Hard to find common interest
Hard to find common grown
So many labels and boxes to check
Different in one way treated bad
Seen as the enemy a bitter rival
For one conflict of interest
So much imposition
So many talk not open to learn
People don't listen to understand
Always ready to tell and respond

Talked about moments
People who laughed
Brought out feelings
Shared emotions with
Who had unique traits
Details engraved in the memory
Took them in shared thought
Got to know one another
Smiled in one anothers company
Made jokes with about one another
Told secrets taking some to the grave
True to the heart deep with love
Friendships lead to family
But that's mad respect and love
To go that far be that loyal and true

Make every line count
Say something deep
Motivate empower others
From the heart with love
Piece of mind full of peace
Overcome struggle everyday
Open to change adapt and adjust
Learn new understandings
Inhale good vibe feel alive
Exhale bad toxic emotions

Distracted by others hurt
Taken away from it all
Tried to help rise with others
Too much wallowing
Settled for less bad habits
Stuck in a pity party
Saw more ahead stuck waiting
Wanted to take them too
Got stuck trying to understand
Wasn't your pain to take in
Gained more than the person
Who not to be or be like
Sad how it hit rock bottom
Never been through a break up
Transition phase not a shake up
Always been loyal to others
Not bothered by cheaters

Thick skin for names
Someone's always talking
Trying to bring you down
It cames easy and natural
Rising up open to grow
So much to learn dk it all
Open minded to change
Can't stay still on the go
Too many bringing it down
Always a gain with some pain
Still striving and thriving through

Called weird for being different
Told you're trying too hard
For having an opinion called annoying
Seen as a brat for speaking up
Always working doing something
Respectful to others different cultures
Try to understand other's way of life
Personal standards open to learn
Lots of growth new beginnings

She smiled at him
He was a big need
She wore thick framed glasses
And a wind breaker her own style
He was the guy who shared clothes
He had multiple siblings
They hung out both their own person
She was the strong silent type
He talked to everyone a social butterfly
She was selective more family oriented
Both clicked got along well
He knew he'd catch feelings
So he didn't let it come between their friendship
He had asked a friend out before things got weird
From friends to never talking again
Afraid and sad she thought less of him
All he did wrong was care
From a friend to expecting more
When it was all said and done
No relationship but the friendship was done

A minimalist with people
Try too hard things go wrong
Made an effort blew up hard
Love too much people run away
Not showing love complicated people stay
More people mad than happy
Not the agenda feeling the judgement
Feeling out of place and discomfort
Just wanted to belong fit in
Always left out or out looking in
This heart means well
Even when treated unfair
Saying sorry is never enough
Not sure how to make the wrong right
Cozy with a pen and pad writing it out
A late night fix to ease the hurt

Expressing with words
Feels right onto better
If it's all taken away what's next
Forced to stay home over a virus
Not able to work or sure
If there's a chance of a return
Wear a mask or no service
So much chaos over cleaning products
Insanity over groceries items
Hoarding causing a shortage
Church online walking with faith
Has all this become the norm
Will things ever be normal again
Missing people all divided
What's the new normal
With new rules and regulations

Never looked at it before
Feel it coming together
So much change over time
Sober living not giving it up
Cut out toxic people no more hate
So much negativity had to get away
Feeling more motivated
Choices without others influence
Been down but not out overtime
Plotting and planning moves
Need to put them into effect

At a fancy pricy spot
She was into the finer life
He was simple and hard working
She'd order an expensive pasta
He ordered the cheapest appetizer
She told him what she thought
He seemed like the refined type
He was the hard working type
That didn't value material items
She was educated and valued it
With multiple associates degrees
While he was a college drop out
Who knew things read a book or two
But didn't take anything to heart
They'd talk about social manners
And gender roles it helped
Give one another an idea
Of their social standing
He grew up poor and worked for his
While she had multiple chances
But never stayed with them
She was a beautiful girl
Turns out employees expected more
She had morals would not sleep
Her way up the corporate ladder
He had a hard time getting hired
Grateful and thankful to be working
They'd walk around expensive stores
She dreamed of more
While he was barely getting by

