Playing the protagonist daily,
Motionless days,
Sitting up with spurned hands,
playing around the with a ring that holds
happiness and bitter pain,
looking out the shaded gray window,
An overcast,
hearing drops of sorrows on the window pane,
Reminds me of the day I found,
and lost you,
The joy of staring into your eyes,
The pain of letting go of your hand,
The love that I felt of your embrace,
The passion of your lips against mine,
The hate of our disagreements,
The guilty I felt when I tried to forget,
The sadness when you took everything ,
when you left without a trace,
Without another word,
Without you in this world,
Trying became an unknown option ,
They lingered,
They unravel,
They stay,
The memories,
Standing on darkness and grief,
Looking out,
Waiting,
Passing with days gone by,
It's not the same,
Nothing has changed,
It'll only change,
Only death do us part.

Your endless rays of perfection,
Wishing for a unwritten flaw,
A mistake for endurance's,
Holding up a shirty front,
Agitated companion,
Restless with covetousness,
Built walls of four,
Cornered shut tight,
Dense from attention,
Convey lies and truths,
What will cause your downfall?
Love?
Hate?
Or,
all of the above?
Remorseful of finding,
Regretful of up bring,
Unreformed of accepting,
What else must come down?

Liar,
Lies,
The face of a Liar,
Is it alarming that I'm this kind of person?
Scanning through the impacts you've put me through,
The impatiences, the tension, the attention,
All that one can do is lie,
Countless lying, the repetition  of the cycle in play
Over and over again,
The central idea of reasons,
Why you ask?
That brings me to tears,
speechless,
You never had intention of becoming my completed whole,
My other half,
The commitments,
The oath,
The vows,
The promises,
They were nothing but a facade of lies,
Every word that spoke underneath your breathe were nothing,
Trying has become a disease,
Reappearing scars

To know you never realized ,
But lies.

I'm aware that I'm not the first,
I'll never be the first,
I consider all the possible consumption,
I've implied that you were the first,
But you never stated I was..
First.
The only one,
That came to mind,
Gradually never became problematic for me,
Until once in a white moon,
Frustration hits like rapid lighting,
Your the epitome of both love and hate,
Simply there's no telling if it's good or bad,
Am I the lucky one?
Or is it,
You.

Never shall I forget that day , the moment you stolen my heart instantly,
Which skipped a beat, every time.
I thought my intentions were simple and dull,
At first...

But as my days with you grew ,
my knees trembled with emotions,
my eyes glimmered with a desire so bright,
A sinful demand arose from within the unknown part of my shameful guilt,
A cascading wish,
Lingering thoughts hidden in the shadows,
My hidden feelings for you were bursting out uncontrollable,
Yearning for your heavenly voice and delicate touch just became unbearable,
It was an obsession,
A dose of drug that I needed daily,
The cure for it was your smile,
Infatuated with a smile that melted away my stress and replace it with
the unthinkable,
My heart was so fond and captivated by your presents',
without a doubt captured the butterflies that fluttered around my stomach and mind,
A visionary photograph of what would be the sweetest future and wish,
gravitating to have and to hold,
Isolated nights longing for a breath taking sensation and tastes of bitter sweet dreams,
For only two lungful arms to wrap around tightly while sleeping soundly and shamelessly,
Then bursting into a light that wakens one's sleep,
To start all over again,
Or not..

It was today,
It was different,
Everything stopped in it's steps,
We made a great escape from left to right,
To our secret base,
Our home,
It was a scene from a classic fairy tale,
You came to me in a different light,
Was it real?
An encounter of embrace that illuminates the clear sighs of happiness,
finally awoke me and into reality,
That was the moment I knew you had to be mine,
I realized,
I needed you in my life,
I wanted you to fall in love with me,
All I wish to see is your indication that you are happy as can be,
Most of all, a part of your heart,
which has has always belonged to you, my love.
These words will last forever.


To be continued....
Our story will never end.

Questioning everything,
Are we in love?
Are we too different?
Are we still connected?
Are we drifting apart?
My soul is aching,
These thoughts flooding my mind,
it's killing the sweetness of my memories of you,
Will you still love me?

When I'm no longer,
full of beauty or youth?
Will you still love me If I have nothing at all?
I'm becoming more hopeless everyday,

I sit alone swinging my legs back and forth motionlessly,
Looking out the faded glass window,
Everyday,
Thinking of you endlessly,
Without another thought coming into mind,
Your all that I can think and imagine,
Why are you all that I see?
Have you really fallen ,
for this love with me?

I acknowledged all your movements,
the weeping tone of your heavenly voice,
Every closed eye,
I can only see your ghostly appearance,
Days go by,
Without you,
It aches,
The surface of my life becomes dim ,
Why is it  I see you so differently?
Antagonizing my beliefs in you,
Give me an explanation.
Please..