Hey, hear my heart
It’s beating loud
That crazy pound
Please hear it out.

Now, it’s all I have
It is all I am
Do you hear my cry?
Do I have to try hard?

I know there is something beyond
Looking at your eyes
I can feel it in your touch
And now I see the spark.

I don’t wanna play your silly game
I don’t want to lose it all
I don’t wanna be the one to blame
When I make the final call

I don’t wanna ruin what we have
I just cannot take the pain
I don’t wanna play your silly game
Please don’t let me fall.

Hey, don’t try to hide
What’s on your side
It’s all I see
When you’re with me

Can you just be
What you’ve always been
‘Cause it burns my soul
And it freezes my skin

We know we’ll never have enough
If you’re not ever gonna stop
But if you’re madly insisting
Please do give me the real thing

I don’t wanna play your silly game
I don’t want to lose it all
I don’t wanna be the one to blame
When I make the final call

I don’t wanna ruin what we have
I just cannot take the pain
I don’t wanna play your silly game
Please don’t let me fall.

If you never plan to catch me
Please just let me go
For when hearts are hurt so badly
They tend to curse a stupid show.

If you just don’t feel it
Please walk away
But if you badly miss me
Then I’ll have to stay.

I don’t wanna play your silly game
I don’t want to lose it all
I don’t wanna be the one to blame
When I make the final call

I don’t wanna ruin what we have
I just cannot take the pain
I don’t wanna play your silly game
Catch me, I’m about to fall.

It’s Friday evening and I can’t sleep
Waiting for the night to finally grow deep,
All I’ve been up to is just some crazy stuff
I’ve never been this down and all in enough.

Creepy thoughts had been ranting in my head
Though cracked and wild, it kept its cool instead,
I can’t take another step on a pathetic, bitter course
An outcast state in a world where everyone abhors.

This I confidently said to myself once more
There’s no looking back, so I tried to close that door,
But as I gripped to push the golden door ****
In silence, my ears can’t help but hear my throb.

The pain, the angst, and all those tears I cried
For the first time, I realized that I had long died,
Wounds, still fresh though memories, all rotten
Treasured gleeful moments seemed to be forgotten.

I let it out, I screamed inside my gloomy soul
Precious shimmering gems were destined to roll,
Sure enough that no one would be able to hear
The world shall never know, tried to hide my very fear.

The terrible sensation was slowly killing me inside
Seems like those thoughts had come to deride,
Sadly, my fate was to be excruciatingly pained
Not a bit of love’s mirth was ever treasured nor gained.

I tried to ran from those unending miserable scenes
Uncomfortable to hear that this ruthless life wins,
Finally vowed to walk away from sorrow and shame
I strongly held a promise that I’ll never be the same.

I don’t need love’s wings to take me up so high
And show me a sham world across the treacherous sky,
The beauty of the rose is not what we should only detect
How its thorns can hurt you is what we must also reflect.

Else, if love won’t allow me to wear a genuine smile
I guess I won’t be deceived again to take an extra mile,
Sad to say, in whatever ways, I’ve had it memorized
So I won’t be left stunned again and strangely mesmerized.

Life will really take you to a battle you never expected
But it’s in your hands if you will let your heart be dissected,
No blame shall ever be put on me ‘cause I remain steadfast
It’s just a bitter principle, made strong enough to last.

With the way you smile when you see me near,
the way you stare when I am here,
the way you feel my greatest fears,
the way you see my invisible tears.

The way you make me feel I'm wanted,
the way you understand my deep hatred,
the way you carry that smile of content,
the way you plan out your very intent.

The way you accept me at my own flaws,
the way you notice me on a sudden pause,
the way you laugh out when I go crazy,
the way you don't care if I am lazy.

The way you keep your silence at times,
the way you hide and present your lies,
the way you accept all hurt from me,
the way you let me just be me.

