It was his home people would come and go. He couldn't get attached to anyone after a while he couldn't connect. His life felt like it went in the wrong direction got tired of starting over. New friends can't replace the old while new relationships don't have value. Expecting the worse instead of expecting the worse break this curse. Not the same as before use to be new now it seems like the same old and dull. Lost youth growing old life lessons learned.

Smiled under the mask
Laughed enjoyed every moment
Too many up tight walking mad
Writing to lighten the load stay sane
Things aren't bad counting the blessings
Life can throw a curve ball
Always asking and wondering why
Being social usually tucked away
Doing what this heart loves
Making the most of things
Physically into body not feeling drained
Emotionally invested instead of dreading
Mentally sharp focused without distraction

Another day of writing
Dropping the mental load
Feeling normal without influence
Not there anymore or going back
Shared the mental anguish
Others understand able to relate
Away from all the hatred
Others can't let go of the past
Using it as a weapon of defense
Smiling from good vibes within
Broke free of the chains of pain
Will not be infected by drama
Become immune to insanity
Had to disappear move away
Walk away give it to God and pray