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Angel Jun 19
We once searched beneath our beds,
checked closets for shadows—
afraid of the dark,
afraid of what might breathe in it.
We ran to our parents,
sure they were invincible,
shielded from the world’s sharp edges.
After all, when you're grown,
you understand everything.
Right?
Wrong.

We spent our youth aching to grow up,
craving answers,
power,
the chance to confront the monster ourselves—
just to prove we could.

But time, unkind teacher,
revealed what childhood never could:
the world is fractured,
and our parents—
only human,
fumbling through the unknown,
learning to fight their own demons.

And eventually,
we stopped looking under the bed.
Because the monsters
weren’t hiding anymore—
they were everywhere.

In mirrors,
on sidewalks,
in the faces of those we once trusted.
In classmates who belittled,
in boys who punished a ‘no,’
in men who stare like hunger,
and friends who smile
while whispering knives behind your back.

We no longer fear the dark—
only what daylight refuses to reveal.
We lie awake,
not in wonder,
but in worry.

The safety we imagined in adulthood
shattered
when Mom broke down,
Dad snapped under weight of bills,
and the future stopped promising answers—
only uncertainty.

And suddenly,
the monster beneath the bed
seems gentle in comparison.

You lift the cover,
meet his eyes.
He isn’t terrifying—
just loyal.
A witness to all your growing pains.

You feared him,
but trusted the ones who broke you.
You mistook appearance for intent.

And now,
you thank him.
Embrace him.
Let him go.

He kept you safe
when no one else could.
But your childhood is over,
and the world doesn’t wait.

Still, you mourn—
not just the loss of innocence,
but the realization:
the monsters were never under your bed.
They were always in plain sight.
Angel Jun 18
My inner child,
barefoot in a burning room,
clutches a paper heart
no one ever tried to hold.
Angel Jun 18
I sensed the shame
poisoning my blood,
flowing through my veins—
a silent flood.

I discarded myself
to sit within the hallowed halls
of the great successes,
wearing masks to match their walls.

I stood tall,
concealing crumbling confidence.

My unhealed inner child
shrieks for validation—
silent screams
for eyes that never turn my way.

My extraordinary foe,
how your anger bleeds
into my life,
ambushing me when I’m frayed and low.

So much time
spent fleeing your grasp.

If winning is the only path
to joy in this rotten place,
then soon I’ll fall
into your fiery embrace.

Attention is what I crave—
but with you, I must remain.

Oh, failure,
bane of my existence—
I suppose this is hello again.
The pain of being a perfectionist who lives off of praise from others.
Angel Jun 18
Twilight touched my eyes
Fears dissolved in quiet sleep
There, my love appears
I wait for sleep so I can visit you. When the sun rises, I am met with the reality, that you are merely a figment of my imagination.
Angel Jun 18
I loved.
You noticed.

I devoted myself.
You shifted.

I told you how I felt.
You reciprocated it.

I handed my heart to you.
You held it.

But when I reached for your hand,
you had fled.

And with you,
went my heart.

Slowing losing oxygen,
losing hope.

I loved.
You left.
Angel Jun 18
My cheeks burn,
splashed with carnation red,
soaked with blood I didn't shed.

It's all in my head.

Eyes surrounding me,
violating me,
I sense the judgement,
through walls built off trauma.

Skin crawling,
yearning for an escape,
for freedom beyond the prying looks.

I spoke.
I choked.

Holding back the tears
they are hot against my skin.

Keep it in.
You must keep it in.

Awkward and restless,
i hate this.

People surround me,
They look.
They judge.
They perceive.

They must hate me.
I hate me.

I close my eyes,
shut the doors to the world,
that I don't belong in.

I can't escape this.
Angel Jun 18
I leave the door open.
I’m not waiting for you, I swear.

Not lying back,
head against the wall,
yearning at every creak in the floorboards
like it might mean
you’ve come back.

I’m not waiting.

But if you poked your head through,
and all the memories came rushing in—
I know I’d forget
every petty grudge
I’ve nurtured
to fill the space you left.

I’m not waiting.

But every second without you
feels like a knife in the back.
Like my body is dissolving
under the weight
of not being enough for you.

I’m not waiting.

But if you walked in again—
the way you always do—
only to disappear,
only to forget me
until the next time you get bored…
I know
I would still welcome you.

I’m not waiting.

But when I see your face,
something in me
melts.

Years of feeling unwanted,
unlovable—
all undone
because your love
has always felt like enough.

Because your love
is all the love I thought I needed.

I say I’m not waiting,
but the door is still cracked.
And my heart still flinches
at every whisper,
every movement,
as if maybe
you’re waiting too.

I’m not waiting for you.

But the only person
I care to let through that door
is you.
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