My untamed manners gets in the way of impressive plan towards civilization of new dawn.
My heart wants all of it just not the way it has been done so far.
I cannot change as I am already changed and changing, just not the way I want
But how it was suppose to be
Wish I could fly but I am not a bird
But I can always take a flight, off course  and take off, not just the way I want.

Cold toes and aching gut
No fire nearby.
Familiar growling monster
Howling in the floor he lies.
I understand this fear in me
and why my body so weak.
Oh! This pain I can ***** it out.
Just explain how I remove this burn
burning gloom mearly brought by tears in her eyes?
Of all the cries I have seen
Why new this one seems ?

It's temporary I know
Sometimes I am sad
And sometimes  I am glad.

When madness surrounds every second, all seconds..
Even when you are right
You'll always feel wrong
You'll believe in all the ******* there is and some more...
But pauses while doing good deed.

That exhilaration of long longed situation
is so excitingly painful,
It burns my heart to feel this way