
I'm hormonal and everyone is bothering me.
I do not know why.
I do not care why.
It is time I let myself be selfish.
It is time I do things for myself beside drinking
And smoking
And crying
And cutting.
And feeling like **** about the people around me.
Am I needed because you want me?
Or is the fact that there is so much change freaking you out?
I can't be here just so you can have a conatant.
Just to reduce your stress level.
I have a stress level too,
In case you were wondering.
Incase you were wondering too.
All I want to do is scream.
And rip out all of my hair,
And jump off a very high building.
I would do it all too,
If I didn't have enough courage,
And valor in me.
I don't care if I come first,
But I don't like to come in last,
And especially when I don't come in at all.
I at least thought you'd let me continue running the race.
Jul 2013 · 3.7k
Holy Cow
AJ Jul 2013
I'm only interesting when my pain is fresh.
It has festered now,
And I just feel repetitive and bitter.
Like a green apple,
I hate green apples.
Jul 2013 · 869
I Can't Help It
AJ Jul 2013
I'm sorry you are jealous.
I'm sorry you are falling in love with me.
I'm sorry you want someone to fall in love with.
I'm sorry you feel unfulfilled.
I'm sorry you feel trapped.
I'm sorry you can't open up for extended periods of time without feeling annoying.
I'm sorry you make me feel annoying if I do.
I'm sorry if you feel you're a twenty-something wreck.
I'm sorry I'm a young, talented, heart breaker.
I'm sorry because I like you.
I'm sorry I'm not in love with you.
Jun 2013 · 932
If Only, If Only
AJ Jun 2013
Everyone hopes that they are broken,
Because if you're broken
That means that there is a cure,
A treatment,
A medication,
A program that can fix you.
If you're broken,
Then someone can make it stop.
The real fear is that you're fine,
And it can't get better.
The real fear is that this is normal.
It really hurts this much to lose a friend,
To move,
To not get the job,
Or to get the job.
Just to feel so sad and scared and disorientated.
It is all completely normal,
And you can't fix it.
No one fears being broken,
You can make that stop.
It's the real ability to feel pain that you can't change,
And that is terrifying.
Jun 2013 · 2.0k
Not Enough Effort
AJ Jun 2013
Today I bought some cheap press powder
That makes my face smell like cinnamon and old people.
It was fifty percent off and I could not hold myself back.
I cashed another pay check today,
Money money money money.
Everyone is really annoying.
I liked it better when my worlds were separate.
They have all collided as of right now.
I just want everyone to unacquaint themselves,
And/or go **** themselves.
Because I cannot spare my feelings,
As well as all of yours
At the same time.
Tonight I went to Olive Garden,
I did not finish my mushroom ravioli.
Oh well.
Just another day in the life of a non-super hero.
AJ Jun 2013
Lying in the grass at two in the morning,
Smoking some Marlboro 27s,
With a bottle of Sobieski by my side.
I'm staring into the completely blank sky,
And the clouds have gypped me again.
My stomach feels warm,
My head feels heavy.
The clouds where too ominous.
I should have remembered foreshadowing from my childhood.
The one vocab used every ******* year ,
From ages 10 to 18.
I knew it was going to rain.
By this point I don't have enough sobriety stored up to care.
Or to leave.
If the rain wants to get in my hair, and my mouth, and my clothes, and my soul,
It'll be closer than I want anyone else to be at this moment.
Jun 2013 · 807
Incidentally
AJ Jun 2013
I got lost today.
I didn't mind one bit.
I wasn't late for anything,
And I had plenty of gas in my tank.
It felt good to wander around.
To have no cell service.
No one knows where I am,
Not even me.
Jun 2013 · 1.2k
Paternal Instinct
AJ Jun 2013
Why, you silly *****,
I felt so sorry for you
That my pity changed from utter exhaustion to borderline hatred.
Oh you miserable fool,
You drained me in more ways than one,
And you were never around when it wasn't Jack Daniels and a TV remote.