She was one of a kind
Hard to find over time
He was going through heartache
Not sure if he had it anymore
She was light skinned
He was normally tanned
Together he was dark
They would chit and chat
She was easy to talk with
He thought of ways to hang out
In a social gathering
Outside of the routine
He was shy not confident
Asking her out fear of rejection
Till he offered to pay for lunch
Arrangement was made
Plans were set for Wednesday
He didn't know what to wear
Wanted to make a good impression
Stared in the mirror talking to himself
The day would come
He thought what to say
Where would they go
They met up at the location
She made a choice it was her selection
Happy to see one another

He was not use to sleeping alone
After a break up needed to think
Figure it out eventually would overcome
He shared his bed with an ex lover
Things felt right would go back to crazy
His heart confused over the events
Both lonely ended up together
The relationship ended on bad terms
Being friends was a possibility
He wanted to be friends no pressure
She wanted to get back together
Adding pressure to the situation
He had given up so much for her
He flaked and lost friends
He had to work hard to redeem himself
Old friends didn't want him
He had to find himself be solo
Found new friends
Starting over it hard
In that moment of passion
Thinking things changed
She was afraid to be alone
He wanted this but couldn't go back
He knew life was about going forward

Always holding back
Not sure how to react
Some deep cleaning
Letting all out cluster over time
Never said but should've been
Concerned for others feelings
While taking shots at mine
Tried to be the bigger person
Thinking too hard and let it go
Not going to sink low
Drop to their level
Use to being above and upbeat
Not sink to an all time low

He lay next to a stranger
A person he thought he knew
Blinded by beauty
Felt right at the beginning
What he loved was a lie
Her smell melted his heart
Too bad she was always angry
Couldn't say anything have an opinion
She'd get an attitude or resort to tears
Lay their helpless he couldn't help her
But did need to help himself
Felt better alone doing his own thing
She'd **** his soul dry and near death
Her ways of flirting manipulation
Went from a turn on to shutting down
She was miss independent
Expect you to pay for it all
She made more money
While he was scraping by

Another unsettling argument
She insults him
While he gets quiet walks away
A few moments later she comforts him
He zones out feels nothing
She won't apologize being playful
Making it seem her actions are alright
He was done emotionally defeated
Mentally drained from the indecisive behavior
If he made a mistake struggled to so anything
It would be thrown in his face
Feeling shamed and embarrassed
Over all the humility all the compromise
She'd never let him hear the end of it
He ended it but she said no refused to go
Eventually she came to terms and ended it
The power struggle for her to feel right
In her mind be the superior one to end it all

She caused the fight
He could never get it right
So he stopped trying
Never good enough stopped caring
It made things worse
All efforts made not good enough
She'd kiss him it lost value
She'd say sorry same actions repeated
He loved her with all his heart
It felt she ripped it out trying to force love
From natural to unrealistic demands
Expectations that never made any sense
Eventually he wanted to escape get away
Far away so he can heal from the trauma
Loved more than most another chapter
Of failed love broken relationships
Thinking he found the one but was wrong

Woke up late
Aware of the change
Things are not the same
Walking away not meant to stay
Wishing you'd stop this from ending
In my mind an extended hand
From real to phony persona
Joyful smiles to enraged stares
Tried to make every moment count
Now a days it doesn't matter
Or mean anything from the beginning
An end that lasted longer than the connection
A protected heart away from betrayal
Learning to love within first to help others

Broken bones heal pain fades with time
Injuries felt on cold days flexibility limited
Pushing the body beyond the limits
Struggle to hang mentally focused
The sport evolved from skill to many
Stretching and warm up are valued
All about form and technique
Focused on all the basics
Prepared mentally to overcome

Mouth wide open
So much said
Can't believe
How others treat each other
From a dynamic duo to a solo act
Took one for the team
Now the team don't exist anymore
Everyone out for themselves
Build it up make it work
Trying different ways
Not doing it one way and settle
Clash of styles bring out the best
Project in a unit not about egos

