Sometimes I feel so old
Like I have been here forever
Seeing same things happening over and over

And

Sometimes I feel like I am so young
Like I have all the time to figure out what's what
Discovering new things everyday

But

Sometimes, I feel exactly 28yrs old and I know that i know not enough to decide but it is still necessary to comment and have half boiled opinion.

Dry dust settling, underneath the skin
so we hoped for rain....cool and clean,
Then poured the sky, glorious mighty high
Off course scales are no more
but wet mud is sticking
on our slippers sole
So
now we pray
for
yet
another day

this gush of rush moving so slow, its almost stagnant
holding mania  within so firmly that it resembles sadness
patching up all the leaks but still couldn't stop some drops
its dragging me all over the places i have been avoiding
i am utterly far outside my zone, chill running down my bone
even distractions are now questioning "you ok? whats with your tone?"
no! leave me be, don't judge or care for me, i'll be fine
i just need some time alone with me

so i have been distracted from reality of death again
now i hope finding my way among all adding few years more
how perilous and sad you say i sound
i am but a great admirer of life
mourning of its inevitable end
then i finally understand
and came to appreciate of death too
i realize we need life to feel that too
and to really know death is every bodies' doom
we have no choice but to rejoice of this finite gift
and see to it that we lived it all and lived it well