It plays in your mind repetitively
Seeing and believing in a dream
Work hard to get to the next level
The old vs new that's with is developing
Staying strong after being mocked
Looked down on the struggle
Expecting results not helping
Eyes full of judgement gazing hard
Staring from a distance sending bad vibes
Expecting you to fail never happy for anyone
A lurking heart filled with hatred
The worse is his family aims to hurt
Knock an achieve make it meaningless

Changing that mindset has helped
Not holding a grudge but letting go
Walk away from the drama
Friends dated away over the years
Cut off toxic families bad behavior
Need feeding into the negativity
Head up when facing diversity
It's easy to put head down plow through
Stand tall with your moral compass
Would rather do what's right than wrong
Left alone doing the right thing
That means so much and everything
A heart of gold growing into more
Walked away from the pain
Traumatic memories lose a pulse
Writing deep thoughts enriched closure
The fear dries like blood scabs over
Healing process within begins

Anxious to make it home to Grandma
Missing work colleagues that made his journey less stressful
Family that was supportive and believe in him
All the prayers and love from everyone
The people that seen good in him
He didn't always believe in himself but gave it to God
Talking about cirrhosis was hard he was living it
Others took the time to understand when he felt alone
Trying to be normal before and after the procedure
There would be more doctors visits and pills it would become a normal in his routine

Writing when you are not angry
A new look on life after major surgery
Just recently got a liver transplant
The worse feeling is when people see you as a liability
Your health makes you question your life
Feeling limited holding back
Changes needed to be made
Having to diet the fear of dying
Clothes falling off due to rapid weight loss
Work intense physical pain magnified
Fear of letting the team down
Taking charge as a lead to one of the guys
Hated missing work hospitalized didn't help
A year of blood work and tests procedures to get on the list
Followed 6 months waiting with 3 no go calls
The 4th call meant race from CA to AZ for the transplant.
Not sure it would happen not losing faith
Getting told "are you ready?" by the doctor. The moment was here. Made it to AZ in 5 hours. Prepped for the surgery.
A prayer before the surgery made it reassuring. Getting cleaned with surgical soap and ivs put in the arteries and veins. Being drugged feeling loopy the last thing. I remember was climbing onto the surgical table then waking up in ICU

Born in California with American values
Stood up for the flag and said the pledge of allegiance
Prayed to God walked strong with faith
Grew up poor worked hard to rise above
Judged by the color of my skin
Not playing the race card working for it
Speaking English polite with manners
Judged my people for not knowing Spanish
Not one to give up on family values and traditions
Breaking away open to growth
Speak when spoken to out of respect
Unconditional love without terms and conditions
It's not always your place to say anything.
Not always heard able to have an opinion
The sense of belonging able to be yourself
With having to fight for a spot
Prove you belong being loyal and true
Lost norms that need to be brought back

Always been a lover in a deep fight
Minding this mouth, that's why I write
I don't need your approval LMB (let me be)
I'm never going to compromise myself
Give up on myself to be liked to be accepted
Friends become enemies left in the past
I'll always love family but doing my own thing
It's sad how tragedy brings everyone together
Grandpa was the glue I love and miss you
Now everyone is divided, holding a grudge
I've never been a materialistic one to help others
Always valued family time now
It's always awkward from traditions to an emotionless gesture Always been a lover in a deep fight
Minding this mouth, that's why I write
I don't need your approval LMB (let me be)
I'm never going to compromise myself
Give up on myself to be liked to be accepted
Friends become enemies left in the past
I'll always love family but doing my own thing
It's sad how tragedy brings everyone together
Grandpa was the glue I love and miss you
Now everyone is divided, holding a grudge
I've never been a materialistic one to help others
Always valued family time now
It's always awkward from traditions to an emotionless gesture

what I see and how I feel are not the same taking it in you admire it appreciate it
when you try to put it back out there
It's not the same once experience
I've processed it in my mind
what I felt and what I thought
lots of it being analyzed to be understood
years of being told you are no good
like a mood ring adjusting to others' bad vibes
it's easier to be alone by myself rather than tolerate bad behavior. being discriminated by our own kind doesn't hurt

