I'm so sorry

I wish I was as in love with living
As I am in love with you

But I promise, I will stay
Just a little while longer

Because that is all you ask of me

perhaps i should just give

and then continue to give

and then give until i am no more.

for i am Second,
and you are First,
since the beginning,
and until whenever.

When will the sympathy come
For those like me
Saturating themselves with all the negative emotions they feel
Who never were permitted to release themselves from their own prisons?

your voice sounds like nails on a chalkboard
the way it sounds makes me angry

when you just won't shut up
when you think you're so smart over something you know nothing about

just leave me alone,
you're not as great as you think you are.

I want to be Heard
but you don't listen to me
God, I want to be heard.
When I say I am mad,
When I tell you what bothers me.
I want you to LISTEN to me!!

I want to be Seen
but you don't look my way
I just want to be seen.
When I wear something nice,
When I wear nothing at all
I want you to NOTICE me!!!

I want to be Touched,
but you don't put your hands on me
I want you to touch me
When I lean into a hug,
When I'm starved for your attention
I want you to APPRECIATE me!!!


I want to be Wanted,
but you don't seem to want me,
or my words,
or my face,
or my body.
I just want you to WANT me!!!

But I could lay myself out for you,
naked and eager and beautiful and sweet,
and it's sad that
you would remain
entranced by anything else in the world
but me.