madison

madison Dec 2018

never

im in love with you but ill never tell
i know how afraid you are of falling

madison Dec 2018

weak

my chest is tight
my bones are weak
i cannot breathe

madison Dec 2018

beg

i told you no
i said i didn't want to
you took control

madison Dec 2018

cravings

i need it
i crave it
it's right there
on the tip of my tongue
i have to have it
nothing can stop me anymore

im sorry

madison Dec 2018

im full

i cant consume it anymore
the only thing i want to swallow is myself
im full off the words you fed me
my eyes fill with the only thing i keep down

water

people have been using the word eating disorder in reference to me and im scared

madison Dec 2018

not anymore

im not scared you
anymore
i can be okay
again

madison Dec 2018

no

someone told me i will be okay
but all the signs point to no