This has been a rough journey. A year of doctors appointments and 5 months of waiting. God is great and made it happen for me. Coming to AZ was a 5 and half hour drive. The surgery took 4 to 5 hours to wake up in ICU. I pushing myself at work and light training helped with the healing. I had to attend AA, and my liver support group helped me mentally prepare for this.
I'm praying that Mayo Clinic gets the dosage to my meds right. on day 19 from the surgery, I get the stitches out. I'm still walking around with this suction bulb better safe than sorry. Being on the sidelines ***** learning to relax and recover downtime is all new to me because I'm usually doing something.I'm thankful for all the love and support. I feel like I'm given a second chance to do right to be better. A whole new perspective on life. I'm feeding, my spiritual growth reading the word.

friends come and go like the seasons
some I miss, but pride and ego
keeps us divided rather than talking it out
mistakes were made, and apologizes were not accepted
good times are over, but not forgotten
losing a friend while holding a grudge
never going to see them again
friendships ended for relationships
couples become partners start a family
I wish you nothing but the best
the fork in the road
takes up to different places
some on borrowed time with health issues
others in the struggle trying to get by
life's a ride make the most of it
doing what's right from the heart
don't care about being right
moving onto the next chapter
doing it alone staying strong
make the most of things with what you got

sometimes you'll love a girl who doesn't love herself. you got intimate and fell in love while she was lusting around. not caring who she hurt. broken hearts and broken trust over a lush. you felt special, but other guys are getting the same treatment. you wanted to be the only one while everyone treated her badly. you treated her well, and she dropped you like the rest. God's not done with you. thinking of going back to school to get back in the medical field. learn all that you can. you have a good memory tired of playing dumb pretending, not care. Mostly afraid of being judged by people who don't know me. No matter what I do, they are going to judge me. look down on me or say something bad about me. major in psychology, and become a counselor to helping people. I'd get them into writing for therapy so they can express their feelings.

The day came he got his transplant from Cali to AZ. He prayed for the moment giving the glory and victory to God. Thankful and blessed it finally happened. He got discouraged but never lost faith. He couldn't do this alone He gave it to God. God's speed God's will thankful to be out of the danger zone feeling saved and filled with grace. No more yellow eyes, but a smile on his face.  
He was working hard to keep distracted. Doing pad work now he had to work on his life style changes after the transplant. He set new goals and didn't feel restricted

He told his cousin it would comeback to her. You can't disrespect people and expect them to listen. She got comfortable telling others her opinion when no one asked. People appreciate honest the blindside would make people more angry.

Eventually all that would comeback to her. All the lies and deceit would come out secrets exposed. Talking down or bad about others doesn't make you a better person. One opinion doesn't matter but trying to manipulate others to follow your hateful methods is unacceptable.

Some people already have it hard they don't need you pointing out the obvious or trying to make them feel the way you're projecting your insanity on them. You dk their life or what they are thinking. how they are feeling to impose your intrusive thoughts.

Writing about it not in that place anymore. Growing up out growing the past. Life is a ride that won't let up going fast.
From missing an ex to asking what's next? Worried about being broke now worried when will it happen?
Why hasn't it happened yet. Trying to live life not in regret so much frustration, and disrespect.
Picking up the slack tired and sore crazy enough to comeback for more. Talking to a girl that shows no interest. Wasting time trying to find common ground. Both from different lives and wanting different things for themselves. Sometimes she's open other times says nothing and not bothering with anyone.
Work is not hard but when people miss you have to dig down deep do the extra and try to balance out energy. Some care too much while others don't care of give a ****.
Trying to stay positive be well rounded instead of closed off and shutting down with irritation caused by all the detours and setbacks. Someday you want to scream and quit others take a breath and get it done.

They told him he was sick but he didn't believe it as time passed. He felt his body go through changes. He was still in denial but feeling the results and outcome.
Praying for the transplant wanting to be normal Whatever that meant. Thankful for the calls but when they were a no go it really depressed and drained him.
He wondered when his time and turn would come because he didn't like how everything changed on him.
He'd go to work for his insurance keep a cash flow. Thankful for OT but it took its toll on him. Trying to be a lead and example he didn't want to let people down. He wore his heart on his sleeve. Determined to make it not giving up because he felt loved and support not wanting to let anyone down.
He cared more than most because they gave him a chance. he knew what it was like to not have a job. He worked hard and earned every cent it was dishonest to collect money and not do anything for it.
He did his best to honor his word because most don't care or take pride in their work. Quick to blame and point fingers instead of doing the work

