Gave up the reputation
A silent mouth so many provoking
Compromised so much stuff
All the compromise a one way street
Sacrificed so much died within
A journey that needs to be finished
Suppose to get hired to take her out
Never happened missed opportunities
She found someone else happy for her
Stayed home to be sober faded away
Can't be around temptation or crazy
Trying to stay in control but losing it
Wanted job didn't get hired
Still working for it not giving up
Scared it will never happen
The people talking never tried
Easy to talk about everyone
Never said anything about anyone

All these rants on this page
No one is listening
Projecting it out in words
Only cares about themselves
Did favors now playing the victim
Pretending to learn but don't care
Never gonna change forever bitter
Slanderous remarks to a girl
Who didn't like you always hating
But she crushing on a friend
Never happy for yourself
Just knocking others to matter

Felt built up right one mistake
Now it's crumbling to the ground
Tumbling down losing it all
Feeling cheated for being loyal
Did right still feels wrong
Can't blame dealing with the pain
The rage implodes within
Said nothing everything spiraling
Spoke up no one can hear
Saying what is wrong
Being ignored by everyone
Need someone to bounce ideas off
So many respond not listen
Seen as over dramatic

Family changes when money is well
Talking about you for no reason
Once they need something
They friend you for favors
She blabbing in your ear
Trusting all the wrong people
Going back to a cheater
Say one thing get chewed out
So much love for the one
Who treats them bad always forgiven

Avoiding mirrors
A stranger in the reflection
From fit to fat a bad back
A workout an addiction
Now a workaholic hustling
Use to date now forever solo
Only a few true friend
Miss them all the time
Living memories fading away
Always valued friends and friendships
Don't hang anymore growing apart
Different life styles ways of life
Everyone paired off left alone
Like a sock missing the other
Everyone with more than one kid
A late bloomer child at heart
Never cheated accused of doing so
So many cheaters given many chances
Pretending to be loyal living a lie

Writing about changes
Sometimes they happen
Rolling with the punches
Taking steps one day at a time
Always giving never taking
Sometimes thoughts of giving up
Overwhelmed taken for granted
Would never give up on them
They are quick to pass sent away
Fighting to stay denying rejection
Never felt apart of the circle
Always out looking in wondering
Treated different being labeled
Not made to fill the box
Been outside looking in
Never meant to be inside

Another sad story
Wanting to help
Not sharing struggle
Taking it on alone
Such a crazy experience
Another moment in time
Laying in bed staring
Not able to cry a tear
Emotions are pending
Feeling catching up
All unprocessed syncing up
Mentally burnt out
Thinking what to say
Physically exhausted
Pushing the limits