This is the part where you think
of what’s right.
This is the part where you
put in mind
what’s best
for the both of you.
‘hey’ she whispered
under your tight hug.

You looked at her and
you kissed her for the last time.

This is the part that
you must hug her even tighter,
hold her even longer and
kiss her until tears
started to fall down and;
you crumple and tell her
that you can’t live without her.

But instead,
you let go of the tight hug,
you looked at her with
a blank gaze and
smiled plainly.
You tried your best
to stop the tears and
heavily said the words,
‘this won’t work at all,
I’m breaking up
with you.’

Maybe this time
it will not hurt.
Maybe this time
you’ll make him happy.
Maybe this time
you had done
the right thing.
Maybe this time
he’ll realize
that you had done
such thing for
his own welfare.
Maybe this time
he’ll realize
that losing you
is the best thing he had ever done in his entire life.

I tried to save you
Fought for you so hard
I loved you in spite of what I heard
In spite of all I saw
I tried to ignore all the mean things you ever said
Tried to just believe in true love conquering all instead
Constantly lieing to myself that maybe you would change
If I believed enough
If I tried hard enough to make you see that I truly loved you in spite of myself
I've never had to love me if I was loving someone else
Didn't have to take care of me if I was busy taking care of someone else
All I ever wanted was someone to love me enough
Fight for me hard enough
Believe with me that love was truly enough
Now im left alone and numb
Not truly believing in anything
All I have now is all this wasted love
No passion, no one to call my own
No where to really call home
The bottoms where im at
Holding onto extinguished passion, pent up hurt and regret