Smile clown smile
Dress up and paint your face
Jump and fall down
It's just paint after all
Look at them laugh
Here them clap
They laugh about you
Who cares in the end?
The joke is on you
Keep it inside and hide
Smile while you are empty
Smile while you are sad
Smile while you are dying
They will still laugh
Smile clown smile
The show must go on
Hurry, step right in
Jump and fall again
No one will come to your rescue
It's just paint after all

Let me say goodbye
After this our brief hello
As a rivers rolls toward the sea
So too our memories will flow
No longer in my future
No longer part of me
I shall not miss
The depths of darkness
As I rise a phoenix, set free
This is a new moment
That I wished for so long
A star in the distance
Now shining so bright
I had not seen it
Though it stood right before me
No longer shall tears of shame
Cross down my torn skin
Rivers of despair
Lie dry as they may
No more guilt or remorse
Today is a new day
Tomorrow is ahead
Sunrise in the horizon
New roads filled with joy

What time is it?
It does not matter
It could be midnight or past
Our conversation can have no end
No words are exchanged
It is all in a smile
A giggle, a laugh
It is right there between us
Do you see it like me?
It hovers then flows
Into a bridge of rose petals
Under your skin and mine
Blinking so slowly
One breath at a time
No words are exchanged
None need to be said
It is just you and me
In this moment without end

A black rose
With its petals, and its thorns
planted, in the garden
of my soul
Growing slowly
With the water, of my tears
Now it lies, withered out
Awaiting hopeless
For more sorrow
To overshadow my heart
Its roots dry
It petals blown away
By the spring, of your love
Bright yellow and pink
New petals, have blossomed
Tulips everywhere
Stand straight up
Looking at the sun
Layers of romance
Fed with joy, wine of life
Flowing across corners
Of my thoughts
Of my soul Of my heart

You stand at my side
As I walk, down old steps
Of these stairs
Filled with memories
That I still live today
But in the sunset
Of my heart
I let them go and say goodbye
Now you lead me, by the hand
And point at my new way
So I take each new step
Towards this desert of unknown
I make new stairs
With the sand, of my past
The sunrise lies
Now straight ahead
As I climb even faster
To touch the sun, of my hope
I have reached it
It shines bright
The path before me
Was not there, yet now it is
I look back, and my footsteps
Have washed away
I learned from them
But I moved on
From the sun, to the moon
From the moon, to the stars
No end now, as I climb
My new stairs
With this shield
Of my hope

I say goodbye
I let you go
You are forgiven
And so am I
How could you always be inside?
I knew you not
Yet you controlled
My every move
I almost exploded
I felt so sad
I was afraid
To look deep inside
You piercing gaze
Your mellow ways
What a smile
Hid so much pain
The past was here
It never left
As you grew stronger
And yet so kind
Oh so sweet
Such gentle ways
Burrying your thorns
As blood gushed forth
Twisting and pulling
Screaming and pushing
Clenching and grinding
As fire and smoke
Kept building inside
While the forest of tears
Could not put you out
Tornado of feelings
Whirling its way
Up and down my spine
Every breath that I take
Yet you remained hidden
What a disguise
What's not to like
Says everyone smiling
But I see you now
All anger no fun
You had me controlled
But I tell you now
I say goodbye
I let you go

Let me talk, just let me talk
I'm so tired
To even carry
My own thoughts
I want to live
In a house
Adrift at sea
With my music, and my quotes
Seagulls gliding by
Windmills in the sky
I want to ground my feet
And stand up high
Climb the stairs
Of the thoughts, in my heart
Slide down rivers
Filled with hope
Land on clouds
Flying high, stand again
Deep deep dive
In the ocean, of my mind
Swim out clear, swim out clean
Of this sadness, that I feel
It's my story
Lying low, then I dive
Lying low, then I dive
But I see it now
I feel the change
Let me talk, just let me talk
As I stand, atop this cloud
Not to dive
But to fly