Not for everyone okay with that
Cleaning off the rough edges
Doing it myself time feels right
Don't need anyone to do it for me
Too tired to argue with anyone
Doing what I love always
Feeling good to be doing it
Not seeking approval
Made it there without others influence
Over those rules that keep you out
Its different but done with heart
From the young soul that's growing old

They pushed you out
Made up rules in their favor
You went away to keep the peace
Now they are in your world
Talking like you owe them
Acting like their approval matters
He held his head up feeling dead inside
Showing no emotion turning away
Showed them respect
As they disrespect everyone trying to take over
He stayed in his lane overcame the pain
Not much to give but gained strength
Tired of being told no one asked
Being genuine better than being fake
Minded his mouth and business kept them out
Drama and problem able to do without
The consequences waiting as the tab builds up

He was the bad guy rumors spread
By people who had no say or control over his life
False narrative to justify their harsh behavior
Trying to manipulate others to do the same
He gets why people cut the cord
Why you should match energies
Not let them drain your good vibes
Changing for the better not less
One minute the are behind you
Hyping you up now they oppose you
Not taking them on or bothering
You helped them while they were down
Now their up trying to knock you like if its some kind of trade off

He was tired of arguing with everyone
Someone is holding a grudge keeping tabs
Talking about everyone
Being a two faced phony
He didn't have the time
The energy for all that
He was loyal and true
Dealing with phony and fake
He kept his mouth shut stayed away
They raided and imposed his area Acting like they did more not even close
Talking like they actually contribute
He was tired of all the bad mouthing Everyone was loud talking not right
Never to each other rambling on
Behind one another's back
Quiet once they entered the room
Mumbling the things they said
To someone else never to the person

Not talking again one is clearly in the wrong
Pride is getting the best of them
One asked a question the other didn't like his opinion
A conversation he had with his parents
Excluding a family member wasn't right
Talking about made everyone uncomfortable
Holding a grudge doesn't make you a better person
Being two faced while using people for your selfish gain
Playing victim to justify your actions doesn't work

When family bickers and complains
Don't want to bump heads deal with egos
Always the guy but never in the position to be that guy
Thankful to be working
Only when they need something the go to guy
Most of the time he gets ignored feeling like an outcast
Not the flashy guy but the guy who worked for it

They always judged him
He got **** for buying stuff with the money he earned
Growing up poor taught you have to work for it
Grandma said "you need to do it yourself, no one is going to do it for you."
They don't believe in you
But want to share your success the nerve.
Steal your thunder make it about them
There's no secret or short cuts do the work

Someone is always mad
Don't have time for that
Or holding a grudge
Never talked about it
Making everything personal
Definitely don't have time for that
Talks about everyone but quick to ask a favor
Kept a distances and stayed way
After being pushed out
Now back violating everyones  personal space.
Did favors never again
Looked out now faced with betrayal
Tired of empowering the wrong people
That use others then send them packing
Thinking they changed turns out they are the same in a new location

He didn't have time to hold a grudge
Not talking about anyone it was dumb
He was focused more on his job
That had it's up and downs for days
Thought about asking the cute girl out
Change his career he was tired of settling
Thinking they changed but expecting to much
Only nice when they needed a favor or they wouldn't bother
Cutting out family doesn't make you right
Doesn't make you a better person
Some conversations needed to be had but that's not right to exclude anyone
Sometimes it's not about being right but doing what's right
Eventually it feels like everyone is against you making a stand sometimes it's a lonely road
While pretending everything is okay makes it way worse than before
Forgiving them and moving on is easy
Getting close and trusting is another
They'll try to bury or expose you while you've done nothing wrong.
Having an opinion gets you judged and treated different
Not a problem paying for things but when you demand name brands
And have deadlines for a potluck it's unsettling
Cared you had problems rather than help the situation things got made worse.
The power given doesn't mean people owe you or you own them. Letting that go to your head talking bad about others while you do the same thing.
Trying not to say anything but hard when you are being taunted and provoked. Definitely not seeing eye to eye or on the same level

Trying not to over react
Showing interest being fair
Even if I don't agree
Having an opinion gets you divided
Use to being isolated not giving in
Walked away don't care for drama
Not holding a grudge its too heavy
Carrying that burden is draining
When the other person doesn't care
After they use you up
They give the 3rd degree
Only when they want something
They are in your personal space
Things don't turn out accordingly
Not expect in much giving your all
Not saying much but everyone talks
Everyone has an opinion that's respected
No one asked while its being given
He's just minding his mouth because he's the bad guy when he speaks up

