Write to get it out
Emotions not coped with
Dealt with no closure
More Unanswered questions
Don't lose it buried with time
Wasn't important at the moment
Too last to do anything now
Didn't care then why worry now
Can't change the past to fix the current
Shrinking ego lost courage
Time of day find the way
Real happiness truthful ppl
Past mentioned useless now

The day she left thought love ended
Day you move back home feelings of freedom ending
The day your brother dies you can't help but blame yourself
Told to be a role model was your job to be a parent
Become a leader lead by example
The more you want in they keep you out
Told to do something you don't do
Thought of a career pursuing is hard but can be done
Trying to focus not have a break down
It use to feel like no one wanted me around
Mad because you don't get respect and think I owe it to you.
Too many things I couldn't do before but doing them now
With or without you it's what I love and care about
Creative juices flowing over being self destructive only hurting myself so not doing that anymore
After answers and solutions especially when your the problem

After all the wrong people faded away he could now focus so many distractions. He wanted to help those he loved he had their back but when he needed them they were no where to be found. He would help them but if he asked for a favor they act like he wronged them like he never did anything for them. He would babysit and they didn't pay him or the kid to school not asking for money or gas money. He struggled to find work but rather then help him they pointed their noses up and looked down on him made him feel worthless like he didn't matter. He eventually became employed and it kept him humble he knew what it was like to be broke and never looked down on anyone.
He's blessed and thankful for all these obstacles he overcame. He remembers his own family saying not to associate with him that's why he doesn't judge or treat anyone different but if you are rude or mistreat him. He stays away avoiding confrontation, he's not the fighting type even though some needed a beating plus to be taught manners.
He is thankful and Appreciate the people who are thankful and make him feel his good deeds don't go unnoticed his efforts not expecting anything in return but giving his all. He takes pride in his work and all he does. He does what's right and what needs to be done. Now a days others leave it for the next guy. Why not be the guy who gets it done and makes it happen. He lost his job he was sad missed it but it was for the better. He gave his all even if it wasn't good enough. He tried more than most. He found another job that pays better and they treat him like he matters. He feels more accomplished rather than being set up to fail.
It took time but his life did get better doing what he loves even though most don't understand or get his way that's because it's for him and not them.
Lost friends but did gain back self respect and did learn to use his voice to say what he wants and looking around for opportunities instead of seeing hurtles and detours roadblock. He knew hard work would get him there he started so much now it was time for him to finish them.

I dont know why I feel the way I do
Told myself one day I'll be great
Don't know how to get there but know what it takes
Been to ******* myself no one seems to care
I do my best to be loyal and fairs
Emotionless I stare off in the distance
As far and long as it takes to achieve greatness
I think highly of myself barely getting by
Id cry but tears flow make want to get away do better
I'm simple but this are complicated when I thought it would be easy

Woke up so much on the mind
Jump in the car drive fast on the road
Loud music blairing while the wind blows
The open window cool air hitting the face
On the road cruising the streets so my troubles will blow away
Or on the high way racing so you can forget all the worries on the back of your mind

Listen to your heart
Pursue your career
Believe and trust your heart
Fix yourself do what's right
Live it do it
don't let anyone keep you Down
Keep a smile on your face keep good spirit
Stay involved don't get shutout
No time to live in doubt
Never give up let it bleed out
Find your way purse the right direction

I want everything that bugs me and annoys me to go away so I can focus on what I need to get done. Be at my best be myself not letting other stupid factors distract my choices.
I help everyone even if I dislike what im doing but doing the right thing is hard the intentions are good even though others make them seem bad

How do you know your not the one
She wanted to see other guys
I loved her and didnt want to be around that
Being her friend I had no option
I feared falling in love because it caged my heart
Turns out im the one caging others out
If I hurt her it hurt me more
If she hurt me it destroys my every being
I couldnt force her to love me or stay
If it was meant to be it would've worked out
Ive told if I dont fight for her I don't deserve her
I want to say she doesnt deserve me but its not about being right
These confusing emotions cluttered up within
I knew this would make or break me
I felt good vibes and took that risk
Shes in my heart and will always be missed

