I raised my hand
Yet could not **** them...

A pair of winged lovers
Mating
In my empty coffee cup

Fat black flies

If I just could
pull the skin in one piece off my face
tearing slowly, strongly with my fingernails
baring the muscles

Then if I just could
pull the muscles away piece by piece
tearing slowly, strongly with my fingernails
baring the bones

Then if I just could
pull my eyes out of the sockets
tearing slowly, strongly with my fingernails
baring the empty gaze

Baring the truth of my face
Baring the grin of my skull

I have always been envious
of those who are content
yet i have never wished
for their lives -

to find joy in routine
a bliss in the knowledge
of what is an assumed inevitability  
It never sounded like a good idea

We're all animals who prefer
the confines of a zoo,
than the unpredicability of
the wild

We're all
Lions with their teeth knocked out

Take away our desires
replace our instinct
with a mild manner
with what comes natural

Take away our fight
and we'll all be whimpering dogs
you'll find us
Content

Blood on my hands.
A scream choked in my throat.
The moon in the sky gives me comfort no more.
My bed empty again. One more night alone.

You didn't say goodbye. They wouldn't give you the chance to.
They just took you away, so far away.
There was nothing I could do.
I screamed your name.
I cursed their guts.
I cried myself to sleep so many nights.
Still, you were gone.

Now I know crying won't change anything.
It's time to make my move.
Stand up to the monster that dared do this to us.

"Why can't they understand?
Is it so hard to believe?"

I will look for you.
I will fight for you.
I will bring you back home where you belong,
to be together one more time... 'till the end of time.

I won't surrender this fight, even if I have to give my life.
It's not a life without you anyway.

Strung out.
used.
forgotten.
There is something about the way you told me I would be yours forever,
that made me believe you.
Something hidden inside of the smile I loved.
Something undescribable.
Inviting me into my doom.
You quickly flipped the script and I was alone.
Not that you didnt like me, you said.
But that you werent ready to invest.
Invest?
Invest?!
Tell me you werent ready to invest..
Thats how a relationship starts.
That is what a relationship is.
Im so confused.
You know you didnt want to invest in me.
So why should I invest my time into writing this about you.
Hurt speaks in many ways.
But I invest my pain into poetry.

When
                                                         ­                                                               wi­ll                                      *I

                ­                            




                                ­                      find

                               ­                                                         the­ true




                                                        ­                              meaning


of
       my
                                                              ­                                                                 ­                                       









                ­                                                                 ­                                                                 ­             *life.?

She took my hand and followed me
through the trees,
under the archway made of ivy
(flanked by pristinely carved hedges)
into the vast, open field
which met the ethereal red sun
on the horizon.

We sat in the fresh grass,
cool in the evening air.
All the while we stayed silent,
just admiring the untouched space.
Each blade of grass before us
swayed gently,
tantalisingly...

Time had stopped
but everything was still living.
Still moving.
As if this place were not included
in Time's perseverance.  
I didn't want it to be,
it was too important to me.

It occurred to me then
that it wasn't this place
that I valued the most at all
It was this moment.

And I captured it.