Hudson Everett

Hudson Everett Nov 2013

How To Get Over A Lover Who Was Never Yours

Step one: get very drunk
Repeat step one as needed

Cry for them
Cry for yourself
Cry because you are alone

Now try to move on
Commit to it
Don’t think about them
For three days you didn’t
And then something reminds you of them
Repeat step one

Tell yourself you were never in love
Tell yourself you will never fall in love again
Agonize over everything you think you did wrong
Blame yourself

Get mad
Blame them
Blame god

Repeat step one with friends
Repeat step one alone

It has been a month and they haven’t crossed your mind
And then you run into them
And you’re fine
And you are free

Now fall in love with somebody else and do it all over again

Hudson Everett Nov 2013

Star(ing)

I’d make an awful stargazer
While you looked up at the sky
I would gaze at you
And wonder at the universes
Which lay behind your eyes

Hudson Everett Nov 2013

Just Another Fake Drunk

I can see you clearly
Even though my vision's blurred
I can tell you how my feelings feel
Even though my speech is slurred

I'm never gonna recover from
What you're about to do so
Why don't I just call the morgue?
I'll ask for a reservation
How bout a table for two or
Maybe make room for three
Where have you been?
I can't sleep
My bed is like my life
Too big for one
Too small for two
My head is like my life
Too loud for me
Too quiet for you

You were only looking for a fling
I reach in my pocket for the ring
You probably start to think
staring down the barrel of a gun
is the closest thing you've ever felt
To this in your life
And now I'm on my knee
Playing this sick game of chicken
Who'll be the first to turn and flee?

Hudson Everett Nov 2013

Dirt Horizon

There is no more sky
No more blue
Endlessly stretching forth
No more fast clouds or silver linings
No more storms or stars
No more wind in my hair
There is a six foot barrier
And a velvet lining and a wooden box
Which I can't think outside of anymore

Hudson Everett Nov 2013

retro 2

God cursed me with foresight and empathy
I know the pain that will be felt
And I get to see it coming
Like looking down the barrel of a rifle
And the pain shoots straight into my chest

I'm going to fall in love
I'm going to feel the force,
the full weight of emotion

I have a gift
Connecting words
Sewing stories into tapestries
I can write the future
And I dye it with ink

You can see something in the way the light hits each individual word
Intricate and hurried but never rushed
You see my story
You see where the lines are crossed
Where paths intertwine and diverge

Never were there deeper wounds
Than those cut by keen insight
Those are they which cannot be healed with time or love
Only held together by hope
Bandaged by the courage to persevere

Hudson Everett Nov 2013

retroactivity

I do not wish to exist,
But others wish me to exist.
I know,
And I know I will want to exist in the morning.

It is both sad and lovely
To write these words here for you
It is a good thing
A noble thing
To write my pains for your pleasure

I do not wish to be how I am
I know I could be better
And I know I will be better in the morning

I'm a little drunk
And more than a little lonely
Because my sorrows taste like honey
When I filling up my cup for the fifth time

I do not wish to say these things
I wish I understood myself
I know that I am becoming something
But I wish I was sure what that was

Hudson Everett Nov 2013

confusion

I see the skies of life and
Marvel at the sight
I cannot bear the magnitude
Of the atmosphere's embrace
As I fly across the horizon
I strive to express the ineffable
I wish to grasp what nature will only insinuate
To squeeze the juices from the universe
Like the proverbial lemons given to me
I dare to ride the wild skies
Bucking and turbulent
The splendid experience
To which I return again and again
Allowing fear of the unknown to wash over me
Only to tell her I love her
And I do not wish to escape her grip
Which I have known since way back when