He always wanted to fit in or belong even if meant giving up what he loved. He didn't belong and sacrificed but still surpassed those who doubted him and left him out. He never knocked anyone or used anyone he was a worker a team player someone who took pride in his work. He was loyal and true what made him sad was all the people he thought highly of thought nothing of him. He pursued success and got treated like a failure. He failed in his relationship to be with his friends now they are in relationships not making time for anyone. That balance and transition is difficult he worked too much no social life; he had a social life but didn't work too often. He loved to be better while others soaked in their misery he didn't understand. He valued people seen them as more but they settled for worse and blamed others when its their life. He didn't agree but didn't argue because some are set in their ways and won't accept change or refuse to do so.
He didn't bother with anyone but everything he did seem to bother everyone. He worried for their feelings that distracted him while tried to help them come up with a solution turns out it was not his problem. He wanted to help and support others hoping they would do the same. They gave him the 3rd degree left him hanging when he needed them. He learned to not be available to people who made him an option instead of a priority.
He rose above all those who judged him and mocked him. They told them NO but he was already doing it. He always did what made him happy even if it was a secret him doing it in private. He made time for himself because no one else gave him the time of day. In the end he felt accomplished satisfied because he had done it critics or not he was happy doing it that's what made it work while he journey continued while he grew into the person he was destine to become.

Writing is the voice
Silence has become a choice
Work behind the scenes
Avoiding the mainstream
Chewed up spit out
Want to make it need a new way out
Told to do this
Be that doesn't matter
Not where things need to be
Don't quit never let up
Keep doing it all the haters will fade out
Believe in love those who have it appreciate it
Part of the dream all the wrongs a right
Now a days wrong is right
Doesnt make sense don't agree but respect it
The chances ruined try to steal your moment
Take what's your eventually all the bad tunes out
Happiness fades out the wrong
In the darkness where it belongs

I think I could write
Others might not like
Leads to controversy not gonna fight
My confidence drop
Trying to undo all the bad from your cruel attitude
I never thought this confrontation
Would lead to a staredown
Not expected or thought you'd go there
From a friend to no care or respect
Words flying emotions oozing
Trying to win and still losing
Never thought we grow to despite
One another closer that any lover or brother
Friend to for never know till you get there

The 1st time rafting
Wear the safety vest
A helmet in case a person falls over board
The rapids tak you for a ride
Water much colder than anyone could imagine
Basics are taught along with safety rules
Use the paddle to Guide the raft
Paddle enjoy the ride
The sun shining beating everyone down
Battling the water to keep things in motion
Mountain view and nature site
On the journey experience the outdoors to the extreme

Hung with my uncle
on the road we talk moviesnecessitieslors enjoying the single life
Talk music that plays on the radio
Comparing and sharing our experiences
Buy our neccisties at the store
Stopping for a meal pick up
Then home till next time

On the twisted road driving through the forest.
The road slippery and wet from the rain. The rain and cold feels right but heading home from the summer. My life as an adult up north and my childhood in socal. From hot to cold weather not sure where I belong but my heart is in one while my mom thinks about the other. Lots of love for both but can't decide

Driving along say this jack rabbit playing in the street
Need for danger in and out of traffic
Playing in traffic taking life risks
Not scared or fearing death
Taking a pick eaten by a snake or be road ****
Jack rabbit seeks a thrill emotionless eyes
In and out trouble take a shot make it double
Jack rabbit quick jack rabbit slick
Fur wild and wild adventure get crazy
Head lights blaring green lights send cars speeding cause of death
Jack rabbit don't need luck risks or be a key chain someone else's good luck but it won't run out
Not today not going to be road **** rabbit
Rabbit pier and rush beat traffic and being hunted

