Isobel G: Poems

393 · Apr 2011

Isobel G Apr 2011

Would you ever think
anything like this
could lie beyond
such a convincing smile.
Did you ever see
what was hiding behind
the silence?
Could you feel the cold
beneath the illusion;
the lie of living
never fails.

©Nicola-Isobel H. 14.04.2011

392 · Apr 2011

Sometimes

Isobel G Apr 2011

Sometimes

Sometimes,
I feel dead,
My fingertips,
Are blue and cold,

Sometimes,
I feel nothing,
Not even when he's here,
Beside me,

Sometimes,
I am hollow,
And only the pain,
Can mask the emptiness,

Sometimes,
I can't breathe,
And just as I begin,
To fade away,
Something pulls me back

©Nicola-Isobel H. 15.04.2011

391 · Dec 2010

Nothing

Isobel G Dec 2010

Nothing

In the end,
There is nothing,
Only nothing,
From the start,
I meant nothing,
*We are nothing

©Nicola-Isobel H. 28.12.2010

391 · Oct 2011

Remind Me Where We Are

Isobel G Oct 2011

Remind Me Where We Are

I'm falling back,
Into old habits,
Drawing my lines,
Through the loneliness,
Giving in,
To the emptiness,
Open my eyes,
Remind me where we are

©Nicola-Isobel H. 11.08.2011

390 · Jun 2011

Because Of You

Isobel G Jun 2011

Because Of You

The lines are shallow,
But kind enough,
To leave a scar,
They're not enough yet,
But when you finally push me,
Over the edge,
You'll find me dead,
And bleeding ruby red,
You'll know,
It was all because of you

388 · Oct 2011

We Were Young

Isobel G Oct 2011

We Were Young

I was so naive,
To think we'd see it all,
That he'd stay for tomorrow,
Though the end was so close,
We were young,
Believing in forever,
Could we have known?

©Nicola-Isobel H. 24.07.2011

387 · Aug 2015

Counterparts

Isobel G Aug 2015

Counterparts

The only time I feel human
is when my clothes are lying
on your floor.

©Nicola-Isobel H. 24.08.2015

387 · Jan 2011

Clear As Day

Isobel G Jan 2011

Clear As Day

His words,
Are clear as day,
And daylight,
Is invisible

©Nicola-Isobel H. 25.01.2011

386 · Dec 2011

No Will

Isobel G Dec 2011

No Will

A slave to all the poison,
Running through my veins,
Take my rights,
I've no will

©Nicola-Isobel H. 10.12.2011

386 · Feb 2011

The Truth

Isobel G Feb 2011

The Truth

The truth is,
Nobody cares,
Who you are,
Or what you think,
They only see,
What they want to see

©Nicola-Isobel H. 16.02.2011

386 · Apr 2011

A Day To The Dead

Isobel G Apr 2011

A Day To The Dead

What is a day,
To the dead?

©Nicola-Isobel H. 06.04.2011

385 · Dec 2010

"To Be or Not To Be"

Isobel G Dec 2010

"To Be or Not To Be"

You will never be,
But you were,
Supposed to be,
You were supposed to be,
There for me,
Like I was there,
For you

©Nicola-Isobel H. 19.05.2010

385 · Apr 2011

Faith In The Monster

Isobel G Apr 2011

Faith In The Monster

I put my faith,
In the monster,
The broken boy,
With the heavy heart,
Why can't he see,
That a monster,
Would have let me,
Bleed

©Nicola-Isobel H. 02.04.2011

To Charles, who is not and never has been a monster.

385 · May 2011

When I Close My Eyes

Isobel G May 2011

When I Close My Eyes

When I close my eyes,
The rain falls,
Drenching the sky,
In grey,
When I close my eyes,
I breathe,
Like I have a reason,
To live,
When I close my eyes,
I'm not alone,
I dream,
I'm not broken

©Nicola-Isobel H. 09.05.2011

385 · Jun 2011

You Will Leave

Isobel G Jun 2011

You Will Leave

It's not that I'm convinced,
That you will leave,
Even though it's inevitable,
I just don't trust myself enough,
To believe you won't

©Nicola-Isobel H. 28.05.2011

384 · Apr 2011

Tell Me How

Isobel G Apr 2011

Tell Me How

Tell me how,
To numb the pain,
To fill the emptiness,
And stop the bleeding

©Nicola-Isobel H. 15.04.2011

384 · Apr 2011

The Sun Shines

Isobel G Apr 2011

The Sun Shines

The clouds are still here,
But they're fading,
With the hours left,
'Til we go our seperate ways,
But I lose track,
Of time and sadness,
And the sun shines,
Through the rain,
I smile,
And I mean it

©Nicola-Isobel H. 21.04.2011

383 · Dec 2014

Forgotten

Isobel G Dec 2014

Forgotten

It's become nothing more than
a vivid dream, replayed in my
mind through a blurry lense.
You ignore it; it keeps me awake
every night.

