Everyday a fight to be heard
A struggle to be seen as an equal
Being kept out and silenced
An internal struggle within
A loud mind a quiet mouth
Words flow out with emotions
A way of expression able to feel
That love was an addiction
All the hurt is healing up
Found inner peace and closure
Learned to go with out
Not be included
Do your own thing
Its okay to be alone

Never been into material possessions. Had it all lost it all starting over it hard. Learning to maintain focus what needs to be done to get by. Finding balance to be able to work in that dream instead of putting everything else first. Thr transition is always hard because unexpected delays occur.
Always distracted easier to help others than to say what you want and come up with a strategy. Always asking what if or why not easier to do than think its the perfect plan and it will all fall I to place.

Not use to hanging out most work and have no social life. While some are married or have kids forced to grow most of all being responsible for their own. Got use to not making plans someone always flakes out or cancels. I was nice to have lunch with a cousin everyone is growing up some more determined than others. While some are just going through the motions. It's good to change it up break the cycle get out of the routine.

Not sure how to feel what to think
These behaviors are unhealthy not right
Talking on their teems can't even say hi
The tension and awkwardness
Not one to kiss *** abide by made up rules
Not in the same department stay in your lane
Said hi use to being ignored
Don't care for the power trip
Keep running your lip make it easier to split

Waking up random hours of the night
Haven't been able to write
Always behind the scenes
Feeling trapped meant to escape
Around so much hate not feeding into it
They try to flip it lome Jedi mind tricks
Someone in their mood ruining the day
Overcome by focused on work
Trying to break this writers block
Asking what you want this project to be
How do you prepare for the outcome

A new life a new love
Grew up ******* up
Not normalizing being low income
Working harder to move up
Don't always get the girl right away
But meet and find the right one
Haven't got the job wanted it
Something better on the horizon
After the quarantine there's more to life
Said there's more to life than work
Wearing a mask to be safe
Use to be a wild one living life to the fullest
Things don't always match up
Never line up accordingly
People flake so never making plans
Use to be free now stuck in a routine

Tired this time change being loyal and still haven't got hired sometimes determined to bail. The people are great but it has it's days. Feeling weak trying to find strength within. I know there's more out there use to being ignored and kept out when you are doing good more negativity. Sometimes things are bad and you are being ******* yourself no one bothers with you.
A fight to fit in and belong eventually you give up on them but it feels like you give up on yourself. Its like these fake rules and standards are made to keep you out. Spoke the truth once as they **** you off mess with you off everyday.