They expect you to know but don't teach you anything. Expecting you to know everything at that moment put in the hot seat. Respect for my elders but they don't teach you anything job security. On their way out and we still learning the game. Talking bad on the up and comers what a **** shame.
Their time is running up things are changing learned to be open to change. Old ways new ways no one cares just get it done. From the an outsider looking in finally on the inside.
All the rumors being true feels like the dark side wanted to be on the right side. Hated being alone got use to the silence giving my all to make it better than before. Dk or care anymore not the same everything is in the process of change.

Hard to trust when they are spreading lies. You forgave them but they aren't forgiving you. Trying to explain while being ignored and talked over. Giving them silence so they have no reason to talk as they continue to run their mouth.
Might make a fussy broken trust thought highly of them. Not going to let them talk down on you. Always been loyal and honest. While the lies and deceit are being served to everyone strong. One talks about leaving while the other points out everyone's flaws. Giving people crap but not doing any of the stuff that's being complained about.

The snitch gets caught up tries to lie his way out of it instead of owning up.
Trying to call out not show up instead of manning about the situation all the anger and frustration he's causing others.
While the worker is always grinding trying to do it right get it done the first time make it better for everyone and easier by maintaining it everyday. Not a leader but being the number 2 you feel the pressure while the lead doesn't care and dumps it on top of the regular load that needs to be done.

Some still have it going strong
Others are fighting for it on the level
Getting older not the same
The mind adjusting to new ideals
Body going through change
Elders passing away with time
Loved ones no longer talking
Praying everyone would get along
All the pride doesn't make ot right
Saying sorry doing the same stuff
Instead of changed behavior
Holding a grudge isn't an apology
Not talking to keep the peace
Both to stubborn to compromise
One telling lies to justify things
The other not saying nothing getting heat
Everything could be made right with talking
Both offended making it personal and deep

When they need a favor they are nice sad how they don't bother with you. These people are the worse talking about you and you never said nothing about them because they don't have anything going on for them but you still accept them.
One minute your on the inside wanting out when you are use to being on the outside looking in. Hard to express yourself because everything gets mad personal.
They talk about what you do but never what they do it's the worse feeling ever. Its not worth it if you have to fight for your spot you don't need it. If you worry they slander your name you don't need to be there.

Love family but they always make you pick and choose them or what you like and love. Why do you have to compromise yourself to be accepted. No one is against them but they come at you like if you owe them something. Telling you what to do when no one asked for their opinion. The times you needed them they said nothing and no where to be found.
You start feeling better about yourself and they try to knock you down a few levels. Its the worse especially when its family instead of united everyone divided, so much ego and pride; it's easier to walk away.
You forgive and forgive its easier to walk away while they hold a grudge because they made you out to be someone your not painting you out to be a monster. While they keep doing shady stuff. Trying to turn the family on you because you had your own plans and they include you in shenanigans.

Trying to get it right no more covering for others in the end it falls on you. The stress could be overwhelming and the pressure crushing your heart because you want to do right make it better. No one cares they want it done only focused on the results. Instead of the steps and process it took to get there. For some doing the work is a must there's no short cut or hand out along the way. It's about maintaining everything finding balance to have some peace and closure.