I didn't realize or tell that I was ill,
just a little over whelmed,
Your handsomeness formed by hopes and grief,
Brought your complexion a lighten grace,
I knew this couldn't be the final of our story,
The story of my dreams,
But even sleeping I was stunned,
I needed a snap of reality,
Your face,
The delicate features  physically inches away from mine and yours,
Pure porcelain aspects,
heartwarming,
petrified,
Difficult to memorize your physique, presents
Unable to refer back to a black and white film,
When I saw your lifeless, sadden, face I can only think,
That glance lifting up with clarity and joy,
We cling and griped onto each other for the limited time
that was given in the dream,
You returned once again,
The more I saw you, repeated intentionally,
I couldn't resist and lean against your touch,
without thinking nothing more then the happiness,
Not worried it would lessen nor fade,
Without thinking I was still alive and beating,
I needed to wake up once more,
and see the light,
to wake up to you,
again.

Where can I start?
How,
I'm don't know,
I got rid of all,
the problems,
the sadness,
the depression,
the annoyances,
everything was fine,
And you bring up all this **** back to the surface of things,
telling to someone who's clueless?
Without a care in the world?
Really?
I was done with all that ****,
for something so simple,
Really?
I shouldn't even bother with all of the ******* that you put onto me,
just because you can't handle nor control it yourself,
I simply thought my world was finally balanced,
My guess was wrong,
Again,
Such ******* *******,
Such a ******* liar,
Pure lies,
right beneath your words,
You really think you can get away with this,
I'll give you hell,
Make you suffer like I do,
I don't care anymore,
You can't tell me  but someone else,
Oh,
Watch,
I'll give you a ***** *** attitude,
Since that's what you always say,
Better learn after I teach you,
my true self,

I'm just a *****.

Everything I do,
Everything I say,
Everything I do seems wrong,
Everything I say seems odd,
There's nothing wrong,
There's nothing to be scared of,
My actions and falling out seem to wreak havoc,
confusion,
in your mind and heart,
I assure you,
Everything is fine,
I promised to say how I feel,
How I undergo my days,
What I'm thinking,
But I worry,
Keen,
Will you tell me,
Your feelings?
Your thoughts?
Anxiety takes a toll,
daily,
It saddens, myself, you,
That your only concerned about my own being,
With doubts forming unknowingly,
I wonder, what am I doing?
Can you tell me, everything?

My beautiful white rose,
Planted firmly down like concrete stone,
Seeded in the depths of the world,
Beneath the solid grounds of density,
Rooted into the middle ends of the earth,
You grow,
You stand ,
Now a bud,
But unable to spread out in full bloom,
When will I be able to see your petals,
pompously,
flourishing
one by one,
It's my turn to nourish,
These worries into rest,

Open.

Do you think of me?
I'm dreading the thought,
Over and over again,
There's no insecurities,
just curiosity,
I stated the truth,
never implied,
meant for you,
only you,
your's to keep,
realism put into countless sonnets,
Literal and figurative,
I can only say and do,
All that I want to see,
All that I want to touch,
All that I want to feel,
All that I want to hear,
All that I want to love,
All that I want to miss,
All pointing to you,
Shall I rephrase it again?
All I can think ,
is of you,
I wonder again, do you think of me?
My dear,
Spoken like a letter,
a note filled with warmth,
I ask openly,
Is it wrong?
I stumbled upon you first sight,
Help me answer this question,
Because,
missing you never hurted so much,
until now.

Across,
up and down,
Swirling,
Circles and forms,
I write,
Your name,
On my chest,
On your's,
A dilemma,
Up hold,
I want you all to myself,
Just mine,
Keep & stored away,
Buried treasure,  
hidden away,
My own,
personal paradise,
Only I can discover it,
I shall be selfish and greedy,
To those you are called,
taunting predators,  and dare to touch,
My prized possession,
Love is familiar,
with me and you,
Love will remember,
Everything,
Love can only grow,
Ever more,
Escaping nor leaving is not allowed,
Only preserve,
Hold,
keep,
cherish,
All that I ever knew
&
Need to know.

Isolated fog and silents,
The morning brisk,
Dense sunlight from above,
Over casting rays, reflecting
in from out the dusk of rising sunset,
transferring inside our humble abode ,
The tenderness of your body heat,
The radiance of your glowing shine skin,
glistening,
The sculptured body,
That forms beneath the unfurnished sheets,
The gradient, bitten flesh red,
pump lips,
The complexion of perfection of jealousy,
A jaw line precisely traced onto a bare canvas,
Soft faint eyes,
Infatuated,
Oh,
How much it yearns for a delicate touch,
Capturing the sensual moments and gestures,
Making it difficult to contain,
My immoral, dishonest, corrupted,
thoughts,
Motives,
To impurify the innocents,
from the beginning,
I've polluted everything, markings of lust,
Love,
Unfair but
Unregretful,
Unbelievable,
This is mine.

Did I tell you?..
Your hands were made for me,
fits into mines,
Like perfect symmetry,
You may not think your perfect,
With flaws and imperfections,
But it makes no sense to me,
Your strings of hair, falling evenly into place,
The crinkles that you get when you smile
to the fullest,
Filling the room with laughter and confinement,
Bear in mind that,
I'm in love with you,
All these things,
I love them endlessly,
They come into account,
Can't deny it,
I love every one bit of them,
It makes no sense to me that you don't see that,
I won't let you slip out of my hands,
nor my mind and mouth,
Hold me tight baby,
I never dreamed that I would be
a part of your entity
for eternity,
Never stop endless loving,
let's us fall,
fall,
fall,
in love,
all over again.