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Illuminae Xscar Sep 2014
you lose me every night
when i cannot stand anymore
the closeness of skin and breath
i leave my cold still self behind
like a flag
to mark where i have been
where you have been
where you are

i come back, early morning
slow light, gray light
cold and frozen from how far i have been
the empty buildings
reflect empty spaces
reflect empty walls
Illuminae Xscar Sep 2014
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'magic is only skin deep, these days' she said.

sitting alone, surrounded by hard beats and breaking glass, music boxes crashing down stairs and then being axed.

such aural assault lends itself to thinking...

'take the blackest spell and tie it around my little finger' she said.

i am the last of my house here. they are all gone, now. memory lends such things nostalgia, or perhaps nostalgia lends such things vibrant memory. we are hardly, if ever, aware of history. portentous events only happen in hindsight. you cannot be aware of the memory of a great day if you are mentally recording it as such.

'look. look at the sky falling with such violence. if only these eyes could do the same.' she said.

walking through the black slick streets, watching people talking to themselves. when did the switch happen? are you talking to yourself or on a cell phone? what is the difference...('not as much as you might think' says the voice that calls me at these times, when i am walking alone on those same cold, dark, glittering streets.)

i can ask you no more. would it be any different if i demanded? i find a certain boring arrogance in demands, a weakness perhaps. people should just fall to your will, without (too) many words being spoken. the artistry lies in making them believe they do it of their own volition.

'volition. to violate in the most intrusive, not to say intimate way.' she said.

never mess with a beautiful girl who mixes her metaphors.

the dark underbelly of a given city is almost always (i never say always, i never say never. never fall into the trap of exclusion) more instructive then the civilized front. this city has such a cold, permeating darkness.

if you fall to the devil here, you fall alone.

'turn a blind ear, vacillate between if you will. touch me not! observation contaminates.'
Illuminae Xscar Sep 2014
yeah, well i dont come here anymore, but this morning i just wanted to talk to you. tell you that all this wind makes me restless. and if i was into placing blame, i might place some on you.

yeah, well i dont look at people anymore, but this morning i missed your face and i saw traces of your blue blue eyes in the water down below. and if i was into crying, i might cry a little for you.

and i remember:
it is warm here today...today, the day that you left. i wander the dark streets and cannot feel your presence anymore, just murmuring shadows walk with me. the light falls on the one dimensional landscape, harshly exposing reality, a place i have never been. buildings looked warped and grotesque, i can no longer see as i did. i feel as if the enchantment is being drained into the ocean, and only bare walls remain.
i remember everything. there is no time and we exist in all the places/moments we have ever caught and held as ours. and now the world we constructed is complete, finished, a perfect sphere. there will be no additions or modifications. read only memories.
the city and i are alone.

may you find peace to temper the darkness within.
Illuminae Xscar Sep 2014
Do you remember when I broke my own heart?
Did I ever break yours?
Historically, that is my speciality
Heart assassin
I don't think it took with you

Maybe I was just a head on the door (nod)
Something to conquer, again
And the rain keeps falling
The thunder is making it's way slowly

I have never seen such bright lights
And I live in the lights
Fairy circles, enchantments
I will take you from yourself
I did.

Not forever, just long enough to forget
And yet the rain will have its way

There lies the darkness of predators
And there lies joy

I do not forget, though I do not remember

You left some things behind

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