Bad bad black sheep
why're you such a fool
better get out
none needs you
you're a disaster filled with much pain
you're still the little boy who went and gone insane

the black night shines bright through my eye sight
the bright lights doesn't amaze me in this time of night
dark matter is what i'm surrounded by as i write
as i stand idly by while darkness consumes my mind
it's slowly eating me alive, why? because it's savoring every bite

i did not want this
i do not want to live like this
i hate this world
i hate this so much
i just want to **** myself
i want to destroy my soul
i want to blow my brains out
i want to die
i'm a disappointment to my family
i'm a disappointment to everyone
i don't want to live anymore
i want to end it all
no more problems
no more grievances
no more judgements
i wish i would just die

I got my eyes on you
visualizations of us expressing love in an empty field
Your boundless beauty, your perfect body
Your whole being sets my soul on fire
Every inch of your body is what I desire
You look even more mesmerizing from your bedroom window
it pains me to see you with another
I don’t know what it is about you, you got me feeling feelings i've never even felt before
but when you broke my heart
It made me want you even more
You never notice me when I’m outside your house
I’m too shy to even knock on the door
But until I find the courage to talk to you again,
I’ll be right here, looking through your window

The boy who always had a smile on his face
The boy who's overflowing with joy
The boy who believed that light will always appear after darkness
is buried under hatred and pain
screaming for help
no matter how loud he screams, no one can hear him
he is suffocating, he's claustrophobic
one can only imagine the pain and suffering he's enduring
as he breathes his last breath
he reluctantly accepts death

the sound of raindrops soothe my overactive mind
every drop calms my nerves the way cigarettes calms a smoker's
serenity and zen runs through my mind
but then i see a man that crossed the line
a man with no shame
a man who has nothing to offer the world
a man who let madness consume his body and soul
the man who thought he has found peace in rain
still gave in to the agonizing pain

Why am i always waiting?
Why am i expecting you to come back
Why do i feel like you're just gonna come knocking at my door?
Why is that when you come running through my mind, i come running after you?
Exhausted but i can't stomach us being apart
You can't help making me fall in love then rip out my heart
Are you worth the wait?
I hope you are cause i wasted a lot of time waiting