A heartbreak makes you grow up
Getting fired makes you hustle
Being the man of your destiny
Friends become strangers
Space and time changes everything
Cried inside life's not always fair
Smiled through the tough times
New places to encounter in the moment
Meeting new people with experiences
Changing for the better overcome pain
Can't stay the same growth full of gain
A fight with a cousin that'll never change
Arguing with someone that doesn't know
Talking loud doesn't make you superior Ignoring the truth doesn't make you right
Pushing people away because you're wrong
Makes them walk away from chaos
There's no apology, you'll never forgive
Towards something much more

Writing hid story everyday some day will become one day. As the wind blew he sat in starbucks drinking a hot chocolate ad his phone upgraded.
His friends all grew up working or with family. He seen them as family but realized his chapter was over and would have to move on. They settled for their journey he wanted to do more with his writing or create turn his ideas into short clips.
He told the truth, and ****** people off. All his courage the confidence it took for him to put his being into the writing. Trying to find those feelings and emotions to express himself. Trying to be creative while others tried to censor him. Guilt him like he did wrong when all he did was express himself.
He loved the creative process it made sense so many want to be critics on the finish product. All his time and effort ripped apart in a matter of seconds. Wrote it down hoping to make sense of the insanity.

He went to the batting cages with his sister. It was a process figuring out the timing and when to swing. It took a while but he was able to adjust and adapt to the situation.
It took him back to when he use to coach softball. It was fun it was all new and loved coaching it helped with his people skills and understand the game. He enjoyed the sport. He treated it like a job since he wasn't working at the time.
He use play sports in high school not the biggest guy on the football team but all heart with the best foot work.
He loved coaching willing to work with everyone because when he trained boxing he was excluded told he was to old and didn't get trained well. He observed and listened to everything that was going on around him.
When he held pads for his cousin he was honored he trusted and believed in him. His cousin taught him what he learned.

He loved his job because they gave him a chance and he returned the favor by busting his ***. He was always up beat and positive around negative bitter employees. He said he would be active and involved doing extra.
He worked with employees that did the bare minimum waiting to collect benefits and retire. He had health conditions and needed to be at work so he could pay for insurance.
He dealt with bad leads that dumped the work on him but he saw it as a way to prepare so when he became a lead. He didn't care for job titles he did the work and took pride in it.
Bad health or not he gave his all because everyone settled or gave up Not motivated only sticking around because the pay was enough to keep them around.  
He never milked his injuries he had to be at work because people would complain and he didn't want his crew to look bad. God forbid he gets his health right and takes time off.
He was the heart of the team he did the extra while others did a half *** job just enough to get by. They believed in him at the beginning then gave up on him since they had to step it up when he missed due to his health issues.
Lots of people play the union card or its not my job rather than stepping it up doing what you can to make it easy for the next guy. He always said "don't leave it for the next guy be the guy." People want a job but don't want to work everything is earned not given. He was a team player even if they helped him or not. The work was easier when he was there but worse when he came back after a medical leave.
Most ditch work he could only miss, if he had a medical procedure or doctors appointment. He wanted to live his life but he had to do that on his own time when he wasn't sore or too tired to do so
He didn't want to leave his wing man they were a power team and had one anothers back. While the morning crew never teamed up unless it had to be done last minute. The day should be the set up and night clean up. Due to lack of team work the night crew helps with the set up.

After a fee set back you shake it off and stay focused. Everything you wanted is not meant to be yet. Everyday is a fight sometimes you let God take on battle because it can't be won.
Trying to stay on course but side tracks and detours are part of life. In and out of the hospital learning to take better care of yourself. The self destruction no one care only you could fix yourself. The past can't be changed and the people who hurt you won't fix what they broke.
They used you then dropped you like a bad habit. Once you loved your heart doesn't want to hurt them while the mind wants to plot revenge. It doesn't make it right or any better everything becomes worse than before.

Avoiding that wicked person who always complained trying to take others down because life is miserable. Always negative over dumb things they are that petty.
They are fake to your face while talking about you behind your back. Giving an opinion no one asked.
Talking like they are a somebody but really a nobody pretending to be a somebody. Talking so much they believe their own lies and will go against you if you question them or challenge their way of thinking. They won't just attack you their try to erase your existence.
He didn't like those kind of people what ***** most was he had family members that behaved this way. It was terrible behavior that inexcusable.
He learned to be honest and to treat people right. He got quiet and walked away from the pain all the frustration that would ruin his day.