The way you comfort me in distress,
the way you care when I'm drowned in loneliness,
the way you caution me when I'm not alright,
the way you support me in my every fight.

The way you just know what I am feeling,
the way you speak for me when I'm not speaking,
the way you show that someone's behind me,
the way you come just when I needed somebody.

The way you light your own hopes up,
the way you continue and never stop,
the way you feel the pain alone,
the way you've waited, now it has grown.

Every moment has never been this significant
I never expected a feeling so instant,
You started it all, now I'm feeling alright
A dull, empty world, now a paradise so bright.

But love won't allow an overload in my heart
I'm clearing it up to make another start,
And I can't be so swift in diverting my emotions
I've known all these before, I know the cautions.

Time, that's all I have to be enough with
To offer a better and more enlightened lead,
If I am to push through or just be fair
Preserve the friendship or make a new affair?

I can't stand to witness myself wither
Frustrations caused by hearts so bitter,
Trust breaks so easily when badly stained
Hearts wound so deeply when unexpectedly pained.

In this new course, I see no certainty
I may be happy, or be hurt so unluckily,
But one thing I know, we cannot both feel
What our eyes speak if it's never real.

Chances are presented, though not that right
Waiting for the moment when I already need to fight,
For now, I can't give it a straighter view
But all I know now is it's just about me and you.

As much as I want to rejoice
And savor that old feeling again
I’ve got no other choice
But to keep it all hidden.

No one shall know that for so long
I’ve patiently waited so much
And that kept me collected all along
But still, it never broke the latch.

It’s nothing that would bring me
Into the same wonderful memories
‘Cause now it seems a vanity
To ignore presented realities.

I liked the way it all happened
It’s as if it was the first time
But I shall soon be awakened
‘Cause somehow, it is a crime.

I cannot simply fix the messy crack
Things that have been deranged
‘Cause I cannot bring it all back
Indeed, I know things have changed.

Nights had grown so lonely and dark
The days gone by with not a little spark,
From the day you were gone for another start
I knew that I’d be having a forever broken heart.

I cried like somebody so dear to me has died
But it was really the love that you set aside,
You were happy and I just had to fake a smile
At times I can’t help but weep for a while.

I then grew strong and tried to accept it all
I learned to stand again from a miserable fall,
You never knew how hard I try to be happy once more
From that awful moment I had to savor before.

But now that fate is trying to lead you back to me
I don’t know if I still have to believe what I see,
It hurt like hell; haven’t you realized such things?
Indeed, it’s easy for you to make new beginnings.

How insensitive of you to take things for granted
Refused to see the wounds you caused me when we parted,
I’m just so stupid that I can’t feel a bit of angst anymore
I can’t bring another fight just like what happened before.

I can’t deny, I still have the love I kept inside
I just can’t let it go no matter how I tried,
But I’m afraid I can’t bear to shed another tear
But please, if it’s real, help me with this fear.

I have loved you, and I still do; that’s the stupid reality
But I don’t know if your words are true or just a lie to me,
Nevertheless, whatever it may take, I can’t still say “No.”
To a love that I never intended, I never expected to grow.

I tried to hide from all the lies
From the emptiness I feel inside,
Smiles and laughter filled my days
But nothing can ever make it right.

You taught me how it is to be tough
When things don’t seem to find its light,
But not the kind when one has to fight
With joy and faith, and love and might.

I fought a hopeless battle all alone
Faced the tears until they’re gone,
You never knew how it hurt me so much
To tread this road alone, so rough and vast.

You’ve gone to find what you think you needed
You’ve left me along the journey we’ve started,
But now that I knew quite well how to live it
Please don’t let me make the same mistake again.

I knew how hard it is to hold back something
This love can never be just so wrong on us,
But if destiny would allow us to feel it again
Can we still bring it back and just forget the pain?

The road is rough when it comes to love
But it’s even tougher when you’re not around,
It’s you whom I need to be with here tonight
To feel a love that’s so true, so right…