emotions suprressed
for 5 years or less
i'm not complex
i'm just basically depressed
this weight on my chest
a plate on my breast
shields me from jest
bulletproof vest
bullets of happiness
cardiac arrest
please put me to bed
pass my last test
then let me face death

there are some things that are better left inside your mind
the things that you wish to  not speak of
a certain topic in which you are ashamed to be involved
or an emotion that is better left a secret so it could not ruin someone else's day
but to leave these thoughts stored inside the inner depths of your mind
is just going to make it worse for you
that heavy feeling that you feel because you left a moment of perfect timing pass by like a cloud drifting away in the sky
you wish you could've told someone what's eating you inside
so no matter what you do, no matter what you say, either way, you're ******

As you sit on a field of grass
all alone with your thoughts
don't hesitate to ask
for the things your heart desires the most
keep your head up high
it's not a sin to imagine
then let out a big sigh
as you realize they're never going to happen

we're all ,in a sense, trapped under a car
much like how criminals are trapped behind bars
life is a battle and we're the prisoners of war
life is tearing your ******* apart
know your part, make steel out of your heart
hope for the best and correctly play your cards

We were young back then
whenever you had problems
i was your shoulder to cry on
your boyfriend treated you like number two
i treated you like there was only you
it hurts me every time you forgave him for his ****
but that's all he treated you as, ****
while i sat on the sidelines watching you cry
giving you advice that you never even try
why? are ******* attractive?
he ingests laxative
then what comes out of it, you believe it in an instant
you are part of the reason why i became so distant
i loved you so ****** bad
it was too late when i learned that you did loved me back
but that's all in the past
i'm just here imagining all the perfect times we could've had

What keeps you up at night?
is it that your crush will never like you back?
or those assignments that your teacher keeps riding your *** about are due tomorrow
or the fact that your life will never be in tact
and you will always be filled with sorrow.
Mine is nothing, nothing keeps me up at night.
That feeling of nothingness
nothing is what separates me from dreams and reality
nothing is what we all are
nothing is what i am
I am nothing

a punch to the face is nothing compared to broken emotions
equivalent to an explosion going off in slow motion
as pain takes over, i sense this feeling of implosion
of all the worthy candidates, it's me it has chosen
makes me want to meet death early
then leave me lifeless in the middle of the ocean
as i face death, let me rest, no more commotions