Life of glory never gets boring
Be a champ never settle for less
Arms raise praise
Wonderful feelings
Your hard work finally paid off
Things pick up take off
Transform to greatness
No more feeling deformed
I'm going to invest
Lose gracefully not protest
Win soak it in thick and thin break out
Time running out gases but not ending this way
Push through the pain
See faces lost haunt you with doubt
Like stone not giving out or goon to crumble

I've learned I can't please everyone embraced my haters
I'm happy with myself not trying to be someone I'm not
I love myself more I'm one if a kind not like the rest
Others might not agree and protest I hope one day they understand
See the world my way I'm responsible for what I say
I've learned it's not my responsibility to if you don't understand
You might hate who I respect but your views don't influence my judgement
Treat me bad you won't get a response your nit going to bully or throw fits to get your way
Thinking of how to be a better me
Which means everything
I never gave into your way get over yourself
I'm me not you the difference is I'm true while your cold and blue

The tripod was not equal one took on more of the load than the rest. He brought ideas most would be denied or rejected. He got tired of being denied and rejected so he left and did his own thing. He took time to figure it out. He would remain determined he didn't have anything in his favor.
He kept working and writing while everyone worried about the public front they put on. He didn't care who was watching but did focus on writing and what he wanted to say for the topic. He always wanted to inspire and encourage others since no one heard his story because everyone wanted to Shadow him. They kept trying to dull his shine put out his fire but he kept burning determined to stay alive.
Playing many roles willing to learn it all so he can progress in the BS ranks they created. He was one to take charge and organize everything while they kept trying to change the schedule on him. Things didn't always fall in his favor but he was willing adapt and adjust. He was not going to be overlooked or ignored these changes lit a fire under him

Think about her every day and night
Wondering what I can do to make it right
Her eyes and smile light up when together
Her voice soothing when she talks
You play with her hair
Let her know that you truely care
Hold her hand and understand
You feel her but she feel this way
Wish nothing came between the two
She shares her heart to build trust
She shares her body there is a vibe of love
Her love or her hate both deep
Piecing the heart set in case things fall apart
Her kisses light and warm with passion
Hold her close never let go
Always a fresh start together
New moment with one another
Souls together on another level
You stare she stares back
Kiss her she kisses you back
Hug her and she huge you tighter
She plays rough licks your face
Bites your shoulder playful love
Someone to kiss and trust

They love we shared never the same
Once it ended no going back
A closed chapter a failed out come
Start over thinking back
not going that way point of no return
Trying to understand lust
lots of broken trust no time to heal
Meant the world now it's no longer there
Find a place not just another face
Start again find yourself not in another
Hearts heal become emotionally invested
Learn to live and love again it's your life don't let it end

Can't always say what I feel or think
My words twisted or feeling used against me
I've said the truth and got hated for my honesty
While others lie and are fake they get praised
It should be me but they chose someone else
Toughed it out, all the doubt can I do without
Did so much not doing anything now
Drives me crazy asking what I did wrong
Can't be this or can't do that worked hard
Overlooked deep down shook taken forgranted
Not my place made it a home and have grown
Deep breaths overwhelmed not sure if I want to do it anymore
Writing hearing voices things that need to be said
Some get hurt in respond eats me up dead inside
All I want is to be alive make it to the end of the day and survive

Over my neglected childhood
Hating thing about my failed relationship
The things that mean so much should be, not once was
I've developed a voice through writing it speaks
Makes things clear puts it in perspective
New views and perspective something new and fresh
Why settle for the same'ol stuff and expect less
Molds never applied or cared to fit in
Pushed out the fear of change and truth
Accept the unaccepted one day it will change
Use to things not going my way one day you feel my emotion experience change not in your favor
New new new keep on trucking it will be found
Happy now it's turning around coming back after being all around

