The worst part of love,
Is realizing breathing,
Is no longer enough

When I think of you,
The world around me fades,
All I see is sand and rain,
And I wonder when the light,
Will leave your eyes

If there were words,
To describe how much,
I love you,
I wouldn't feel my heart,
Heavy and bruised,
From the weight of your absence,
I wouldn't see your eyes,
In the rain,
I wouldn't lie awake,
Missing your voice,
Or wishing I mean as much to you,
As I know you mean to me,
But I know,
I love you,
More than anything

I love you,
Because you make the sun,
Shine a little brighter,
And the pain,
Drift away to a place,
It cannot be felt,
I love you,
For your honesty,
Because of everything you are,
For giving me a reason,
To wake up,
I love you,
Because I feel so alive,
So real,
When I'm with you,
I wouldn't dream,
Of closing my eyes

Somehow,
Words are not enough,
To show you,
You mean everything,
I love you,
More than I can say

What is love,
If not a tear,
Fallen in the rain,
Condemned by gravity,
To shatter in the night,
A star in the sky,
In the closing eyes,
Of the beholder,
An image in your mind,
Of a dreamer's sun,
Pulling you deeper,
Into sleep

There's too much space,
And not enough air,
When I'm alone,
The only words,
That are on my mind,
Are yours

The thing I hate most,
About life,
Is waking up,
Alone

Your words,
Should be everything I need,
You told me,
What I wanted to hear,
But I still feel empty,
Because I know,
You're not beside me

I lie here,
Allied with the emptiness,
And I wonder,
Where I'm supposed to be

From within my abyss,
I observe the light above,
The cold, dim light,
Shining in the blue,
Falling short of grace

I think of you,
On that grey afternoon,
Your eyes,
Filled with sky,
My mind free,
From the burden of clouds,
You carry the sun,
With your smile

Tell me how the story ends,
What's lost and what remains,
Tell me when the rain begins,
To fall senseless without composure,
Tell me what to say,
My words are not enough

It's times like these,
When I find it hardest to stay,
They take what little I have,
And leave me broken,
A lonely mess,
Of tangled thoughts and tears,
Standing undecided,
On life's edge,
Give me a reason not to fall

There are so many reasons,
Why I dream of dying,
But I'm alive,
Because I'm afraid,
Of what tomorrow holds,
I would miss,
The sun behind me,
And the shadows,
In the sky,
I would miss the summer blues,
And winter greys,
The rain and the stars,
I stayed because you asked me to,
I'm afraid to close my eyes

Under a winter sky,
On an autumn day,
Forgotten,
Is the emptiness,
My mind,
Graced by the clarity,
Of silence,
This is where,
I want to stay

I never asked you,
For anything,
I never let you,
See me cry,
I never called you,
When I was alone,
I never bled,
For you,
You never held me,
When I needed you,
You never tried,
To stop me,
You're not sorry,
Strike me while I'm down

What I want,
Is to walk,
With a sense of direction,
To lie surrounded,
By sun and sand,
And feel alive,
To stand in the rain,
And breathe,
With entity,
I dream,
Of integrity

I stand alone,
In the morning fog,
Praying the rain,
Will wash away,
The darkness

My problem,
Is not coldness,
Nor sadness,
It is not the absence.
Of my sense of self,
Or my longing to die,
All that I am,
Is lonely

I lie empty,
A lonely shore,
In the presence,
Of a disheartened sky

I'm so used,
To the cold,
And years,
Of being broken,
I'm no stranger,
To darkness,
I'm not afraid,
Of staying this way,
But of changing,
Only to be lost once again

On the beach,
We sit,
Warm and smiling,
The world,
Soft around the edges,
I leave you,
Sleeping away the final hours,
Of daylight,
I walk,
Along the lonely shore,
It seems like hours passed,
The sky,
Faded and black,
When I return,
All that's left is the cold,
And the blood-stained sand

In the bath tub,
I lie,
In my soaking black dress,
Vision blurred,
By pills,
Your hands are cold,
Like the water,
I drown in,
As you watch me,
Drifting back to sleep

Under the surface,
I struggle,
To breathe,
To keep you,
In sight,
The ice above,
Draws blood,
Like glass,
As I fail,
In my desperate attempt,
To hold on,
I tried so hard,
But you let go