He wondered if he'd ever be normal again laying in the dark. Elevating his feet because they'd swell up. Waiting for that call from Arizona that 480 area code for a possible donor.
It's sad but the person signed up for it to help others. The person needs to pass in under 45 minutes once the plug is pulled. The ***** is placed in a simulator to produce bile if that works the person waiting has to race to from CA to AZ. Once the ***** is set the person will get a liver as those calls are exciting but draining.
You tell a few people then feel like a disappointment because it hasn't happened yet. Somethings are beyond your control you have no say. He didn't want to miss work, or leave his coworker because work would pile up. He'd come back to a mess.
The problem was they can't get coverage and some complain trying to get his crew in trouble following procedure. They dk how it works but assume the job is easy. Catering to their needs already isn't enough.
Trying to use the union to manipulate everyone while harassing everyone in their little cliques that don't do anyone any favors out for their selfish gain

Jakeb had a dream his ex got with his brother's best friend. He didn't feel bad or have any remorse, he knew what his brother's friend was about.
He was a player and nothing serious would become of what was going on. She tried to make him jealous because she thought it would give her the upper hand. He knew anyone after would be a downgrade.
He felt nothing because her games made him become emotionless. She violated his trust and wasted his time her opinions no longer mattered. He went numb when it came to her. She couldn't change or manipulate him anymore.

His values didn't mix with these modern ideals. A friend has your back while today people use you. Worked till the end seen it through.
Today everyone wants a hand out or expect so much without giving anything back. He knew anything he wanted had to be earned not given.
He didn't care for social media people get bold online, but a coward in reality. People hid behind screens instead of face the person straight up.

Praying for a friend who had a mild stroke. She has children that the family be healed and united.
For his cousin with 3 kids with 3 babies mommas. That he would get his life together and be a provider.
Gave it to God  because he's a man and can't do it alone on his own. Asking to be forgiven having a hard time Forgiving himself.
He forgave others to have peace, most never forgive him. He quick to move on pursuing his dream even though it's on hold because he wants to get his health right first.
He was interested in dating a nurse but sick of being in and out of the hospital. Thought about dating but the way it works now doesn't make sense.
Everyone wants all the perks of a relationship but no commitment. He was old school date for a while make it a relationship hopefully it would lead to marriage and kids making a family.

He elevated his feet so the swelling could go down
Frustrated because the transplant
He wants has yet to happen
Feeling discouraged about his life
Questioning his faith still believing
Watching the world series wanting Texas to win
But Arizona was a growing franchise
Kind of against it mild resentment
Because it's where the transplant will take place
Those calls get his hopes up and leave him disappointed
His love for everyone was strong
Thankful for his support group
Things were going strong in motion
Now they just stopped and slowing down
A year to get on the transplant list
Now 3 months on the list 2 calls of possible donors

He was stressed and an emotional eater stuffing his face. The bad news made him depressed. He was still working with bad health because so many milked a doctor's note.  He did the work while most made excuses.
Staying active while most chose to be lazy. Anything he said or did made him out to be crazy. Having an opinion and being hard working got him hate. The lazy tried to blame him because he made them look bad since they didn't take pride in their work.

He got another call for the transplant it was a no go within the guidelines. It ruined his day and he still went to work.
Doing extra he wanted to be a lead, but was behind the scenes. Biting his lip because he was waiting for the surgery. Holding back because he knew he'd be out recovering.
Those calls get him worked up then burnt out when he got the bad news. He'd reflect on his life asking "what he did wrong?" Asking when and "why hasn't it happened yet?"
Writing helped him put life into perspective. Trying to write his story and control his narrative. He couldn't explain or find the words.