He loved his family and wished they'd get along.
He was always distance from people he knows people go through stuff
But have no right to take their frustrations out on others
Killing the fun with bad vibes and bad attitudes
He didn't care to feed egos or deal with their worse while he put out his best
He minds his mouth because his honest made people mad
His mouth got him in trouble and lead to drama
He just wanted to hang out without conflict
Trying to keep the peace while falling to pieces within
Trying to understand while their actions said other wise
He didn't get them while they made everyone uncomfortable
He was done pretending everything was okay.
It was easier to stay away then try to help those set in their ways

The family joined for the festive even
Someone is always mad holding a grudge
Talking about one another but formal to their face.
Spending time with siblings and parents an intense moment
Use to going to other locations
Trying to be better son and older brother
One sibling not invited it wasn't right
Pride and egos bumping not sure how to fix it
Jokes turn into insults and made personal
Siblings have partners one brother is not fond of
Like his opinion will change their feelings

He cared when no one else did
Went out of his way and kept out
Smiled when everyone was bitter
Insulted by others frustrations
Tried to look out but got ignored
Looked past the flaws at inner beauty
He made one mistake got over it
Never heard the end of it
It was held against him

One day they love you
The next they hate you
Because you didn't play the games
Now they are mad making a fuss
Asked if it was okay they were fine
Told the truth don't care for lies
Forgave them still no change
They came at you trying to provoke
When you've walked away
Trying to turn others on you
Cancel out for being different
Like exposing you makes them better
Rather be alone than deny ones self
Kept a distance playing it safe
Wanted to be a peacemaker
More than peacekeepers
Tired of living and being a certain way
Over others toxic and bad behavior
Feeling pushed out been on both sides

Cutting ties feeling free
Forgave the person moved
After all the lies never ending
All the manipulation the deceit
No longer involved staying away
Looked out plenty of warnings
Still learning the hard way
Ditching the responsibility others don't want
Not being accountable for stealing
Quick to blame others made a mistake

What's the lesson
What am I suppose to do
All these thoughts seeking close
From friend to for they burned you
Now playing the victim putting on a show
Turned your back walked away
Running their mouth so much to say
For not liking a person
They talk about a lot it's sad
Never one of them not pretending
Told how to act no thank you
Talking about others that's two faced
Now acting loyal and true that's cruel
Slandered for having an opinion
Dk how to debate made it personal
Trying to wipe out a person for walking away

It use to be fun now it's not the same
Drinking with family everyone complains
At the bar wanting to be home
Better at home not driving
Instead of overpriced drinks
Use to be fun not anymore
Alcohol doesn't heal the pain
Not able to drown out bad memories
Dealing with problems everyday
Some can be resolved others pending
Walking away from phonies
Once valued them tried coming at you
Now keeping a distance broken trust
After all the lies you stop caring
Endangering others drinking while driving
Care more about drugs than your only child
Hard to watch so much is felt
Asking what's with you
Or why are you doing this?
Get why no one bothers and called a last cause

His personal space violated
Ignored till a favor is needed
All the disrespect the nerve
If he didn't do favors
They wouldn't bother with him
It was never enough
Someone is always complaining
Burning people for selfish gains
A snake lurking pretending to care
Among hard working people
Leaching off everyone causing chaos

He was a rebel stood alone
Who listened to punk rock
Being the voice of reason
Usually too on the burdens
Everyone ran from or avoided
Spoke up someone was mad
Easily offended called on it
He held them accountable
While they blamed everyone
Wasn't easy to manipulate
Questioned the BS shook things up
Not always liked or a favorite
He was seen as a threat made a target
Going along not taking the nonsense
Doing what needed to be done
Didn't seek or need approval

The friends become foes conflict over a disagreement. One said "NO" the other assumed. Then tried to make it personal because the demands weren't met. The overreaction would lead to an attitude that was crucial. The passive behavior made things worse. One talked about it the other held a grudge saying everything is okay but no one is talking. Everything died placed on hold peace was found. After taking the blame and processing both realizing its better to cut the cord both stubborn and proud. One had more drama than the other while one decided to not get involve anymore. the transition during the fall out was hard but things got easier over time. Breaking and destroying things never owning up is the worse kind of person to be around, it's always everyone. Violating peoples trust that's why no one bothers anymore. Pretending to be perfect with a drug addiction while being a functioning alcohol.