Sand and smiles,
Miles of ocean,
And a perfect sky,
You laugh,
My hands are small,
When I wake,
You're still beside me,
You feel so cold,
As you dream,
Under the stars,
You're not dreaming,
If only you were dreaming,
But you're gone,
I stay,
Until morning calls

If only,
I could fly away,
I'm dying,
To be free

I wonder if you know,
How much I need you,
Could you understand,
How much I care,
But does it matter at all,
If you don't feel the same,
Tell me what you're thinking

You seem so sure,
There's no good in you,
But I know you're wrong,
If only I could make you see,
All that you've done,
I will show you,
Who you've become

The sunrise,
The rain,
All the things,
That you have changed,
Red and grey,
A perfect sky,
This is you,
In my eyes

Emptiness,
A pain you do not know,
Incessant sorrow,
Cut so deep,
Bleeding life,
Consuming reason,
Tainting hope,
Buried so close,
To the surface,
Yet so intagible,
Just beyond reach,
Hollowness,
Forever aching,
Like scars on once torn skin,
This is emptiness

Sometimes,
I stop to watch,
The sunrise,
And I believe,
For a moment,
I don't feel empty

When I close my eyes,
The rain falls,
Drenching the sky,
In grey,
When I close my eyes,
I breathe,
Like I have a reason,
To live,
When I close my eyes,
I'm not alone,
I dream,
I'm not broken

The seasons changed,
Yet I always stayed,
The same,
But this time,
As winter settles,
The sadness fades away,
Only the emptiness remains

My scars define me,
To the world,
Forever marking,
The emptiness,
But what defines me,
To you

My dreams fade,
In the rainfall,
Like old chalk and dust,
On the sidewalk,
Bleached and bleeding,
Empty colours,
Slipping into grey

I catch myself,
In this moment,
I'm breathing,
But it's nothing,
Like air

I wonder,
What he thinks about,
And why,
He's so careful,
There are so many things,
I don't know,
So many things,
I'm afraid of,
But I know,
This will be worth,
The price we pay

Show me,
How it feels,
To be alive,
Fill the emptiness,
And teach me,
How to breathe,
Take my scars,
And give me,
Anything to believe in,
Lose sight of the past,
Because I'm here,
We have forever,
To dream

It feels so surreal,
To be anything,
But broken,
You've taken,
All that I was,
And left me to wonder,
What am I now?

Silence crashes down around me,
I miss the words,
The words and the spaces,
The rain,
Falling,
Pooling on the sidewalk,
I miss the voice beside me,
The one that made me forget,
That the sky had fallen,
We were grey,
Not broken,
Not whole,
Borderlining happy and sad,
All at once

It was murky and dark,
Deep grey-blue,
I could see you on the surface,
I screamed,
The water flooded in,
Taking oxygen's place,
You couldn't see me,
I was fading too fast

Don't tell me you're bad,
When I need you,
You're keeping me alive,
In a world that kills me,
You're the only cure,
For the poison,
And now I'm not ready,
To say my goodbyes,
Don't make me

It's a disease,
It's destroying me,
Inside and out,
It breaks me open,
Sadness leaves it's mark,
And I carry my scars,
Where you can see them

It's dark,
I am cold,
But only on the inside,
Something is broken,
And I am bleeding,
I need to close my eyes,
I want to close my eyes,
But I want to stay,
With you

The rain falls,
So hard,
Thundering above us,
Don't fall

The clouds are still here,
But they're fading,
With the hours left,
'Til we go our seperate ways,
But I lose track,
Of time and sadness,
And the sun shines,
Through the rain,
I smile,
And I mean it

In the darkness,
I drown,
Slipping into blackness,
And then I wake up,
Plunging back into reality,
I wonder where you are

The thought of you,
Forgetting,
Is killing me inside,
I need to turn it off,
I need to stop this feeling,
Head over the basin,
Coughing up,
What I never ate,
It doesn't work,
You're still on my mind,
I'm still broken,
Broken and terrified,
Please, don't forget

"I could forget..."*
The voice screams,
Through my speakers,
As I pray,
You won't forget me