©Nicola-Isobel H. 16.12.2014

383 · Jun 2011

Take Me With You

Isobel G Jun 2011

Take Me With You

Take me with you,
When you dream,
I can't stand,
To see you close your eyes

©Nicola-Isobel H. 27.05.2011

382 · Apr 2011

Don't Let Me Go

Isobel G Apr 2011

Don't Let Me Go

All I ever wanted,
Was for us to be,
Alive,
I don't want to be,
Alone,
I need you,
Please don't let me go

©Nicola-Isobel H. 16.04.2011

381 · Oct 2011

Isn't It Beautiful

Isobel G Oct 2011

Isn't It Beautiful

Isn't it beautiful,
When the tears,
Slowly drip from your eyes,
And his fingers,
Steal this last piece,
Of humanity,
From your skin

©Nicola-Isobel H. 21.10.2011

380 · Jun 2011

If There Were Words

Isobel G Jun 2011

If There Were Words

If there were words,
To describe how much,
I love you,
I wouldn't feel my heart,
Heavy and bruised,
From the weight of your absence,
I wouldn't see your eyes,
In the rain,
I wouldn't lie awake,
Missing your voice,
Or wishing I mean as much to you,
As I know you mean to me,
But I know,
I love you,
More than anything

©Nicola-Isobel H. 25.05.2011

380 · Apr 2011

Did You Believe It

Isobel G Apr 2011

Did You Believe It

Did you believe it,
When I smiled

©Nicola-Isobel H. 18.04.2011

379 · May 2011

Change

Isobel G May 2011

Change

The seasons changed,
Yet I always stayed,
The same,
But this time,
As winter settles,
The sadness fades away,
Only the emptiness remains

©Nicola-Isobel H. 02.05.2011

378 · May 2011

Anything But Broken

Isobel G May 2011

Anything But Broken

It feels so surreal,
To be anything,
But broken,
You've taken,
All that I was,
And left me to wonder,
What am I now?

©Nicola-Isobel H. 02.05.2011

378 · Apr 2011

The Thought Of You Forgetting

Isobel G Apr 2011

The Thought Of You Forgetting

The thought of you,
Forgetting,
Is killing me inside,
I need to turn it off,
I need to stop this feeling,
Head over the basin,
Coughing up,
What I never ate,
It doesn't work,
You're still on my mind,
I'm still broken,
Broken and terrified,
Please, don't forget

©Nicola-Isobel H. 21.04.2011

378 · Jun 2011

When We're Out Of Words

Isobel G Jun 2011

When We're Out Of Words

When we're out of words to say,
Tell me that you love me,
Show me this is real,
We'll watch the sunlight fade

377 · Jan 2011

Some Things Haven't Changed

Isobel G Jan 2011

Some Things Haven't Changed

So many years,
Have come and gone,
But I still feel,
The same hollow feeling,
Eating away at my insides,
Somewhere beyond me,
Destroying my will to fight,
My reasons to live,
Forgotten

©Nicola-Isobel H. 05.01.2011

377 · Jun 2011

Changing

Isobel G Jun 2011

Changing

I'm so used,
To the cold,
And years,
Of being broken,
I'm no stranger,
To darkness,
I'm not afraid,
Of staying this way,
But of changing,
Only to be lost once again

©Nicola-Isobel H. 13.05.2011

377 · Apr 2011

On My Own

Isobel G Apr 2011

On My Own

How am I supposed,
To do this,
On my own

©Nicola-Isobel H. 16.04.2011

377 · Apr 2016

Undertow

Isobel G Apr 2016

Undertow

Close your eyes
and feel the weight;
like a winter coat
dragging you under water.

Close your eyes
and exhale.

©Nicola-Isobel H. 26.04.2016

375 · Jan 2012

Mirrors

Isobel G Jan 2012

Mirrors

.           I don't love/want/need you | You're everything/nothing/something
I don't care/think/breath anymore | But I'll wait/drown/choke
             I'm not sure/happy/honest | I thought you needed/loved/knew me

               You taste of ink.


