Before we can respect anything we must respect ourselves. We must accept our flaws accept our mistakes and learn from the past and not let it retake. Get along with everyone but dont follow their  ways. Be yourself at all times regardless of what they say. See we all have messed up and sinned  different ways but we judge each other as if were perfect and havent done anythang. Play the lead role in your life but in mine your just  character. I respect everyones choices i wont hold you to your mistakes but i will inspect your character. I wont get along with everyone but i will keep the peace. But some people you gotta say good bye'let em go just to keep the peace. Some people claim to be real but on the inside there fake. They are only out to hurt  and think from you what they can take. I will no longer walk with my head held low. I will no longer fit in and jus go with the flow. See my god is the wind and when his storm starts to blow there can be not questions asked with him i gotta go!

Why do i crave  for help but refuse to open up why do i feel like i have to be strong and never open up. I feel as if i have to take this world on all by myself. But lord you say i dnt have to so i ask that you lend me your help because i feel all alone and i cant do this myself. I feel unworthy i feel angry i feel depressed i feel so lonely even standing around people who are willing to help. break me lord god  let your presence  be felt. Because i feel like that old book collecting dust on the shelf that no one wants to read! Even with your calling o father i feel as if i will never succeed . I feel like everything is coming agaisnt me and trying to drag me down.  Why cant i scream out for help lord why cant i make a sound. What is keeping me from you lord what is holding me down. Show me the way lord god remove this grey cloud.  Blind me lord god to this world let me only look to you. You say that  you will help well im relying on you to.  You say you will change me from the inside out then why on the inside do i feel all this doubt. Why cant i express myself in the way that you would. Why does everything i say and do seem to be absolutely no good.  Lord i am trying my best but maybe thats not enough. I get over one problem and then theres another to back it up. Is my life just a struggle and im just supposed  to be tough. You say to look to you when times get rough. Well im staring you down i am yelling at you from the top of my lungs i cant do this alone lord god yes ive had enough! When will you come through and shower me with the truth. When will i walk in your will and do what you have  called me to. When will your joy in me overtake this doubt this anger and depression and shine through  me like a light at the intersection!  Lord im tired of feeling like im so unworthy and feeling rejected. You say no matter what i do to you i am always accepted. Then why won't that sink in my heart and why wont my mind accept it. Why was i born in this world and only feel neglection. I am broken lord god and i just have to accept it.  And im solely looking to you father god kuz i know that only you will fix it!

I am the thing that haunts you in the middle of the night i am regret 'defeat ' i am ugly sometimes. I am here to show you the mistakes that youve done. But when you dont learn from me i will re occur. I am the past ofcourse and some of me is ugly and some of me is good. Do not beat yourself up with me but learn from me you should. You can not change me for they are the choices you made. But you can be forgiven from me but thats a choice that you make. Kuz god was there for every choice that you've made but you wouldnt turn to him so you kept making the  same mistakes.  You kept beating yourself up saying why wont this change. Thats kuz you weren't  willing to take a step in the direction he paved.  You just kept it up trying to do it your way.  But theres gonna come a time when theres only so much u can take. Then you will see that there Is no other way.  Dont give up on yourself but give in to his way and i guarantee when you do your future will be that brighter day! So dont dwell on me  wishing that i would change. Because i am the past so look the futures way and begin to make those changes starting today!

Lord  i will only look to you for the anwsers i seek. Even when i feel like your not listening you've heard every word ive speaked.lord you are everything from the water flowing in a creek. To the trees dancing in the breeze. You eliminate the odor of sin in my life so you are lifes febreze. You only see the best in me while people only see the worst. But there judgements are irreleva"nt because you lord come first. You are in control so to you my life has been rehearsed. So you know everything that has happened.and in my future whats going to occur. So my life is in your hands so i crave your direction. I will make mistakes but when i do i will ask for your correction. Because if you called me right  now would i be ready for inspection. You are my quaterback and every play you've made has been perfected. And i am the receiver  so my job is to catch the  reception. Or will i be to distracted by the defense of the enemy whos only plan is  interception. He plans to knock me of the route that you intend me to run.  But his bumps dont matter because i was constructed and instructed by the holy one!  So the play that you call will be the one thats true and clear. So when i take off from that line  the defense will push and pull but i will not adhere to fear. I will stay on my route while you whisper in my ear break left. Break right. Jump. Now my feet are in the air. And how im going to land is not always clear. but the play that you've called is one of truth and so divine. That even though i dnt know where im about land when i look up and catch the ball and stop worrying about the defense. And stop worrying bout my weakness.ive just scored your touchdown and satans been defeated.

It doesnt make you a man when you raise your hand and say look baby im bout to make you understand because she opened her mouth and used her voice and yall didnt agree or make the same choice doesnt make you a man when you go out cheat honestly homeboy you just accepted defeat you tell her your sorry there wont be a repeat she falls for your lies and all your deciet baby open your eyes and begin to see that hes not a man he truely is weak he'll try to cover it up by being all sweet he'll do things he never does like rubbing your feet and youll fall right back in when you need to retreat kuz no women alive deserves to be beat