im addicted
to things
that break
my heart
thats why i loved you

the best thing
you taught me
was what i
did not need

you alone
could move mountains
but here
you are kicking
up stones
for someone who
will not
be your rock

how could you feel so good
after you hurt me so bad

i am not
here to entertain
your fantasies
i am here
to change
all your dreams

no one has ever asked me to stay
i wish i could have
but like cinderella i had to go

will i ever be satisfied
my heart loves you
but my body craves more
of the attention you
do not give me

the more distant you were
the more i wanted you

im sinking
in the baggage
i carry

what does an ordinary person look like
i want to know in case i ever meet one

be the spark
that ignites
flames in
others

forgiving myself
for what i did
and what i let happen
was the hardest part

sometimes you got to apologize
to the ones who broke you
so you can let go of'
what is breaking you

i don't want to take anything from you
i want you to give it to me

God showed me how much
he loved me when
he gave me
you

abortion is the power
a woman holds
to her own body
do not take
that choice from her

pain is only temporary
but my heart still aches
when i remember
what you did
to my body

he didn't have to hit me
to abuse me
his words were enough

i am
worth more
than the
labels you put on me

yes you got a girl
but if you loved her
why are you with me
shut up
no
not this time

when you kissed me
i tasted all the other girls
you told us the same lies
that's when your spit tasted
like poison in my mouth

how do i love others the same way
i loved you now i am broken
i can't give the love
i gave you
back to  
him

i just started loving my body
and you say you loved it all along
i accepted your love
to fill the void I created
by not loving myself

i know
you don't
love me
but i
like to
pretend that
you do

never forget
how
you got
to where
you are

yes you got a girl
but if you loved her
why are you with me
shut up
you tell me
no
not this time

its okay
to not
feel safe
and its
okay to
say no

sometimes peoples minds are to closed to understand the complexity of you
they are to insignificant to see the casums you create
to stuck on earth to see the universe you carry on your shoulders
their spirit is too weak for yours
and that's okay
not everyone deserves to taste your soul

i support
everybody's
right to say
yes or no

roses are red
violets are blue
everything i think of
comes back to you

real woman
don't put
other woman down

i regret the day
i let you in

when you told me
be quiet
i was silent
when you told me
i was dumb
i believed you
but when you told me
i was a *****
i went to church
and i prayed to God

am i the
only one
who sees
send nudes
as belittling

you stole words from my mouth
and you wondered why
i was so **** quiet

if you say im not a ****
why do you treat me
like i owe it to you

i wish i could
talk to people as easy as i
can convey words
to paper

i have not found you yet
but my soul is searching for you

you can't
just walk
into my
home and
take advantage
of me
like that
you know
i have
a hard
time saying
             no

this is for the boy
who told me
he was sorry
for what i had been through
thank you
for feeling for someone
other than yourself
and apologizing
for something
that was not
your fault

you called
me gay for
reading poetry
but didn't you
drop out of
school at seventeen

that boy
remembered my name
that boy
spoke kindly to me
that boy
waved at me when he saw me out
that boy
apologized for himself and his friends
that boy
expected nothing in return
that boy
changed my life

do you ever wonder
if you would have
stayed with me
how different your
life would be
do you even
think of me

for the boy
who broke my heart
one to many times
*******

you tell me what
i want to hear
when you are
on top of me

we are told that because
we have vaginas
we are the weaker ***
we are told that our only purpose is to please men
we learned this young
we think that men are better at sports at fighting at making money
we know men can be all this and more but
we want you to know
we woman can do it all too

that's my problem
i was planning
our life together
you were living
for the moment
with no intentions
of creating a
forever with me

he looked at me
like no other
as if he could see
the stars in my eyes
the other guys saw me
as a piece of meat
but he looked at me
with love in his eyes

you'll see long after i'm gone
when you look in the mirror
you will see all your flaws
the ones i loved so fondly
you will see that nobody
loved your flaws like me
now you feel empty
because even you can't
love yourself like i did