The date ended it go weird
From friend to strangers
Love blurred with lust
Forgiveness over broken trust
Made the most of the moment
Now it's over not meant to be
Desired more hard to see
True love hard to fine
Blinded by starved emotions
Feelings of confusion from the heart

He waited in the restaurant
It was a blind date
They chatted online
The day came for them to meet
It was his first date in years
A nervous unsettling feeling within
She would walk in the door
Her hair black big brown eyes
They'd hug it out enjoy a meal
Getting to know one another in person
Both giving it a chance for more
After they met online they came together
Over being single trying to find love
Trying something new different

Not always the first pick
Not always liked right away
Tired of proving myself
Years of making a stand
Another road block and detour
Trying to bounce back
Refusing to stay down
Shame of being wrong
Striving to right set up to fail
False promise bad communication
Disconnected seeking more else where
Feeling alone isolated excluded
All the gossip of others causing hate
Ready to walk away from it all
Start over somewhere new
Begin a new staying loyal and true

Writers block the mind
Runs wild going numb
Emotionally stuck
Not sure how to feel
Mind slowing down
Body sore and tender
Back pain with heartaches
Hopes up left with disappointment
Gave it all left with nothing
Searching for something
Not sure what or where
It will be found somethings missing

Adapting to medication
Anxiety messes with the mind
Thinking too much
Made up scenarios
Playing the role out of place
Feeling excluded from everything
Most of all ignored by everyone
Mind looping everywhere
Not able to change the past
Prepared better for the future

Heart racing foot shaking
Trying to remain calm
Eye twitching face feeling hot
Staying centered and composed
Not sure how to act on anxiety meds
Dealing with made up scenarios
Walking away feels like your fading away
Use to fight for a place once belonged
Lost value not the same anymore
Growing more hard to fit in
Doesn't belong just trying be an equal
Excluded from crazy once was phased

Always opent to change
Someone is always hating
Dress up seen as a sell out
Under dress seen as a ***
Never lazy earning the keep
Doing the job with pride
Said it couldn't be done
Pushing through the crazy
Been here before standing tall
Doesn't phase the thick skin
Live and learn with age
Meant to grow can't stay small
Big personality against an ego
Once you give up walk away
Turned your back on the hater
They try to slander your name
Your rep is worse can't bring shame