Drinking calmed his nerves
Women his poison of choice
Hatred repeating more than twice
Raised his voice wasn't taken seriously
The love wasn't real everyone so fake
He thought they changed for the better
Behavior way is worse than imagined
It's really bad that's who they are

You gain wisdom but lose your youth
Living in the present Observing the new
So much has changed over time
Heart on Golden daze treasured pleasures
The past has rich memories
Success should be rewarding not a punishment
Tired of living in regret got overlooked
From a broken home now married
A hard working man not given any credit
Educated walking with open eyes
Hated for having an opinion
Speaking your mind gets you canceled

Trying to get close dk how
Easier to keep a distances
Relationships are hard
Treated unfairly by loved ones
Seen a stranger one mistake
Not given a second chance
Tried to do right the first time
Everything went wrong not meant to be
Love faded away it doomed
Never good enough fighting to survive
Emotionally numb on the inside
Physically paralyzed taking it straight up
Spiritual growth on life support in a coma
It needs to be woken healing has begun
All this for love to be accepted socially
Even when it's killing your mental health

Finding peace and closure while writing
Stopped complaining started praying
Making the most of things thankful
Gave it all to God learning to forgive
Learning to be patient focused on health
Want it now not later determined to live
Waiting for a match the right liver
God's time and will have faith
Got lost in the word not the world
Try not to lose hope impatiently waiting
A close call that didn't happen
Overwhelmed with anxiety
Praying for the moment to be in the OR
A new ***** to get rid of the jaundice
Yellow eyes and bad skin dieing inside
Look healthy be able to be normalish
No more pain and suffering hiding it
Being bold strong when scared as hell

He was worried about the transplant
Lost in his writing being productive
He'd rather live life than be distracted
Picked friendships over his relationships
Both never returned the favor
Dealing with trust issues overcome
Told the truth facing confrontation
His rivals are manipulating cheaters
Trying to take him down No surrender
Not backing down taking on other battles
Stood his ground easier to walk away
Enemies loaded full of lies
In the line of fire taking shots
Now all alone with health issues

All I did was love you
Why you Making this so heart
Our love was beautiful fell for you
You meant everything to me
Couldn't get enough needed that fix
Treated me like nothing in denial
The look of love turned to hatred
Passionate kisses became emotionless
Your touch full of charming energy
Numb look in her eyes loss of interest
Emotions are turned of no signs of hope
A loving kiss now meant for someone else
Never feeling the same going without
Empty wanting more craving more
See things the same now that it's over

Would rather be at work than home
Always doing something productive
Writing my stories people encountered
Personal experience over the top
Not one to associate with theives
Not feeding into drug habits
Avoiding alcoholics for sobriety
Help my group or you got to go

Hiding your pain behind a smile
Trying to be normal Always seen as weird
Whatever that means just want to be free
Took one for the team the team player
The team took for themselves
Standing tall taking on the agony
Not one to quit but it's overwhelming
Slowing down barely getting
Gave it to God can't win this alone
This battle taken its toll yet to lose faith
Showing love most consumed by hate
Cried in bed to fall a sleep
Shedding tears overcome fears

If he died he had the girl he loved once
His first day was perfect in his heart
A moment that makes him smile
His first time making the moment count
Once that came to an end
Making it hard to love again
Everything lost hype no longer a rush
He became closed off empty inside
Dating with a hollow heart was wrong
The girl who loved him was obsessed
A failed relationship accused of cheating
She wasn't the one but persistent
Never left got use to one another
Threatened by her mother it was over
No one approved it wasn't meant to be
She cheated blamed him for her actions
She lied expected him to be honest
It was over never gonna happen again
Never had a first date ended up together
She tried to force the moment
It wasn't natural or real faking it through

Over all the physical pain
Can't block it out anymore
Trying to be focused live in the moment
Be present over being distracted
Be around family on borrowed time
Show love to the right people
Holding back because of the wrong
Not the one who got away
Never been the one just walking alone
She moved on got married to her one
Just trying to be friends without guilt
Not into mixed signal or games
Mixed emotions are confusing
Being the other guy doesn't settle well
A side guy not here to do right
When she keeps doing wrong

always been a lover in a deep fight
Minding this mouth, that's why I write
I don't need your approval LMB (let me be)
I'm never going to compromise myself
Give up on myself to be liked to be accepted
Friends become enemies left in the past
I'll always love family but doing my own thing
It's sad how tragedy brings everyone together
Grandpa was the glue I love and miss you
Now everyone is divided, holding a grudge
I've never been a materialistic one to help others
Always valued family time now
It's always awkward from traditions to an emotionless gesture