                                                                                *I'm still in love...

©Nicola-Isobel H. 10.01.2012

374 · Jun 2011

What Is Love

Isobel G Jun 2011

What Is Love

What is love,
If not a tear,
Fallen in the rain,
Condemned by gravity,
To shatter in the night,
A star in the sky,
In the closing eyes,
Of the beholder,
An image in your mind,
Of a dreamer's sun,
Pulling you deeper,
Into sleep

©Nicola-Isobel H. 23.05.2011

373 · Jun 2011

Love

Isobel G Jun 2011

Love

Love is not,
Something we choose,
It's a terminal disease,
There is no cure,
It takes over,
Becoming ever-present,
Even when it's gone,
It's still a part of you,
And sometimes the only way to get through,
Is to pretend it doesn't **** you,
To walk away

©Nicola-Isobel H. 29.05.2011

373 · Dec 2014

Sorry I have feelings.

Isobel G Dec 2014

Sorry I have feelings.

I only want you to
touch me one last time; to let me
forget myself.

©Nicola-Isobel H. 22.12.2011

371 · Jul 2012

Splinters

Isobel G Jul 2012

Splinters

Even  though they hurt,
if   you  pull  them   out
you         will        bleed.

370 · Apr 2011

We Were Grey

Isobel G Apr 2011

We Were Grey

Silence crashes down around me,
I miss the words,
The words and the spaces,
The rain,
Falling,
Pooling on the sidewalk,
I miss the voice beside me,
The one that made me forget,
That the sky had fallen,
We were grey,
Not broken,
Not whole,
Borderlining happy and sad,
All at once

369 · Mar 2011

What Hurts The Most

Isobel G Mar 2011

What Hurts The Most

What hurts the most,
Is keeping it all,
Inside,
Knowing it would feel,
So right,
Letting you go regardless,
Of everything,
Because I know the answer,
Is no

368 · Mar 2011

Together

Isobel G Mar 2011

Together

Together,
Seems a pleasant state,
To a broken heart

368 · Apr 2015

On the outside, looking in.

Isobel G Apr 2015

On the outside, looking in.

I am in a room full of things.
Empty, lifeless things.

Which of these things is not like the others?

I'm not like anything.

367 · Jun 2011

Where I Want To Stay

Isobel G Jun 2011

Where I Want To Stay

Under a winter sky,
On an autumn day,
Forgotten,
Is the emptiness,
My mind,
Graced by the clarity,
Of silence,
This is where,
I want to stay

366 · Apr 2011

I Let You Down

Isobel G Apr 2011

I Let You Down

Surrounded and alone,
With the words,
Staring back at me,
I won't let you down,
I let you down

365 · Apr 2011

I Want To Stay

Isobel G Apr 2011

I Want To Stay

It's dark,
I am cold,
But only on the inside,
Something is broken,
And I am bleeding,
I need to close my eyes,
I want to close my eyes,
But I want to stay,
With you

364 · May 2011

You Let Go

Isobel G May 2011

You Let Go

Under the surface,
I struggle,
To breathe,
To keep you,
In sight,
The ice above,
Draws blood,
Like glass,
As I fail,
In my desperate attempt,
To hold on,
I tried so hard,
But you let go

364 · Jun 2011

You're The Reason

Isobel G Jun 2011

You're The Reason

You're the first,
And the last thing on my mind,
You're in the rain,
And in the sky,
You replace the emptiness,
And keep the darkness away,
You're the reason,
I'm still breathing,
I love you

363 · Jan 2011

When He's Dead

Isobel G Jan 2011

When He's Dead

It occurs to me,
I've never seen him,
With his eyes closed,
* But when he's dead...

360 · May 2011

The Price We Pay

Isobel G May 2011

The Price We Pay

I wonder,
What he thinks about,
And why,
He's so careful,
There are so many things,
I don't know,
So many things,
I'm afraid of,
But I know,
This will be worth,
The price we pay

360 · Apr 2015

Musing

Isobel G Apr 2015

Musing

How do we survive this life?
*We don't, we all expire.

359 · Jun 2011

The Sky Isn't Really Falling

Isobel G Jun 2011

The Sky Isn't Really Falling

Sometimes,
I'm afraid to take my eyes,
From the mess of cracked asphalt,
And torn leaves,
Beneath my feet,
Just incase,
The sky isn't really falling