Struggled with fear
Tired of being told
How to act been an outcast
How to be the mind of a rebel
Broken trust forgiving but distant
A mindful mouth out of respect
Not getting involved peaceful logic
Words feel right on paper
Over the front in the crowds

Only in the movies
Love was hard to find
Felt right and real
Turned out to be the wrong person
More than holding hands
A kiss on the cheek to show appreciation
Quality time together should've grown close
Thinking it would get better
Only got harder and more complicated
Giving your all it's never enough
She's always mad killing the vibe
Not able to read minds
Or figure out what's wrong

Under the lamppost
Talking to one another
A nice refreshing breeze
Two strangers meeting up
Getting to know one another
Talking about their life
Funny moments sharing stories
Planning to make new ones
Spent an evening under the stars
Felt like it was all going to line up
Talked on the phone nightly
Prior to the evening planned
Silence felt right together
Lots of smiles with quality time

Everything happening so fast
Moving forward
Not stuck in the past
Change without say
Without a choice
Not making a scene
Feeling fed up bad communication
Dk anything out of the loop
Maybe being letting go
A blessing instead of stressing

Sharing old stories
Lost in memories
Parts of life
That caused growth
Another way of living
Felt like much more
Now it's passed
It doesn't matter
Onto the next
Way more selective
Over trusting was a mistake

Haven't had a good friend who's chill
Some always putting on an act
While others pretend
To be someone they are not
A friend where you can open up
Without being judged or criticized
They can do the same
Instead of it being used against you
Some who stands up for you
Has your back times have changed
Loyalty and noble companions
Are no more hard to trust
So many fakes and phonies
Can't connect or get close to anyone

Can't be mad things happen
Not one to blame others
Always trying to make it work
Said nothing still tension
Spoke up judging eyes
Silently watching
Always try to be fair
Treating others right
Wish it was easy to not care
Heartache and heart pain
Back to the drawing board
To make a new plan

Played the hand dealt
Still in the game
Chips are low
Hard to take a risk
Afraid to lose it all
Another chance
Might be the last
Feeling stuck Grid lock
Hard to breathe
Had it all going well
Now it feels like
It's being taken away
Wide awake feeling anxiety
Soon will crash with depression
Trying to make it
Through these tough time
Can't always win but giving it all
Taking the lesson with the loss
Gave it all gave everything
Came up short feeling cheated

So much change
Have no say or control
Feeling frustrated
Things went well
Now are ending
Mixed emotions
So close yet so far
What does it mean
Took it in
Couldn't get enough
Wanted to embrace
Got to close it went away
Kept a distance
Eventually stray away
Cared too much or not enough
It always made things tough

Should've stepped in
Your happiness mattered more
My gut said this isnt right
Seen you in love
Couldn't come between that
Thought things were well
Turns out things crumble
Watched this wedding
Deep down knew it was wrong
Bit this tongue smiled
Happy for a friend
Faded out let it be
Couldn't be the third wheel
Find out its over years later
Not sure how to act or feel
How to respond just there
Comfort an old friend
But can't sit around
You have a family to support
Be strong for them
If you can't do it for yourself

Writing for years
Wiping those tears
Telling the truth
Seen as wild and ruthless
Not about gold seen as cold
The struggle within
Trying to get out of this mindset
Open to change turn the page
Growing out of bed habits
Not falling back into them
Focused on being better
Over come some pain
Strive to be better
Living life to the fullest
Tomorrow is not promised

Clubbing use to be in
Now a days prefer to stay out
Dark room with colored lights
Bass extra loud couldn't talk
Had fun on the dance floor
Expensive watered down drinks
Would drink at home
Try to meet a nice girl
All the girls mad or up tight
Wasting everyone's time
Taking free drinks that's not right
All kinds of egos and attitudes
Suppost to be fun its intense and rude

