He started to speak up, he had enough so much imposition on his lap. They don't want him to accept their ways without taking his into consideration. He was open to discussion but it turns physical because they he didn't always agree. Open to learn understand didn't like being forced or told how to act how to behave.

He made mistakes and was tired of paying for them. He quit drinking gave up so much to be accepted. Someone always kept him out assumed the worse. His family gave him craps so he didn't bother with them anymore. He felt that he couldn't grow around them no longer stimulated by them.
He ventured out took risks; they didn't believe in him. Looked at him like he was crazy and laughed when he tried to get serious.

How are you going to have a party and have a potluck then be specific on telling the guest what to bring. The nerve and audacity. Some people talk about others and have more going on why be so petty? Quick to look down on others but never look at their spot or situation.
Trying to move up in ranks cutting people down. Using the numbers but your BS will make people distant themselves. The frustration busting everyone's ***** to get your way. Able to manipulate others but not buying into it.

How to heal a world that's turned upside down. Everyone life put on pause or moments of joy taken away. Wanting an old life back the new one feels gutted. Everything lost some things are replaceable others all you want is more time.
Being careful then finding out you are positive already distant forced to stay away. You worry about your loved one. Work and home no outside life a scary world some believe others don't. Once it spreads within your family it's the worse. Watching and there's nothing you can do.
Writing to stay sane fill that void the hole within never happy or satisfied with life. Made the most of things family like a shadow casting on you. Dealing with the guilt all the burden. Always in a fight life is tough ready to walk away this struggle within. Letting go of the hurt like a security blanket. This new anguish taking its toll all new. Hurting from the inside out. Screaming into a pillow hoping to release tension.

Feeling the anger weather down as it all gets written out.
Can't be the same anymore.
Tired of being underestimated for being different.
And hated for being cozy in this flesh.
Isolation alone feeling depressed
Trying to do right dealing with wrong
Starts to drain your body of energy
So many bad memories begin to surface crazy to take on the insanity
Remembering faces people once trusted
People who you ***** when you helped them out.
Trying not to cry hold back the tears
The frustration extra high agonizing
Determined to grow dk anymore.
From cheap thrills to no action
Like the song goes no satisfaction

Breaking through the wall of writer block. Stay or go something needs to change. Turn the page new chapter can't read the same old stuff already know the outcome.
Time to change the good get stimulated new material.
They don't want to teach you teach yourself be better than those who doubted you nothing to do with you.
They dismissed your efforts and success but expect you to praise them when anything good happens to them.

The truth came out now all of a sudden it's causing a ruckus. Trying to argue getting defensive because they've been exposed. When he said she ignored him, now that someone else mentioned it showing concern. He always wanted to fit in but they kept him out. He's not missing anything but an arguing couple run down by their kids. They have way more and it's still not enough.
He worked with what he had made the most of thing. able to adjust and adapt stopped empowering their toxics ways. Muted out the negativity evil energy trying to consume