Fell out with friends use to be close
It doesn't mean, I don't love is over
Miss them moments when we'd hang
Sometimes the pride changes everything
Ego kills friendship no forgiveness
Numbs the love between people
Buds become enemies divided by a grudge
The safe space becomes a war zone
Wrote the drama down reflected life
If we could talk one more time
Grab a burger catch up forget the BS
Life is hard how's it treating you
Felt like a protector had to take a step back
I'm proud watch you grow from a distance
Walked away you don't need me anymore
Learned to be okay with that crazy

Artie was at his friend's house hanging out. When his cousin showed up and said "come with me." His cousin said "your brother they shot him, he didn't make it." The world around him went dark, he couldn't hear anything.
He told his friend he was leaving, and his friend told him, "if you need anything call me."
The ride home was quiet and awkward, he didn't know, how to feel, or what to say. He wanted to cry but didn't want to be weak. He knew his tears wouldn't bring back his brother. Things would never be the same it was a dark time.
Many factors chipped away at his heart and spirit. During this his mom would act the fool being intoxicated acting the fool. Making it about herself she had other child.
He knew it was difficult for a parent to bury their child but her bad behavior did not help. It would lead to her losing her children. Taken away by social workers and they were placed in a foster home. Divided ending up with family members.
Artie was the oldest pursuing his college education would be distracted not able to focus or concentrate.
His family divided in a relationship with a person; who was not the one, but he was one of many.
He felt his life was coming together but eventually crumbled down. He would survive being better than where he came from. Even though his hometown was part of his heart. He wanted to start over new escape this nightmare be free from it all. Have a normal family whatever that is. Be in love a relationship with the right person. He prayed to be free of the blame he placed on himself.

Ray would ask his coworker "why me?" Zoe response would be "why not?" Ray would vent bounce ideas of zoe. It helped him grow and come to terms with things because Ray's life wasn't bad but things got out of control. He liked a girl that moved on but never gave him a chance. Saying to himself, she would regret that day. He had dreams and goals trying to utilize his talents within.
Everyone told him it couldn't be done seen him as crazy, but they never tried why did their opinion matters why did they care.
Ray wanted to write comedy and loved MMA he saw contradiction in them. He realized he wouldn't be able to fight/compete his whole life. He'd come back to it doing things people didn't understand, but he didn't get others visions or hidden agendas. Tired of changing for others; while they made no effort to accept his perspective.
It feels like a rap battle he knew how to argue and debate while others make it personal and insult your being since they didn't have a steady foundation.

He got this off his chest its hard to speak up because he didn't want to get canceled but realized this was another way to say censored. He was tired of compromising himself for people that opposed him. He did his own thing never included or used people but did speak up against everything. He was mad that life was a check list be this way, or do that. People found more reasons to hate you than like you. This toxic society tries to tell you how to act and behave, if you don't listen you're complicated. His whole life he didn't feel accepted, or welcomed always proving himself.
They are threatened by you they spread lies and rumors to think they have you in check. He didn't empower them not giving them say in his life. He never talked about anyone that didn't think highly of him. He didn't bother waste his time with one sided mindset because they are set in their ways ready to attack not willing to listen.

Stupid people are reproducing its sad how others get ******* over working while some tale hand outs and its never enough. Why do the smart people empower complete morons. Their luck will run out. It's not right he knew life wasn't fair.
His health was on the decline but he kept coming back for more refusing to quit. Some gave up and settled for less. He believed in hard work even if it didn't happen right away.
He couldn't walk on the streets so many homeless. They made the city look ****** with shopping carts throwing trash on the ground. What's the solution; how do we fix this problems. It drove him crazy people lost self respect and pride for their city.
All these useless protests that lost credibility and money was stolen all this corruption. These people should be in prison, but people voted making crime a slap on the wrist while criminals are let go and hard working people get charges leading to life sentences.
What happened to the American dream before people could afford homes go to college get better jobs. Now college leads to debt and people lose that chance of getting ahead in life.

