Euphoria has a habit,
Of making me,
Restless, jumpy,
But not in the same way,
The paranoia does,
This time,
I'm filled with something,
Lighter than air,
I'm to awake,
Too alive,
To sleep,
Gravity cannot hold me,
In my chair,
Or keep my feet,
On the ground,
And my mind,
From the clouds,
The rarest thing of all:
A smile, a laugh,
That for once,
Is utterly genuine,
Not feigned in the least,
Because I'm beyond,
Euphoria

I can't read the words,
Without tears forming,
In the corners of my eyes,
You were there for me,
I should have been there too,
I love you,
I'm sorry,
It's such an understatement,
To say I was merely,
"There" for you,
How can you ask me,
To forgive you,
After you left me,
For so long,
So many nights the paranoia,
Kept me awake,
The ambulance sirens,
Scarring my mind,
With blood and suicide,
I don't want you to love me,
I don't want to be second best,
Not again,
Not after everything you put me through,
There's nothing left to say,
Goodbye.

You don't annoy me at all,
In fact, I'd go crazy,
Without our ongoing conversation,
Shouldn't you know by now,
That I'm only lying,
When I tell you,
I'm fine, don't worry,
Because I just can't stand,
The thought of you,
Wasting time,
Worrying if I'll be okay,
Lying awake night after night,
The way I worried,
About him,
I want you to,
All the same,
Just so I'd know,
If you care,
But the guilt,
Would **** me

When he dies,
I will miss,
His wrinkled leather hands,
And withdraw,
From trivial conversation,
Despising laughter,
Choking for air,
All the while,
Sitting in silence,
While they move,
Laughing and smiling,
Quarelling over nothing in particular,
For time will not stop,
In their shallow world,
As it will,
In mine

I have a dream,
That we could lie,
Under the summer night sky,
Beneath the lonely stars,
Just you and me,
The soft, green grass,
Under our backs,
Nowhere but up,
And your heart will beat,
Dangerously fast with mine,
The world too far away,
Just us and the sky,
With Panic! in the background,
"I wanna live a life from a new perspective",
Over and over again,
'Til we fall asleep,
Intertwined