Yes, you wretched *******,
The only thing I learned from you was how to hit,
And passively dance around my problems like they are just pesky ants.
*******, you oblivious *******.
You caused the scars and the attempts.
You drove nothing but vile thoughts of self hatred into my brain.
I can't be afraid of someone who is that pathetic.
I feel so sorry for you,
You ignorant *******.
Jun 2013 · 656
Ha
AJ Jun 2013
Ha
My eyes hurt.
I don't know if it's because I'm tired
Or sad
Or I got shampoo in them,
And didn't realize it.
None the less they burn,
And I feel dizzy,
And sick,
And a bit like a fallen child actor.
Jun 2013 · 1.6k
Trading Places
AJ Jun 2013
I feel very cute.
With my hello kitty **** shorts,
And my big grey hoodie,
Hiding under my generic snuggie.
My hair smells like an expensive french wine,
And my black painted fingernails have been
Chipped by injustice and carelessness.
But it makes no difference.
I only know how to play the victim,
Or a sad, scared little girl.
This is a new role for me.
And I find it ironic,
That your method of comforting me,
When I am distraught and distressed,
Is to rest your head on my shoulder.
Do I follow your examples?
It doesn't feel raw enough.
So now what do I do?
Jun 2013 · 1.3k
Fish Wishes and Proud Clouds
AJ Jun 2013
I went for a run,
And listened to the sweet stylings of Eminem and Pink.
I enjoy the puns while my lungs are giving out due to my exertion of energy.
After an hour I jumped into the pond,
And I watched the fish swim around me.
And they looked to peaceful,
And they wished their fish wishes.
And it reminded me of an effortless cloud.
And that reminded me of my favorite childhood poem.
It was from Winnie The Pooh.
"How sweet to be a Cloud
Floating in the Blue!
It makes him very proud
To be a little cloud."
And I thought about how much has changed since I first heard that poem.
Now I love poems about suicide, ***, and self deprivation,
But I still wish I was a cloud,
And I do not love that poem any less.
AJ Jun 2013
I feel very tired.
My phone is dying
My charger is lost.
I watched Golden Girls today.
I'm in love with Betty White.
I feel very naseous and unnormal.
I think I might be expecting again.
I want to brake a glass dish.
TV makes it look like a good stress reliever.
I ate a peach when I got home.
I wish it was organic.
I wish I was organic.
Jun 2013 · 3.6k
Plastic Anatomy
AJ Jun 2013
When I was younger I was very girly,
I wore dresses and leggings,
But never jeans.
I loved pink and purple,
And I loved sparkles and bows.
I was very girly,
But I hated dolls.
I drew on my sister's baby dolls with ballpoint pens,
Covering their foreheads with my cryptic squiggles.
I would strip my Polly Pockets,
And let them lay naked and ashamed on my bedroom floor.
I would take all the limbs off of my Barbies,
And rearrange them into disfigured beauty queens.
Fake people have always bothered me.
Jun 2013 · 867
My Bad
AJ Jun 2013
Once there was a little girl,
With long curly hair,
And big blue eyes.
She sang before she could talk,
And ran before she could walk.
When she was young all she wanted to do was fly,
When she grew up all she did was cry,
And hope that when she grew up more,
She would die.
AJ Jun 2013
Is it too much to ask for someone to give a ****?
You are not blind.
You can see how ****** up I am.
You all can.
I can't ask for help again,
Because that does absolutely nothing.
Maybe if I stop cutting my legs,
And start cutting my wrists.
Maybe if I get drunk at 8 am.
Maybe if I start doing coke off the kitchen table again,
And waking up at 1 pm,
And staying in all day long.
And leave empty bottles of nyquil around my place,
Just for you to see.
What the **** do I have to do to get some ******* help?
Jun 2013 · 585
Tragedy
AJ Jun 2013
Sometimes I wonder if I like being tragic
And utterly and mysteriously broken.
