He was the oldest trying to be his own man so many trying to shadow him and knock him. The worse is when it was his family. Talking about him behind his back never to his face. He learned to not say anything because everything got made personal.
He made suggestions had an opinion. Now they try to bury him take him out in the numbers. He wasn't scared to be alone so much bugged him. He never said anything to or about anyone. But they has so much to say against him. He was human as they tried to make him out to be a monster. Thought he was someone else all he wanted was to be himself.
Focused on work since it was so demanding and writing it gave him peace and closure when everyone else was burdening others with their frustrations instead of dealing with it.

He liked her but didn't know if she was the one. He had his doubts he just wanted to get it right this time around.  Not doubting his abilities but has been wrong in the past trying to bounce back from trials and tribulations.

He vented about things to clear his mind. All he wanted to say was **** and mind your business. Tired of everyone talking about each other instead of to one another.
Walking eggs shells as everyone did way worse pretending to be better than you. That's on them no one bothers to make it right. They'd rather hold a grudge than make things better.
Everyone talks loud when you aren't around but when you walk up they stare with an awkward silence. He smiled and said hi even when he got the cold shoulder.

He loved his sibling wish he was closer. Everything was always terms and conditions so he stayed away. He just wanted to get along. He didn't care for mind games or the jokes that were packed with insults.
He was older and knew better than to lower himself to that level. Family divided mad because you hung out with a sibling uncomfortable being put in the middle of drama that had nothing to do with you.
Not feeding egos all the pride keeping everyone apart. It was foolish to impose on others thinking your way is best for others life.

Told be the lead but didn't like being responsible for others. It's always argument or fight he learned to do it on his own. Give his all and expect nothing in return. Pushing through even when he was burnt out. Growing up in the struggle learned to go without. Told to speak up don't hold anything in.
This helped him open up and write sometimes clear his heart. Told it was all in his head focused on the work not the drama. Getting older feeling less phased by gossip. Not talking about anyone and minding his business.

Trying to stay intact loving them hard
Never had your back the betrayal
Unless you're doing favors
In their favor wasting others time
Sad to see them go if their not happy
Better to say good bye than hold on
Wishing them the best nothing less
As they move on did his own thing
He focused on the work every detail
Trying to improve the situation
Making the wrong right with family
Forgiving others hard to trust
All the verbal attacks behind his back
Spoke up now everyone is mad
Open to change with some criticism
Taking advice suggestions that bubble
In the back of the mind cycling away
Memories fading not holding a grudge
Not open to being told how to do so

The love he desires was hard to find
Someone he could trust not a lush
A real connection with someone true
Instead of meaningless lusting
Tired of one sided being treated cruel
He remained loyal yet faithful
Even though accused of cheating
Taking all the blame to make it work
Immune to the pain becoming numb
Knowing its over not playing dumb
Heart letting go moving onto growth
Mind blocking the distracting denial
Focused on the truth ready to improve
Be better without compromised love