He gave up his dream for love and it didn't work out. Learning to love himself trying to get back on track. He's not far from success but knows it will take hard work to get there. Battled up hill battles and struggled to make it through make it to the end the others side no where to run or hide. He couldn't avoid his destiny when the people he loved became a distraction. More road blocks and obstacles he didn't need or want the toxic to destroy his vision.

Hard to trust after being done *****. He forgave them but they kept up the same scam. Giving him the silent treatment when they got caught up now they are mad at him for telling the truth. As they kept lying and blaming everyone else.
He didn't drink anymore but everyone with their failed relationships and bad habits trying to justify everything. More nonsense that didn't hold him down or back. He was not easily fooled their actions were louder than all the shouting and complaining. It was their life how is it anyone's fault for their actions. It was annoying everything got really bad instead of better. He made mistakes but learned not to say or do anything because of the negative influences that tried to mock his way of life. Provoke him to over react when he knew that he didn't ask for advice and not react nor empower toxic behavior

He always wanted to change the outcome. No say or control just saying be better next time the moment passed. The bounce back took a while hard to shake these hard feelings rough emotions questioning what is wrong and where did it all go wrong. If he was able to pin point that moment be able to let go let loose. His mind was his safe space but sometimes an escape room with looping thoughts with no hints on how to exit within a timely manner.
So many questions but not enough answers that matched what was being said.

All you wanted was to make it
Share that moment with everyone
All they did was ruin it look down on you
From caring too much to not giving a ****
You valued them always much love
Now all they do is hate on you
The disrespect made it easier to step
Not giving them a reason to talk
No longer enabling them to have a say
Staying away doing more than before
Free to do whatever not married
Able to enjoy life no kids choices were made
He worked hard trying to get paid
Made more so about anyone anymore
Stayed out got more confidence
Brought in feeling drained not the stepping stone
No longer the scapegoat found closure
Being a rebel alone getting it done
Making it fun over complicated drama

He wrote to stay sharp
His face showed no emotions
Thinking of his next move
Writing to focus distracted by others
They came at him but he didn't react
He didn't respond to the negativity
Staying positive focused on growth
Stood talk tired of being brought down
Let them do their thing much respect
While focused on his not phased
They made it he was happy for them
He made it got ignored but use to it

Working to pursue a dream
Lots of body aches and pains
On this journey to somewhere new
Can't stay stuck in the old looping past
Doing less work for him talked about
Doing too much still had them talking
All the pain faded but still intense
All the drama no longer welcomed
Taking over trying not to fail
Not be consumed by angered frustration

Determined to make it through the day. Enjoy the next three days off composing ones self and coped with all the anger frustration let it all go. Not worthy of holding onto letting go of those that disrupt his inner peace.
Watching them crumble before his eyes. Staying composed not quick to surrender to evil now a peacemaker instead of the chaos of others.