I can't decide if I'm beautifully tragic,
Or tragically beautiful,
Or just a ******* selfish wreck.
Jun 2013 · 604
My Name
AJ Jun 2013
My first name is Amanda,
Like the song by the band Boston.
"I'm gonna say it like a man and make you understand, Amanda, I love you".
My middle name is Rose,
Like my mother's middle name,
Like my favorite flower.
My third name is Charolet,
Like the book about the pig and the spider.
The spider died, and I missed her.
My last name will be Goodness,
Like the man who kisses the tip of my nose.
Like the man who can't cook a burger by himself.
Jun 2013 · 844
Desperation
AJ Jun 2013
I feel like ****.
Screaming doesn't make it better.
Crying doesn't make it better.
Take a walk and clear my mind.
Smoke a cigarette.
Nothing feels any better.
It's that feeling of desperation that clings to you,
Like wet clothes after a down pour.
It will only get better if I change my clothes.
But in order to do that I must get naked first,
Vulnerable.
And that could quite possibly be worse.
So I will sit here crying,
Waiting for them to dry.
But you forgot to tell me to get out of the rain first.
Jun 2013 · 841
Drama Queen
AJ Jun 2013
Today I slept till noon.
I never do this and it scared me a lot.
The whole day was gone.
I have felt empty ever since.

Today I cooked some pasta.
It didn't stick and tasted very good.
I ate way too much.
I have felt sick ever since.

Today I had a breakdown.
I screamed and cried and threw a fit.
I broke a picture frame.
I've felt tragic ever since.
Jun 2013 · 1.6k
I Had Been So Excited
AJ Jun 2013
I miss you.
You were the only perfect thing I ever made.
I had been so excited.
You were ours.
You were mine.
I have never felt closer.
I had been so excited.
You had erased my fears.
Nothing matter but you.
I had been so excited.
I went through so much so I could have you,
And keep you safe.
I wanted to hold you.
I wanted to coddle you.
Even hearing you cry would've been better than this.
That's all I wanted.
Jun 2013 · 2.1k
A Diamond In the Rough
AJ Jun 2013
You were cruel.
Your hands were cold,
Tearing open my legs.
You liked it when I screamed.
You liked it when  I cried.
Your laughter cut like diamonds.
You made me feel like trash.
You cancelled all my doubts,
With even worse doubts,
With nightmares come true.
You broke me.
You cut me.
You scarred me.
You scared me.
You ruined me.
You liked it when I plead.
You liked it when I begged.
Your laughter cut like diamonds.
A diamond in the rough way you treated me.
You broke me.
You smashed me.
You liked it when you destroyed me.
Jun 2013 · 807
But I Can't Sleep
AJ Jun 2013
I am too hot.
All of my joints need to be reset.
All of my muscles need to be stretched,
It is too loud.
I need a cup of tea.
I need a different blanket.
The fan needs to be on high.
I need to sleep on my stomach.
I need two pillows.
I need to sleep on my side,
Now I am too cold.
Jun 2013 · 2.3k
Nie Dziękuję
AJ Jun 2013
The coffee maker is broken.
Cigarettes are over eight dollars a pack.
My cat is being moody.
I am out of avocados.
My glasses are cracked.
I cannot find any tape.
Nothing is wrong.
I am wrong.
I am tired.
My car is out of gas.
Jun 2013 · 1.1k
Little Boxes
AJ Jun 2013
I keep putting myself into a smaller box,
And then complain that I feel claustrophobic.
And I make the walls thicker,
And I make them sound proof,
And I make the doors increasingly harder to open.
And then I complain.
Because I put myself in a room with pictures,
But no windows.
I do it so that I can't see the present,
And I can't see the future coming.
All I can see is the past.
All I can see are pictures of my old boxes,
The bigger boxes.
Boxes that I could get out of.
I'm in one without a door right now.
I'm going to stay here for a very long time.
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