From trying to be a team player to handling business and going home
Over all the gym politics some people had help where he had to work to pay for his classes
Work took him away from practicing what he loved.
His so called team gave him crap lots of time conflict and restrictions
Trying to enjoy himself excluded by those arrogant practitioner.
Feared another injury trying to get better feeling like a tackling dummy
Trying to perfect the technique use what was learned apply what's being taught
Wanting to work and compete but it felt like an off season. Learning it'd out there you have to seek it no one will get you there you have to want it.

Changing things up time management
Making the most of what's given
Wish people would talk to one another
Instead of talking about each other
Over taking on egos that are two faced
Not empowering people condescension
Saying one thing actions cause conflict
Seen through the act left in confusion
Trusted the wrong people left in doubt
Spoke soft to see who's listening
Calm collected maintained
Talked loud many with a lack of interest

The day it ended tears were shed
Wondering where and why it went wrong
Thought it was a happily ever after
It was over no second chance
Never forgiven eyes of hate
The hardest part is forgiving yourself
One day but not in this life time
Addicted to her love can't get that fix
Detoxing going without healing overtime
The self destruction didn't help situation
Making things worse pushed everyone away
Blocking it all than facing reality
Distracted by work keeping positive
Felt worthless and unworthy
Seeking to be whole never going back

Written on by family proving them wrong is easy but they'll never give you props. Those made up standards no one is living up to over all the talking.
Be this way do that most are not happy just going through the motions.
Breaking bad habits changing to avoid falling into the vicious cycle. The fear of being like people that loathe you.

He liked her but she told him she was busy. He got the hint and kept a distance. Someone was always mad or holding a grudge trying to turn him into someone he's not.
Be this way or you'll get treated different. Or you're this way so let me treat you bad. Trying to justify their misconduct. In your business instead of tending to theirs. They'd rather push you out destroy your happiness than be accepting allowing you to grow.
He'd smile they'd stare at him with intense anger and hatred. He preferred to be alone sick of others assuming rather than just asking. Trying to narrate his behavior dictate his mood. He wanted them to stay, but it's easier; if they just left.
Becoming emotional detached was more common than getting your hopes up. Tiredof being disappointed and let down by people he thought cared about him.

Stopped complaining and comparing just living
Not taking on other problems that are ignored
It's okay to be excluded like being alone found peace
Grasped closure within staying clear of drama
Once cared stopped listening to foolish demands
Quit playing others games empowering indecisive behavior
The silent treatment is rewarding not punishment
Out of the loop is better than pretending things are okay
Solo projects doing your own thing is everything

She got a bf the guy; who liked her missed his chance. Never took the risk thought there was time. Things change so quickly from flirting to seeing and hearing she's with someone else. A hard pill to swallow take in without any regrets.
From good friends to complete strangers. Those feelings lead to num emotions. Hard to breathe take it in. Being a man not showing things got to him. Deep down it was taking its toll on his heart.