Control means you made it
Add to a new environment might not make it
Hard to survive rigged games and tricks
You have the skills but no heart
Others tell you your great but you ****
Years of anger frustration
Xcon praised for doing good **** should've been done long ago
Graduate trade school still no job
Degree not working the procession
Chech your story before trying to fix others
No one asked so back up
Times are tough chane of luck

If its not one person it's another
Check one and have to take on the next person in line
I dislike dealing with bs ppl who ignorant
Most of all oblivious to their errors and flaws
Time and time again km proving myself to ppl who useless and a waste of my time
It's heart breaking to know someone you admire is a disappointment
Everyday I feel united and strong while someone tries to weaken me and lower my ranks
I don't care to replace or be the next I want to be me and go my own! I've made my point and stood my ground I'm taken lightly but one day the ppl rattling my world theirs will crumble

There are many rules to dating 1st rule you don't date in the circle because exes usually can't be friend and that puts the crowd in an awkward situation.
Next rule you don't date exes of friends or family. There's boundaries that need to be respect.  It just ruins friendships if you choose a relationship take that chance at your own risk.
Dating has changed before men wined and dined women now a days most women want to be miss independent so they shouldn't be made setting double standards.
I thought men asked women out now a days women slay men like they have some kind of dominate conquest. I'm not sure how things work but I've been observing since the late time I dated.
If a girl likes you that makes it is winning a girl over is like asking her to give up what she loves. I've learned to not ask for much.
The 3 date rule I don't oppose it but hear its out there women want you to flaunt them and respect if not they'll find someone who will.
I've heard what women like and want but never end up with the product they speak of it starves my curiosity.

He entered the room and felt weird. He would mingle with the crowd but still felt like he was being watched. He made eye contact with an old face. Her eyes pierced his soul; he didn't know what to say. They had a bad fall out, they both dreaded the moment. He was uncomfortable never thought this would happen. He smiled and said hi. Her cold eyes would show him no emotions. They both made mistakes one forgave while the other held a grudge. So much history in the end it didn't even matter it all fell to pieces.

Size doesn't matter
If you have heart
Small can pack power
Hang with the biggest
Don't discriminate
More to offer with no quit
Out last the rest of the litter
Everything but a quitter

I wish I could chill and relax but don't have that luxury
Someone is always on my *** about stuff
I want to be thin so I have to work my *** of to get results
I have to exercise or i can't sleep at night
If I don't write something it bothers me
I've always trained hard but never goes towards anything
I don't like to waste my time or feel I'm doing something for no reason
I don't like to argue because I get ganged up on instead of others talking civil
My body aches but I won't let that break me
Everyday is a battle and up hill battle I'd like to win but haven't win yet!
Everyone is a critic until its them getting criticism and they fire back with excuses instead of stay that's what I've been doing.
The day I'm doing good I don't see it because I'm distracted by ******* who have my attention else where instead of letting me focus on what needs to be done.

Wake up some where to go
Some where to be feels just right
Reasons to sleep instead of being up all night
Get dressed look your best impress yourself
Others will believe in you do the same
Be well known others want to know your name
Take pride in yourself respect yourself
What's best for you others might want the same
Don't let anyone guilt make you feel shame
I'm the type who sticks out in the crowd
Mind my mouth not afraid to get loud
Funny guy that makes others laugh
Be around good vibes or just stay away find your place
Change the looks on the haters faces
Look at them without a blink
Don't let them think they could bring you down
Stay up life is a gain with nothing to lose
Success is the way if you choose