Trying to change older not the same
Losing joy things lost value
Bored with things that use to be fun
Afraid of losing what's left its all gone
Not much left trying to do what's right
Always writing to calm the voices
In this head an overthinking mind
Missing the old growing into the new
From fun to depressing not the same anymore
Wanting to be mentally stimulated
Growing old everyone fades away
No kids while some are having another
Haven't found love with the right one
Some married others now divorced
A broken promise too late to be honored
Friends become foes use to be bros
Over lusting women that never commit
Couples failing trying to make it work
Overcoming obstacles with true love
Some are sober addicted to love
Others drunk with lust wanting more

Friends come and go like the seasons
Formal partners another fall out
Moved on never looked back
Break up hurt becoming immune
Opening up to the wrong people
Hoping they'd love you
Feel the same way back
Betrayal is the worse
More painful from family
Trying to make things right
Not going well feels wrong
Not empowering those
Who trash your name
Ignore your opinions
They can't hurt you
Its already been done
Never letting them do it again
Stayed away feels like they want
As they taunt and provoke you
Took the high road hard to speak
The mind ready to speak hard to focus
Like defusing a bomb imploding within
Trying not to react staying calm collected
A war in this head taking its toll
While the struggle battles hard

He loved the wrong people
All they did was use him
Never happy for him
He worked hard all the time
It was never enough
They made it rough
It made him tough
Tired of being lied to
Speaking no one listening
Did his own thing
Use to being alone
He missed the good times
Now feels like its all bad
Someone is always arguing
Mad at one another
He prayed they got along
Drained not sure what to say
How to act or respond
He told the truth usually honest
Others triggered making it personal
After asking his opinion
Feeling set up to fail is the worse
Walked into the sabotage
Trying to rise and grow

He wanted to date but remembered his exes and women from the past. He coule never make them happy or they wanted all the perks of a relationship. Some tried to fix him and make him better for the next why not try to make it work since so much effort and time was invested. Learning to get to know a person is more important ***. Being around and living with a person was an eye opener people lived another life at home from work on a date was another part of the person but there's more to it.

Before you made it they dk you
Didn't bother to call on for favors
From friends to foes biggest haters
Trying to slander you
Because things are right with them
Fathers addicted to coke
Instead of showing their kids love
Blaming them born in the wrong life
Neglecting the child to party and drink
A sober coward in check
Liquid courage getting bold
After a few drinks loud disrespectful

Over a misunderstanding conflict occured. He didn't get his way his demeanor changed. Willing to bad mouth your character. make you out to be the bad guy since his life was in shambles. Sad how the respect went out the window from close to distant. The ties were cut family or not you don't try to expose a person because things aren't going your way.
Another scapegoat instead of owning up. More lies more betrayal and shady scandals going on. Better to walk away than be involved. Its heart breaking they say never again but its not the first or last time.
Neglecting responsibility making this appear worthless a lost cause. The value was gone meaningless not holding any value used it up then away with it onto the next.
Another reason to not get involved or care no remorse or sympathy.

Some people lie and cheat
Never satisfied they get their way
Never listen to anyone
But have the nerve to complain
Money is tight borrowed never repaid
Some grow distant while others have no shame adding to the debt
Been down before never stole from anyone
How are you talking about people when you're worse off
A failed relationship with a child not sure if you're the father
So much confusion mixed emotions
Family wants to help but staying out

He looked out but some let their problems spill over on others
When he cared no one gave a ****
Now that he doesn't everyone fakes interest
They are worse as time progress
He stayed out after being pushed out
Only included at their best interest
They wanted to wipe him out
After he said NO or want able to make their plan work
It wasn't his job to do their work
He wasn't responsible for their happiness
As they tried to **** his joy he was thankful people did favors but hated when It was thrown in his face
When you don't get involved they include you. Before fighting to be included to be ignored

