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Hudson Everett Oct 2013
Trust me
I know how it feels
To be surrounded by the people who say they love you
But the pain they cause
Is proof enough for me
Love shouldn't leave me feeling empty
Like I have nothing left to give
Or live for
Fear none, fear me
Come one, come all
And see the misfits in all their glory
Misery and company
And spent nights alone
Then glare back at the TV
Something is staring out at me
Like the stars I gazed at
When I was younger
But no more looking back
I grew up without roots
So now I wander free
And spend my days
Wondering about the forests that I see
What it's like to love your friends and family
Hudson Everett Oct 2013
In the daytime I can spin my story
Tell myself I am satisfied being alone
I have friends
I am not lonely
I have purpose

But the nighttime comes and my doubts slink in
Whisper small eternities
I am alone
I am unloved
I am without

Why does the sunlight banish these darker thoughts?
Why do they return to me as I lay in my bed?
If I wake, cheerful and empty of regret
Tomorrow comes and I am unafraid
If I  face the day undaunted
Nightmares will welcome me home
Still I face the night as well
Until the time the two are one
The night illuminated or
The day encapsulated in shadow
Hudson Everett Oct 2013
Rings of smoke around
Your face, obfuscating it
I know who you are
Hudson Everett Oct 2013
I am selfish
I do not wish to share my bed
To share a toothbrush
My morning ritual, coffee and a shower
I do not wish to share my life
I do not wish to fall in love

But I will
And I will share heartbreaking fears
And secret desires
And mine will become ours
And I will become we
And it will get easier to share
Love will make me wish it so
Hudson Everett Oct 2013
I am not sure if I am better off without you
But I know you're better off without me
And that is enough to make me stay away.
Hudson Everett Sep 2013
DNR
needed mouth to mouth
said "do not resuscitate"
died from lack of love
Hudson Everett Sep 2013
i can't be sure.
it's schrodinger's kiss,
the curse,
the uncertainty of it being
both right and wrong
until it's done
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