He was a big dreamer he knew he can be and do much more. He was tired of taking a back seat to people. He was good and confident too many knocked him. Made his confidence out to be cocky. He told the truth and for years doing what he loved. He felt like coming out of his shell that he loved hiding in but he didn't want to be there anymore. He had put his life on hold waiting for that moment but that's not how it works. He knew he would have to go out take risks make that moment happen. It circled and bounced around in the back of his mind. He read books from inspiration, he stepped up failed but he always told himself be the best even if he came up short. For years he did what he loved despite set back. He loved jujitsu nurturing and injury fear of getting hurt. He worked at his job at the bottom of the pole but he had experience no one seen or cared for because no one liked change stayed the same.
He loved to perform stand up but he didn't have an audience that understood him. He feared change as well always asking "what if" when he thought it "should be" he loved to write it gave him a vocie gave him say he felt in control he always went along but before he was a rebel someone who took risks and felt he had nothing to lose and everything to gain. He got older others told him never settle or get comfortable. It never made sense to him but took those words to thought. He wanted to break the cycle get out of the same routine. He was broke before and never wanted to be that way again. He didn't care for his job but did like the pay. He was thankful to be working always compromised things are never in his favor. He did so much on the down low because it was his way of preparing and prepping himself. He's been working on it for years even though he's not doing anything with it. He had supporters and doubters that made him want it more tired of everyone's way he just wanted to do things his way for once.

I remember I enjoyed drinking thinking I was a bad person. I'd share a story or two with my peeps hoping to feel find closure. Never cared to do drugs but a close friend did a line of coke right in front of me. People changed my addiction consumed me. Another friend stole so she could get her fix but it never made things right. The day she stole from me things changed. I needed to clean up. I realized alcohol made me tolerant to people because I didn't always agree or understand it would blind my judgement. I didn't like others speaking on my behalf or representing me. Once I quit drinking times got hard. My friends fall away. I changed but they think I'm that same person no longer that person anymore. Older wiser and never the same sober living has made me alone. I would question everything but I only question my actions and what I want looking for so I can achieve my goals and dreams.

Holding on to the old life
It was all that was known
Letting go of the old life
There's no going back
Live with soul it starts to show
Life goes forward changed over time
Broke free from bad vibes feeling alive
No longer connected to toxic behavior
"It will comeback to them"
Is what I keep telling myself
Minding this mouth being silent
Keeping to myself  avoiding fools
Doing my own thing appreciating life
Most of all minding my business
Failed attempts lead to something better
Gave up on a relationship lost all value
Not good enough no value over the pain
Focused on gains moving up in private
Working in secret being behind the scene

He loved her but they could never be together there was someone else. He admired her most of all respected her even though she ended up with the wrong guy. She was getting played cheated on but fighting to make it work.
Once she got in a relationship, she gave up on their friendship.
He was there through the tough times he'd learn that his chapter was over in his life forgotten left in the past. They'd cross paths from friends to complete strangers. Both doing their own thing the future divided them. Desired different things instead of each other.

Just because we are related doesn't mean you know me. You dk my my story or what I've done. Just because you talk over me doesn't make you right. Don't tell me how to live my life when you used and stepped on people to get where your at. Minding my mouth and business not fighting to stay or arguing to be heard.

Sad how you twist and turn the narrative acting like you've done no wrong pointing the blaming judging everyone. Trying to turn the family against you thinking you're superior in the end your mouth will double cross everyone you care more about being right than what you do to others. Knocking everyone instead of being open minded

Listening to hits the music lost in the vibe
Feeling the bass empowered by the lyrics
Taking you away from the complicated reality
Makes more sense than others drama
Causing a smile remember a better time
Certain people come to mind another time
Watching people change the music is forever vibing alive surviving

Quick to attack get burnt out give them a chance to escape. You played with them before going for the ****. It was a trap giving them a chance from playing the victim to being the one making the ****. Never underestimate your opponent keep practicing training hard don't let them live free in your head causing distractions losing focus. Making you feel like it doesn't matter or mean anything. You've been doing it for some time it's become your life. Hours of training for a few minute fights a big event the time to shine put all the training to use. Making moves and moving up the next level.
The warrior within being a civil gentleman life was the big fight.
Dealing with a terrible lead who does nothing acting like he does everything. Loving the job working around lazy people moving up taking charge. A failed relationship an ex that claims to have moved on still taking cheap shots. His family another obstacle instead of having your back being supportive.
Not talking just doing the work fading our of the drama so many rigged arguments that are pointless. Taking the blame standing for a lost cause. Walking away because the lessons could lead to more or leave you confused wonder *** happened?

