Years of experience and knowledge leading to this moment. Every insult creating strength. Every mistake pointed out worked harder towards perfection. Trying to do it right the first time with maximum effort. They told him he didn't belong it made him better not settling for less.
His experience over the years he was ready but never given a chance. When he took it everyone that doubted him rooted for him. His dream was to compete on those mats jujitsu on the back of his mind get his blue belt train harder no surrender working to cross things off his Todo list.

Working like a boss trying to get paid for one. Been at the bottom moving to the top. Tired of taking on people who don't matter just another hurtle to get over. Once you pass them they'll hold a grudge never be happy for you. Never support your decisions because they think their way was the better way for you. Putting my trust in God to help me over come this anger this frustration over the years. It didn't happen right away when it finally did it was a true blessing.
Rebuilding yourself, reconstructing the way it's done. Always wanting to make it happen, move up to the next level. Trying to teach others share the art and craft help the next generation. Instead of them thinking it will be given. Always work for it going through the process rise up taking on each level. Listen to what's being said. observe what's going on take it in pursue the dream achieve those goals live the dream from within.

Being called the boss for getting it done. Trying to be well rounded and social with peers. Speaking up for what is needed to get the job done. Asking and working for it has been the mindset. Training to be someone new, be someone much more than before.
Playing with the guitar feeling the vibes setting the tone. Trying to match how you feel what you think. Trying the moment to share your story, asking "who you are," "what have you been through." Does it matter will it help someone make a difference.
Feelings used to fill this page. Years of knowledge that comes with age trying to connect use to being excluded and a reject. Telling it everything to your notebook another voice deeper tone. Always doing some kind of writing for others that's well thought out composed.

Letting it go because holding onto things consumes you becomes a distraction that ends up being a waste of time. So many toxic people that's why it's easier to role solo. Keeping secrets for others too bad they are quick to spill mine making gossip. Never talked about them but they are quick to point out others flaws, no one is talking about them. So they cause drama to feel relevant to feed their insecurities.
Able to rest relax sad how you can't be honest with people they'll destroy you and think they did you a favor. If you spoke up they get insulted play the victim debate why their actions are justified when clearly it's all BS. They won't listen to others and expect others to hear them out. They'll get the same treatment on how they treat others.
It's such a downer and drains everyone involved. Everyone is hurt no one wins what's the point of all this everyone is worse off instead of better. You forgive them and moved on. While they are stuck still holding that burden trying to use it against you.

Putting forth effort so much energy that needs to be matched. After a failed relationship or two learning to say what you want what you're looking for. It's not a one sided venue anymore. Lots of trial and errors in the process.
Learned so much from failed friendships that made one doubt his judgement because he seen greatness within them but got their worse. Why did they think it was okay to try and BS everyone because they aren't getting their way or what they want taking down others because they are not happy.
Get back in the grind years of being told NO being told it didn't matter. Did way more than most staying strong through those tough hurtful moments. You shared your passion pursued it while others sat back waiting for you to fail or step aside riding others tails to step out steal the spotlight.
Bouncing back from all the crazy always trying to be better make this situation better than before. Love family but they aren't supportive or believe in you. You believe in yourself stay motivated stay stronger than the rest. You hurt the most but hide it. The pain can be intense masked becoming immune to everyone and everything. You lead while everyone is giving up quitting ready to walk away. Digging down deep stepping it up be the guy not leave it for the next.