You can't change the past
Things haunt your mind
Writing to reflect those wicked ways
Not able to run fast enough twisted daze
Not one to complain or whine
Make the most of life thankful
Work with what's given
Making the most of everything
Saved himself from the insanity
Staying sober kept him sane

Being my own man growing up
Not like my parents an individual
Being my own man standing tall
Trying to survive the struggle
Grew up around addiction
Bad habits over family love
No way to raise a child
Trying not to repeat history
Fear of the unknown a mystery
Writing to keep a clear mind
Facing the truth embracing reality
In love with the truth inside out
In a world of lies dieing inside

He woke up early started to write trying to be normal. Keeping up with his work load get back on track with his pad work. Waiting on the transplant made him anxious. He was tired of arguing and waiting around so he took up more to keep from over thinking.
Speaking up last year was humiliating being placed on the back burner. Treated like a liability was insulting. He's one of the best workers but felt discredited his health condition didn't slow down his effort.
He took charge because he was tired of waiting around. He was the one that got things done pursuing his goals and dreams working in private behind the scenes onto of everything he's already doing.

When he got sober no one seemed to care. While he got clean everyone drank and ignored him. Back when he was drinking he would ignore everyone because most seemed to have a problem with his drinking. He never pressured or told anyone anything others seemed to give him ****.
He moved on since he was tired of being excluded and held to some ridiculous standards that had nothing to do with him. Being quiet and observant so many people would cut corners or try to pull a fast one. His mind clear way sharp compared to before.

He woke up from a crazy dream not able to move.
Anxious about his transplant
Did everything the doctors asked
Now it's a waiting game on the sidelines
Went to work early thinking the schedule was the same I was extra early
Tired of picking up the slack
Last year alienated for having cirrhosis
Thankful for the help still able
Not crippled feeling the pressure
Now staying on top of this work load
Having weird dreams not able to understand
Always determined to do and be better

Trying to understand their logic
Putting myself in the situation
Using my imagination
Never been one to hate
Everyone is different for a reason
Not comparing myself to anyone
Working to better my situation
No time for criticism or negativity
Walked aways from toxic people
Had to cut the cord losing connection
Family loves not healthy too many terms
Conditions to be accepted dieing inside
Turned down personality usually charged
Diluted feelings to be accepted
Emotions ignored by double standards
The souls glow being dimmed by attitude
Fall in place destroy by hostile anger
Your character will be slandered
Evil trying to erase your existence
Being isolated no control of others narrative
Doesn't hurt use to being alone
Alive and well its close go home
A disrespectful mouth crosses boundaries
Getting out of line is dangerous comfort
Eventually pushing everyone away
Time will shift in shift in the favor of good

Dad in and out of prison
Mom lives with her mom
Back and forth to grandma's
Brother doing time for a crime
Blame myself for doing nothing
Said too much no one talks
Trying to unite casing divide
Materialistic pretending to be realistic
Bored with life imposing views
Disagree the rage comes out
Can't win gathering back up
Opposing leads to destruction of a rival