From that crazy world so much change
Living in the crazy new mindset
Trying to make sense of everything
Being normal health declining
Loved the church but they shut it down
Walking tall in faith God is great
Believing walking with grace
Telling the truth so much hate floating
Why do people accept lies as the truth
A whole new person once the mask is off
The act fades the personality runs thin
Always grateful to have a job earning it
Not struggling working hard the agenda
Found self love from being selfless
Giving it all expecting nothing in return
Standing alone doing what's right
Living by the moral code years of growth
Years of rejection feeding determination

Thick skin through these tough times, it's hard, but with time they get better. Work harder instead of being all up in the drama. Lazy employees telling you NO or it's never going to happen for you. Don't be discouraged believe in yourself when others make you feel worthless.
Making it seem like what you do doesn't matter or mean anything. Sometimes it's all you know helping you progress and grow.
Being strong and tough eventually wanting to break down shed some tears take moment to compose yourself then bounce back, keep building on what's given. Making the most of things thankful for all the blessings. Tired of facing family because everyone's ego and pride is more important than blood.

Onto new seeing people from the past
Hoped they'd change remaining the same
Talking about everyone if its their right
Seeing through the act not falling for it
Staying away pick and choose liking you
Just because your big intimidate others
Doesn't mean you could beat everyone up
Cussing people out being a bully
Doesn't make you right or better
Being disrespectful because your mad
Doesn't get you respect people turn away
Saw you as an equal your power trip
Has you knocking stepping on people
Using people talking about others
Says more about you than the people you slander

Loved family but not like them
Some can't be alone bad mouthing others
Always stuck on the wrong person
Why be with someone if they are not a match
If you don't like them why pretend to love
Some able to handle their own company
While others look for it in other beings
Hoping they'll be complete one another
Cheating with an ex claiming to move on
Some are dark and twisted playing victim
Getting caught up actions have consequences
It came back around full circle

The music flowing through the mind
Things that need to be said talked about
Feeling the energy and vibe the technique
Drilling hard treat it like the real thing
Wanting to move up committed
Keep working building up from practice
Pain cause by family calling you sensitive
Insulting your intelligence not being accountable
Trying to break your spirit not giving a chance to do so
Don't expect them to fix just destroy
Acting like the criticism did you a favor
Providing a strong argument with reason
Talking loud not listening being one sided
Shouting false narrative mostly lies
Doesn't make your opinion right

Another lonely holiday wishing family would get along
Someone is always mad running their mouth
Instead of being close everyone is divided
Can't ask for help or do favors everyone expects something in return
Trying to get something to hold over your head
Seeing a family member be two faced is sickening
Talking bad about a person behind their back being cool to their face
Telling others how to live not living up to false ideals
Practice what's being preached not the exception
Do more for yourself instead of expecting others to do it
Sister with a mouth expecting respect insulting others
A false leader acting like everyone owes and trying to collect
Wishing the family could get along
Share a meal not exclude a sibling due to unresolved issues
Talk to one another instead about each other
Boundaries are set being respectful
Doesn't get your way or change things
Trying to control others stop imposing
Take control over your life first
Stop thinking you know what's best for others
While your situation is not organized

A quiet Christmas watching football
Writing lyrics practicing bass guitar
Missing family everything feels forced
We could see each other everyday
No holiday needed to comment
Claiming to be okay being disconnected
Keeping the peace with an internal struggle
No one can sorry its seen as weakness
Being able to forgive without terms and conditions
All the good is forgotten while the bad is held onto
No respect for others feelings but the most sensitive of them all
Don't say anything if you can't take it when people talk back
They are not waiting around to be judged or criticized by someone who's not helping
Wish we could sit under the tree open gifts but everyone talks like they are the head of the table No respect for parents
Stop holding a grudge against them you're an adult it's on you stop blaming them.