Not able to speak always thinking
Mind racing causing a stutter
Feeling frustrated didn't know
How or why this was happening
Compared to others never the same
Told how to act another scolding
A child with a huge sensitive heart
Use to be the funny one wearing a smile
Everyone made it personal
Jokes that were made to laugh
Then the insults came causing pain
Had to have thick skin because of family
Couldn't show feelings or emotions
Seen as weak for caring about others
Transitions are hard from being one way
Then learning you don't have to do it anymore
Growing up being an individual from the rest
Not empowering things that are weak
Being strong to be set free took control
Learned to say no not a yes man
Not what others said or those made up lies
Away from dead weight living a life flying
From those who are not worthy of your time

Never dated in high school
Paired off for a winter formal
Went to prom with a friend
Being the 3rd wheel
My friend and his date had another friend
So I was paired off didn't know this chick
Till that night got to know one another
School was ending never got close to anyone
Before this night asked a few close friends
Got stuck going alone but had fun
Rejection is the worse if she doesn't feel the same
But dating is more than kissing holding hands
High school was about being friends
But you get older grow apart
And realize not everyone likes
Or agrees with who you are
Happening so fast trying to make sense of it all

College was a new experience
New people from all over the state
New about social groups and social circles
Eventually it would become about life styles
Not use to certain ways of life
Always been accept and respectful
Till others impose it feels like a struggle
Stuck in a conflict that has nothing to do with
So many new labels and boxes to fit into
Didn't care for any of it tried to get an education
Moving into the dorms around the stoners
Wasn't about it but it was more accepted
Drinking on the weekend was a thing
Binge drinking for a week who knew
So much had changed with age
Reading books to write papers
Sometimes it made sense
Other times what the hell was going on
Sharing a room with a roommate
Some were great others a walking disaster
Nice to sleep in a bed without siblings
So much change but missing family
Dating was another new voyage

Remembering a simple time
Growing up without a care
Then responsibility came along
From elementary school with recess
Then Junior high considered a young adult
Walking to school and home
Learning about drugs others doing them
Being defiant adolescent trying to fit in
Then high school came an easier time
Some tried to be cool fit in
Others played sports lots of unused talent
While others had personas social groups
Everyone was figuring it out
While some forced to grow up
Jobs because they needed money
Some had children young had to support
Once graduation came some you talked with
Others never seen or crossed paths again
Never happened right away
But did see it happen with others
Years of school college another chapter

Was never normal
Will things ever be normal again
Whatever that means
Go without a mask
Be able to be in a large group
See friends with out fear
Be around family without
Thinking police will break up a gathering
Be able to attend a sporting event
Enjoy an amusement park on a hot day
Eat in a restaurant get out of the house
Thankful for this home
Anxiety from being inside
Before it would occur every so often
Being out in the work routine
Been reading to past time
Praying for everything to be okay
Writing to stay sane maintain the craft
These thoughts like wild river rafting
One helluva ride all in one mind
Laying in bed hoping to sleep
Wide awake hoping to get some shut eye
Money was flowing now it's slowing
Waiting for the day to be able to go back

Grew up hood
Means be down for yours
So many talk hard
But don't back it up
Never cared to drink
Always speak up sober
Say what you think
Mean what you say
All the instigating
Hiding in the back
So much hating
For being different

Always looking for love
Find support being creative
Someone in a bad mood
Keeping a distance that's not good
Some days talking it up
Others an intense silence
Not trying to pry or intrude
Wondering what's wrong or going on
Would rather ask than assume
Everyone faces obstacles to overcome
Dealing with a struggle you're not alone
Sometimes the support is there
Just know I care even when things seem unfair

Disappointed nothing new
Over the crew rolling solo
Went hard the first time
Working harder the second round
Prefer loyal underground
Over the fake mainstream
Smaller venue more intimate
Big crowds big payday
Doesn't matter the moment on stage
All the rage short lived
Worked to get in not staying out
Working to stay like rent its due

Grasping the moment
Regretting its over
Put in some time
Saying good bye
The past is history
Life going forward a mystery
So much curiosity floating
Taken away by it all
Can't fall a sleep
Calling your name
After math all that remains

