That safe space was the great escape
Hated being home too much hurt
The track focused on health
Away from it all love family
Tired of the arguing profanity
Felt unworthy doing so much
An older brother not a parent
Siblings full of hostility
Parents refusing to grow up
Couldn't stay down or live this way
Meant for more stuck settling for less
Pursued more came up short
With a new world comes a new mindset
Old ways of life clashing with the new
Trying new things forgetting the old

It ***** we don't talk anymore
We use to be close really good friend
Holding a grudge divided us
Things were said misunderstood
An apology not accepted
Forgiveness is wanted but not given
Friendships ends over ego and pride
Relationships destroyed in a power struggle
One lives a lie while being angered by the truth

Closer to the transplant
Did all the test for California
Now going to take more exams in Arizona
Waiting for a liver could take weeks possibly months
Almost a year ago it started
A doctor appointment for a check up
Finding out with high enzyme levels
Being diagnosed with cirrhosis
A phone call from a doctor with no bed side manners
You're sick we need to figure out
What wrong with you
You have cirrhosis or cancer
Thankful it was cirrhosis over cancer
The less of two evils trying to get healthy

Life is a blessing with growth
Change your mindset new perspective
Leave old ideas behind open to new
Emotional bankrupt bad investments
Feelings burglarized by imposters
True colors shined through
Causing friendships to fade away
Failed relationship to shattered dreams
Hit rock bottom a steady foundation
Buried by family slanderous talk
Hurts the most still love them
Still living life to the fullest
Made up rules in their favor
Once you spoke up or disagreed
They tried to make others hate you
Trying excommunicate your existence

Against the world keep your head up
Not always like or a favorite
Taking on the world it's not worth it
Easier to walk away from the chaos
Than being part of the insanity caused
Some like to argue don't say anything
Talk about you for being different
No one is talking about them
Be the one talked about not talking
A good head on your shoulders
A heart fuelled by hope and grace
Be useful instead of useless
Spiritual growth with positive energy

Protect your family at means
Neglecting your own needs
Doing it for them working harder
Staying strong with support
Being positive through though times
At work hustling to provide
Be someone do good treat others right
Be better help others do good deeds
Staying sober is an apology a new life
Drinking never forgiven old ideas
An old life in the past let it be forgotten
A new life in the present new memories

You create a new way of doing things
It clashes with the old way of life
Far from the past, but it's well known
Scared of the future unknown territory
Not knowing what's next, a clear mind
Afraid to fail one-shot opportunity
Holding onto what's left is a fight
Lost so much overtime, never again
Old friends fade away, memories
Scared to start over somewhere new
Not sure where to start anymore
Bounced back many times before
Faced those fears inflated with hype
Taking on maniputive egos
Toxic mouths continue to run
Eventually, signing a death wish