Slander by his friends
Others expected the worse
Feeling like his name cursed
The failed love is the worse
Broken from his circle
Ventured out on his own
Once cared to fit in
Use to being left out
Excluded from the rest
Doing his best gave his all
On call waiting for the phone to ring
In his personal space needing a favor
Had an opinion judged for his differences
More personal attacks no one had his back
Gave so much and did as much as possible
Tired of feeling like it wasn't good enough
Or whatever he wanted would never happen
Come true right away living over pain
Good thoughts instead of dark memories
More UPs that downs over setback detours to get there

Never thought they'd do it to you
The day come they had nothing on you
Trying to change how others seen him
It didn't bug him because he was use to being alone
Hard to open up his feelings would be used against him
Make out to be a joke while being serious
Hurt that the ones he valued made him feel useless
Looked out and got burned in the process
Hard to trust easier to disconnect than associate with anyone

He loved family someone was going through something
Everyone put up with it love faded
Minding his mouth it made things worse
Saying sorry was hard he was treated mean
Dealing with his feelings was like defusing a bomb
Rather than say sorry he moved on
Broken from the inside out
Didn't do wrong got attacked
Tired of arguing it was pointless
Fighting to be heard seen as the bad guy
Couldn't change their minds it was made up
The didn't respect him he stopped trying
He closed them out felt trapped inside
Wasn't going to force his way in
Not his way of life anymore
Drinking want fun all the depression
Hoping to meet someone
While settling for the wrong person
Stuck with manipulators taking him for granted
He loved family his space felt invaded
Not sure how to act and respond
Life's not hard but others complicate it
He was silent but loud in his head

A cold lonely night
Kids out on the hunt
Trick or treat
Some dressed as characters
Masks and costumes
Knocking on doors for candy
Outside is dandy with fun
Pumpkins carved candles lit
Decor on every house and corner
Don't be scared flirting with fear
Monsters and ghouls are near
Pretend to be some fun
After tonight back to normal
Happy Halloween

He looked out the window
Wondered about his life
The betrayal he use to be fun
Too bad he's not the one
All the work not credit
Holding the place for someone else
Then quickly replaced by another
Failed friends formal lovers
Hard to trust moving on is a must
Heart crusted now protected
A screening process more selective
Missing everyone pursuing the dream
Over the one way love going forward
Making his own path rolling solo
His goals needed to be done alone
Others don't define him feeling excluded
Made a stand no going back
Didn't want to deny himself
Just to make happy it was sickening
Been rejected doesn't fit in
After adjustments left uncomfortable
Feeling right walking away

One day it will come back to those fakes. Making everyone deal with their work and burdens. Made them look brilliant as they dumped on everyone stealing the credit. Everyday another person placed in the spot the value fluctuating some times its easy other times complicated. Could be the lead no superior sees the potential but has no problem letting one do the work

Writing after hours enjoyed the quiet night. The candle lit as adding a vibe
So much emotions unable to hide it all. It came out ****** expressions the tone set. Not taking crap from anyone denied by his peers. The rejected did bother all they cared about was his work. Always ignored majority of the time. Now a flood of violation imposing personal space because they wanted something.
All the disrespect became infuriating it because to take toll rants and tangents expressing himself

Fighting to stay whole battle within
Crumbling under pressure the drama
Knees about to buckle overwhelming
Struggling to get by with life
Ready to quit give up at work
Around his kids found strength
Hid the misery smiled for them
Being able to provide made it right
Feeling worthy not wasteful with time
No time to be sad getting over the bad
Focused on the good being better

Writing it down clarity of mind
Noble friends hard to find
Easier to let go no need to control
Took in the pain slowly immune
Bad memories remain okay with them
Use to being ignored not saying much
It's become normal staying away
Not going to stay or beg not wanted
Being a whole over being divided
Not giving up to be accepted
Not holding a grudge living
Doing things without hassle
Over all the terms and conditions

Ready to pounce
Just needed a reason
Fuel to the burning fire
Already had it mind
Ready to tell others
Never listening ready to argue
Assuming they are in the right
Looking down rather than help up
If you're not doing favors kept out
Have to act or be a certain way
Denying yourself to be accepted
Not breaking up the fame
Divided from the pack
The black sheep looking in
Staying away doing his own thing
Tired of pretending it okay being dogged
Over the third degree feeling robbed
Making his own way happen in peace

