See mary j she always finds me
i think i love this girl see shes always  kind to me when im down or stressin  she always uplifts me
I
love when shes around  kuz nothin in the world gets to me.  
Shes a beautiful flower but her nick name is tree
I
like climb her branches and see how high she takes me.
Shes met my mother and she loves her to
I
think i may propose but it may be too soon  hmm ill wait few months when shes in full bloom then shell be my bride and well me her groom!

Lord wat is your will for my life

shall i forever be alone or will you send me a wife

i ask for your will kuz my will is to weak

i dream about this girl when im awake and sleep
but if she is not the one then show me who is
because not every girl deserves this love thats within

the devil shall tempt me but i wont give in
because i dnt want love that starts with sin
because thats not love it truely is lust i dnt want a one night stand or a lil bitty crush
lord i know you are working and cant be rushed

just show me who she is
so these feelings can be hushed!

Pen to the pad or fingers on the phone i write all these poems because of what god has shown. Never has he left me never was i alone im chasing after god now so the devil is on his own. I am who i am no matter if you accept. The god that i serve he always accepts. He knows my heart he know my intentions. He created everything so truth is his definition. See i am blessed i will no longer let my circumstances get me down or let this world devour me stress. I was once a non believer who held everything thing in his chest but the father of this world has come and put all those things to rest. I am worthy i am loved  if not by you owell haha its from the one above. See i laugh i joke because at one point in time this world had me choked. See who iam now is not who or wat i was in the past. The joy the father brings is like the boxer in the ring so it will everlast. Regret guilt defeat somewhere in the past it will only stick around if you fuel it with your mind being the gas. Roses are red and we know violets are blue no.longer focused on this world because the focus is on you. The promises you made were not in vain. I know through this life there will be tears and pain. The tears will go and so will the pain kuz i must go through somethings before i experience the gain. Its easy to give up and hella easy to complain but where will that get me but stress and strain. The future is brighter then the stars in the sky. So lord take the clips off these wings and let me spread and fly!

Everyday that goes by its really that im losing time. Im tired of this selfless  world  and this 9–5. I get up everyday go to work an put in time. But im starting to feel like everything on this earth is a waste of time. I mean i really just want to settle down and spend some time. But its as everyone in this world is after their next dime. Well if *** money and drugs is everything to this world then  where is my finish line. Kuz im tryna figure out why im.in this world and why did mine and your life intertwine. You never know who your gonna come across or wat to expect. So lets treat each other with dignity and a substantial amount of respect. They say in order to get respect you must be the one to give it. You will never stop doing something until the lord god delivers. So stress not or complain  at all kuz he is in control and you could be worse off!

Confused and abused  by this body of flesh. Trying to live for god but its not an easy test. Temporary pleasure of sin not what i need but has me amused. So there no one to blame when i am refused. Temptation of the world temptation of a girl is: a everyday thing and why my visions blurred. See i wanna be perfect in all things that i do but since i became a Christian i see how far from perfect iam when i compare myself to you. How did you do it how did you survie this life. Why cant i be like you why must i suffer this life. I am ******* myself but you say im worthy. Well let me see myself the way you see me come make this vision un blurry. I want to do what you want me to but my desires are blocking your way. Its easy to talk the talk but hella harder to walk the walk. I need you to talk for me and walk for me to. Kuz if i try to do it on my own it seems the futher i walk from you. Why i am here to me it seems unclear  you say you have a plan for my life and theres no need to fear.  So what is your plan for my life am i just supposed to exist. Am i going to struggle  with these sins everyday if so give me the strength to resist.  Show me your plan for my life lord god and this i insist. I don't want to miss my calling i dnt jus want to exist and i really dont want to be one of the ones who has been exempted from your list!i

Regardless of the things i do i can never lose my faith in you. See you are perfect and i am not so i only wanna be more like you. I know that everything i do is vain if its not glorfying you. Then why do i still chose to go my way instead going the way you do. I know that its not by my good works in which im saved its a battle thats already won kuz of the challenge you took and the rode that you paved  . You walked through life and fought the temptations. Help me fight them lord kuz they hold me down like intense gravitation. I believe in you not for what you do but who you are. See you are the justice even when the unjustice prevail. You are the wind that keeps on blowing directing my sail.  You still love me even when the test comes and i fail. You are the reason in which why in this life and the next i will prevail.  No matter what comes my way i must  keep going! I must keep chasing after you because not even can i trust myself so father i need your help. I dont deserve your mercy and grace but its something that you give no matter my mistakes. Your are the faithful  who will never let me down. But i get so upset with myself kuz i feel as if i always let you down. Conflicted with the world and the lust over girls i struggle to adhere and follow your words. Im trying lord even if the people around dont see my efforts. The rich and the poor are no different because our lifes all end on tha strecther. But lord you stand up for  poor the weak and those who have been strickend by injustice.  So lord please stand in place let your word and your way be my only way. See i know where i must go an what i must do i must take the focus of me and this world and put my focus solely upon you. Because regardless of my mistakes  regardless of my vain pursuits i know that you wake me up because there is greater destination for my life  and it is up there with you!

Worship to me is to be set free from things in my life that distract me worship to me is to get on my knees and praise my god whos above all things worship to me is not just to sing but to honestly accept that he is my king  worship to me turns the dark into light worship to me is knowing i will be alright worship to me is receiving his grace worship to me is not something you do in one place worship to me is giving up my will and letting his be done  worship to me is honoring his son worship to me is a reminder to the devil that no matter how hard he trys he cant get on my level!