Waking up next to this stranger
The girl I love blinded in danger
Thought this was love
Turned out to be lust
Another argument then ***
More conflicts that can't be fixed
More pain the thought of her name
Really in too deep can't be saved
Walking away is hard had to be brave
The last time together forgotten
Remember the first day we met
Hard to forget it was special
Now full of regret lost the vibe
Had to say goodbye to survive

Sleep all day
Up all night
So many ideas
Love to write
Wild imagination
On the go
Tried to draw
Mind goes blank
Staring at a plain page
Can't sleep begin to pray
Things would be normal
Talking to myself to fall a sleep
Use to pretend love was near
Heard a noise feeling fear
Day or night room feels the same
Would shed a tear show emotion
Able to escape this loneliness
Pride protecting the heart
Mind overwhelmed missing others
Thought of calling not answer
The phone works two ways
Sent a text no response
Wondering if all is well or okay
So many ways to communicate
Yet no one can connect
Begged for forgiveness
Never going to be forgiven
Things are not the same
Had to stay away to avoid the pain
A one time mistake not a life sentence
Sober and clean doesn't mean anything
Did it to help our friendship
Now doing it to be better find strength
Move away to heal gave up on a dream
Starting over finding another path another way

The birdie in the window
Heard the chirps so loud
Saying hi little bird
Flying in from of the window
Landing on the antenna
On the house next door
Flying back to the window
Looking in wondering
Asking are you okay
Chirping thinking of a lost one
Been told birds are loved ones
Angels looking out
Landing on the ledge
Looking out the window still
Wings flapping fast then flew away

Everyone tells their stories
Full of lies and it's embrace
Told the truth everyone's mad
Making excuses to justify
Their wrong doing
The frustration of others full of rage
Stayed calm collected composed
Tired of corruption scandals
Getting the worst of it
Turning a blind eye
All of the battle struggle didnt matter
Changing the rules
Moving the boundary lines
Walked away not empowering
Kept a distance not trust or respect
So much tension resistance

Sad how people change
Years of bullying
Pretending to care
Tried to control the situation
Not accepted or one of them
Expected to fall into tank
Not part of the group
Only by default welcomed
Or if a favor is needed
Couldn't stay calm or get cozy
One day you are liked
Things felt unbelievable
Others you are excluded
Seen as the enemy looked down on
Had an opinion got ignored
All the judgement took it
Criticized did nothing wrong
Double standards with a twist
Always ******* over
Told never go against the family
Felt like the family was ready to attack
Lonely in a room full of people
An empty room feels normal
Write it out things feel right

Seeing her with another guy hurt like hell
But showed no feelings or emotions
It gets worse she told him about the new guy
She told him how it happened how they met
He just wanted to fade away disappear
He was happy for her and denied his feelings
When the roles switch hell was raised
She seen him with another girl
She caused a scene wanted to know the details
It was just talking nothing happened yet
He was hurt getting back into the dating scene
It was all new to him hard to open up
Get close to anyone everyone left
So many life lessons changes occuring
Focused on a healthy relationship
Be happy with someone without feeling hopeless
Be able to grow closer with each other
Instead resenting one another over time

The plan didn't work
Been winging it over time
He thought long term it ended shortly
He thought it would never happen
But went the distances surprised himself
The day he said he loved her
She looked at him with paranoid
Then they never spoke again
He moved onto the next
Why did the ex the past come back
Claiming to miss him she let him go
He tried to recover and found another
She loved him but he knew his past
He was not emotionally available
The confusion lots of bad choices
Fears he'd make another bad decision

All the right people leave
While the wrong people stay
Opened up with trust got betrayed
Others want in but keep them out
Loved after being hurt
Bitter taste of betrayal
Loving others with passion
A heart that's never been hurt
Forgiviness a two way street
Walking around unforgiven
Small steps to move one
Slow paced making progress
It all comes out in the sun
Dropped the heavy burden
Cant hide from the truth

Searched for answers
Reflected on life
Many moments encounters
Experiences helped with growth
Faced challenges overcame stuff
Some stayed in the way
Many needed to be moved
Walked away from that life
Never looked back
Didn't fit in or belong
Tired of ridiculous high standards
Fit into a box denying myself
That strips everything down