Sad how everyone changed
Hoping for the better it was worse
This life tough feeling like a curse
Helped they wouldn't do the same
So much frustration causing pain
Learning to trust no respect is gained
Talking about childhood moments
Letting it out not holding on
Feeling free able to talk about it
Not feeling trapped or restrained
Holding on for life don't want it to end
Starting over is hard doing is easy

Made out to be the bad guy
Doing more than the minimum
Changing it up not just showing up
Leaving it out there put it on the line
Doing the work that need to be done
Everyone easily offended making demands
Running their mouth fully flawed
Can't say anything making it personal
Twisting the narrative with hate
Judging others flaws to get an edge
Instead of bettering themselves

He knew the truth honored it
Never given a chance took many risks
Going against the odds no one listened
No one believed in his skills
Thought he could do it
Got tired working the hardest
Giving his all seen as a rebel
Speaking up when no one else did
Stood alone while everyone followed
Asking questions not getting answers
Called a tyrant seen as delusional

Feeling like yourself not accepting defeat
After tough times overcoming heat
Make it through the week feeling beat
Growing older body is hurting
Focused on good with bad memories
Working hard under appreciated
Burnt out from giving it all
Got nothing more everything
Feels like a lost cause life on pause
Trying to change this mindset
So much going on hard to forget

Learning to love again been hurt
All these lies got old you're living one
Cheating trying to blame everyone
For your foul actions so much pride
Saying one thing doing the opposite
Actions louder than mumbled words
Doing bad trying to justify it right
Knocking the good twisting the truth
Had way more going on ruining it
Never enough treating it like less
Obsessed comparing live your life

Dealing with so much losing yourself
Not in a good way paying dues
Having to hustle doing extra
No one is going to do it for you
Sacrificing things to be at work
Missing those athletic days
Older now not healing the same
Have to do extra to come out even
From having time to being the clock
Wanting to slow down its all fast pace
Mind goes numb feeling distracted
Body into work mode get it done
Tired at work ready for bed
Time for bed wide awake thinking
If all the possibilities and "what ifs?

Every word written
Knocking out the bad
Someone is always hating
No reason to be mad it's normal
Let them focus on being great
Told you you're no good
Turns out they are doing worse
Valuing life feeling worth more
While they care about money
It's never enough with the greed
Helping loved ones doing good deeds
From close to distant barely talking
Sobered up now trying to do right
You mad can't go without that fix
Two kids focused on those bad habits
Love them like my own be better
Get your head out of your ***
Listen for the popping sound
When you pull it out
Sat on the side lines pondering
Things seem to get worse overtime
People setting only for their gain
Not about the family selfish ways
Sad how they talk about everyone
No one is talking about them
Made it about them again

Trying not to take it personal
Always working for more
Not settling for less made moves
Came up short running out of time
Doing as much possible with little time
On the outs but back in struggling
Helping out been in that spot before
Sad that burden is on someone else
Trying to be fair getting ******* over
Everyone talks about one another than each other
Expecting respect being disrespectful
Saying one thing but doing another
Pointing out others bad habits
While doing the same thing

People mad since he had an opinion
Offended by his honesty told the truth
They had nothing on him
So she tried to turn everyone on him
Couldn't win alone making a fuss
Started a false narrative full of lies
For momentum to gain leverage
Manipulating others to gain control
Had nothing but thankful and grateful
They had it all still not happy
Miserable the blessings never enough
Being insulted gave him tough skin
Never talking about anyone
For not liking him since he disagreed
Hated him for being different
He was always the topic of discussion

He went his own way
Made his own path
They kept him out
Didn't listen or care
How he felt expressed concern
All he did was look out
What he thought left annoyed
No one listened very irritating
Now they are in his area
His space feels violated
So much intrusive vibes
All imposition no one asked
Everyone talking about one another
Instead of focusing working hard
Comparing lifestyles be grateful
On what they need to be doing
Starting from nothing moving up
Working hard for everything

Being the lead trust your skills
Able to do the job best of your abilities
Be an example be part of the team
Not make an example of others
Share and pass your knowledge
Teach everyone there's no excuse
Why it's not getting done
Being more consistent
Finishing strong efficiency

She told him he was the one
Let him go then got married
Talking about marriage for citizenship
Looking for love got lust broken trust
Gave respect with wasted time
Till something better came alone
It was over there was someone else
Quick to move while he regrouped
Messed around on a break kept it over
Can't be mad but did expect loyalty
Talking about getting back together
All these scenarios events playing out