Why can't we talk be friends like the old days. We act like strangers like we don't know one another. Where did it go wrong hard to make sense of it all. Taking blame with no reason or closure seeking inner peace. The term oil within burning hot scorching within. Not wanting to replace people but quick to be replayed on their end. Saying sorry never forgiven trying to make things right. Felt like things got worse.
Walking away seen as the bad guy in their story meaning well things taken out of context. Running with all the lies instead of fighting to prove them wrong. People he seen as friends betrayed his trust. He respected them as they treated him as a joke. He lived life trying not to fall into a routine

Wanting to funny joking with others some will get mad or offended for the truth. Grew up around people talking smack and took it once you start talking back people lose their crap.
Always open and honest called blunt and ruthless with the truth. Grew up tough but able to find a funny moment through those dark times.
Always straight up because lies are hard to keep up with. Writing different ways to say it or how it could set a tone. It could be deep and dark or humble with some positive energy.

Shunned by your best friend over a girl
You messed with her, he did as well
One was lust the other madly in love
She didn't belong to anyone
One thought he could make her the one
Old time flings ruining modern friends
Broken trust friends never more
A faded friendship from long ago
An apology that's never forgive
Trying to be normal come around
Feeling guilty ashamed living with pain
Everyone pursuing success got a taste
Greedy for more stepping on others
Failure became more common
Stuck on childhood trauma hard to grow
Wrestling with struggle survival skills
Always learning on another level
Old momentum not prepared for new
Doesn't help with new obstacles

Tackling old issues to be free to move onto new
Friend to foe a stranger dk you anymore
Worried about you call forwarded
An unanswered text so much suspense
Talk about getting together it's not health
Moved on mentally still having feelings
Denying myself feeling neglected
Going back thoughts of being disrespected
Being single thinking for one makes sense
In a couple feeling everything mindful
No say or control wild memories remain
Being with her means denying yourself
She's an act pretending to be someone else
Looking out for her keep her safe
While she's willing to let you take the blame doing evil deeds

Claiming to love quick to move on
Picking fights expecting communication
Keeping Secrets been open and honest
Couldn't have female friends got jealous
Respected your feelings no regards for mine
But you could have male friends sneaking around
A guilty conscience projecting to justify wrong doing
Never made false promises honored words if spoken
Mouth saying one thing actions contradicting
Told to be a man take charge all credibility taken away
Fed up gave up walked away from this toxic love
Being called a narcissistic for not giving in
Trying to be open not have it used to be manipulated
Isolated trying to balance out a relationship and friendships
Everyone is gone faded away focused on being better
Got use to be alone doing everything not expecting much in return
Living on borrowed time making the most of things

Minding your business then boom blind sided by family
Climbing to get out of the struggle whole everyone has embraced it
Facing the world isn't enough
Feeling betrayed should've been expected
Would never do it to them like they did you
Avoiding people becomes more comforting
Getting hints not bending over backwards
They don't want you to lie
But don't wanna hear the truth
Seen them as a priority treated like an option
Seen them grow up stayed outta the way
Now they are their own person
Coming at you like you owe them
Let's be civil talk things out
Instead of holding a grudge

A Friday night as a teen going to the video store to get a movies and a game for Nintendo 64. An evening with the family then order pizza. Watching movies on vhs   that would later becoming DVD. Playing video games with friends and siblings. It got extremely competitive playing Golden Eye or Mario Kart. Video games use to be fun now a days it's a job to complete a mission.
Use to be confused when my dad would say it use to be better before. Trying to stay modern but everyone is asking what's next instead of making the most of things. Before the internet was an escape but now a days it's become a reality for some.
I remember calling people to make plans chat it up now a days people text and still don't connect so much miscommunication. How do you get to know a person if they won't open up or won't give you a chance because of the assumptions made. Trying to hold onto what is know but losing yourself to keep up.