They looked down on him when he was broke. He said one day he'll make good money and be more successful than them. His hard work and dedication was paying, which made him happy.
Saying one day he'll be someone because they made him feel like a nobody. Like he wasn't good enough. It made him strong and tougher than the rest.
He didn't expect a handout, or want others to invest in him. He had to invest himself work harder to get closer to his dream. Push through crazy to get closer to achieving his goals. Sad he lost people along the way, if they were true, and loyal they wouldn't of gone anywhere.
He was always loving and supportive happy for others because he seen them as people; who made it, but it was never enough for them.
The day he turned his back was the day he couldn't take the criticism anymore. They insulted him by thinking their way was the right way when he believed in God's way and plan because he failed and made many mistakes doing things his way.
Why would he trust their way some success, and material possessions didn't make them better people, or accomplished. It's about how you treat and help others that made a difference. Trying to be the person he needed growing up.

He was free from their death grip. They had joined say or control over his life. He was isolated and ignored. He expected nothing from them and gave them nothing to cling onto since they tried to bad mouth him slander his name.
The truth came out on them so they'll got quiet real quick. He didn't care what they did or said. He just wanted his name cleared
He was never a follower, or going to fall into place. Health conditions or not He was always going to be himself. They could never take that away from him He resisted rather than try to understand they tried to make him out to be the compilacated one.
It bugged him but knew they had a it coming back to them. If people believed the lies it was only a matter of time till the truth came. They tried to break his spirit and silence him. He was quiet while feeding his spirit with the word.
He was open to change and listen while their ignorance got the best of them. He made moves and wasn't apologizing for pursuing his goals and dreams.
They called him delusional, but they took and used the people they bad mouth. He was glad to be doing his own thing. All the talk no one felt bad for them and cared because of all the corruption they caused.

Vick was ready to BBQ, once he got his liver transplant. He wanted to eat and celebrate with everyone that supported and believed in him.
Show them love back because he never felt worthy. The right people loved and accepted him. He gave it to God feeling blessed.
Always fighting to exist to be heard. It was hard growing up, always grateful and thankful. He spoke up made a face, waiting for a reaction. Someone was always mad or easily offend.
He wasn't sensitive that tough skin made him grow. Be able to eat good food without worrying his liver would fail or die watching what he consumed. He wanted to be normal tired of being the outcast, the outsider looking in.

He got in his car hit the road music loud, the wind blowing away all his troubles and worries. Wanting to leave and starting over in a new world a whole new life. Leave the old life for the new place to call home He never felt like he belonged or fit in anywhere.
He was not going to **** up, or compromise himself to fit in. He made that mistake in his last relationship. He was over his past weighing him down. Tired of carrying those burdens trying to make wrongs right when it was all pointless there was no point because it was all one sided.
No longer bothered by his rivals because they didn't talk to him what more damage could they do. Ignore him it was already the normal; why expect, or want anything different. Already the bad guy living up to the standards making it easier. They didn't care about him why should he care what they think. They didn't care, how he felt why should he care what those Haters think.

Greg spent the week in the hospital learning to slow down put his health first. As much as he loved his job,  it was a distraction from life. He wanted to see and do so many things. Scared to do it alone, but sometimes in life; that's how it goes.
He would ask "what else is out there" annoy with some people because he'd invite; tell them it was going to happen, after being ignored. They would comment on a picture, or post he found it insulting. Since they did get an invite, but didn't take it serious, or care enough to respond.
Thankful things that are bugging him have been brought to the light. People are rude on the internet but don't have the stones to say it to the person. Thats how cowardly people have become. Greg spoke up and seen as complicated over reacting.

Douglas was getting older he learned to appreciate life, after a few bad relationships. Never put your happiness in the hands of others That's your responsibility that's what he told himself. He loved people who didn't love themselves and they would mess with his mind making him hate himself because there was nothing he could do to please or make them happy.
Eventually he went cold turkey and walked away from these people that would make him doubt himself and his judgment. The friends he had would bad mouth him but this bad boy rep did him some good more than damage.
Also learning friends, don't talk about you behind your back. He respected them enough to say it to their face. His honesty would **** people off but it was out of love because he cared.

Going against the family is the worst because you feel like you let everyone down. The family doesn't realize they let you down on many occasions but turned a blind eye wiped away tears. Stay strong because showing weakness got you stepped on or pushed around.
Family uses humor to insult you but when you use the same tactic they aren't to happy with what's being said especially when it's the truth. Jokes turn into talking **** all of a sudden. Some can't take a joke so they try to get physical or try to insult you with lies making things personal.
Lots of respect for a person who calls you on your ****. It might be tough but it's nice to know someone is paying attention. While some talk and do nothing about it just talk wasting everyone's time.