Drinking calmed his nerves
Women his poison of choice
Hatred repeating more than twice
Raised his voice wasn't taken seriously
The love wasn't real everyone so fake
He thought they changed for the better
Behavior way is worse than imagined
It's really bad that's who they are

You gain wisdom but lose your youth
Living in the present Observing the new
So much has changed over time
Heart on Golden daze treasured pleasures
The past has rich memories
Success should be rewarding not a punishment
Tired of living in regret got overlooked
From a broken home now married
A hard working man not given any credit
Educated walking with open eyes
Hated for having an opinion
Speaking your mind gets you canceled

Trying to get close dk how
Easier to keep a distances
Relationships are hard
Treated unfairly by loved ones
Seen a stranger one mistake
Not given a second chance
Tried to do right the first time
Everything went wrong not meant to be
Love faded away it doomed
Never good enough fighting to survive
Emotionally numb on the inside
Physically paralyzed taking it straight up
Spiritual growth on life support in a coma
It needs to be woken healing has begun
All this for love to be accepted socially
Even when it's killing your mental health

Finding peace and closure while writing
Stopped complaining started praying
Making the most of things thankful
Gave it all to God learning to forgive
Learning to be patient focused on health
Want it now not later determined to live
Waiting for a match the right liver
God's time and will have faith
Got lost in the word not the world
Try not to lose hope impatiently waiting
A close call that didn't happen
Overwhelmed with anxiety
Praying for the moment to be in the OR
A new ***** to get rid of the jaundice
Yellow eyes and bad skin dieing inside
Look healthy be able to be normalish
No more pain and suffering hiding it
Being bold strong when scared as hell

He was worried about the transplant
Lost in his writing being productive
He'd rather live life than be distracted
Picked friendships over his relationships
Both never returned the favor
Dealing with trust issues overcome
Told the truth facing confrontation
His rivals are manipulating cheaters
Trying to take him down No surrender
Not backing down taking on other battles
Stood his ground easier to walk away
Enemies loaded full of lies
In the line of fire taking shots
Now all alone with health issues

All I did was love you
Why you Making this so heart
Our love was beautiful fell for you
You meant everything to me
Couldn't get enough needed that fix
Treated me like nothing in denial
The look of love turned to hatred
Passionate kisses became emotionless
Your touch full of charming energy
Numb look in her eyes loss of interest
Emotions are turned of no signs of hope
A loving kiss now meant for someone else
Never feeling the same going without
Empty wanting more craving more
See things the same now that it's over

Would rather be at work than home
Always doing something productive
Writing my stories people encountered
Personal experience over the top
Not one to associate with theives
Not feeding into drug habits
Avoiding alcoholics for sobriety
Help my group or you got to go