im sorry to leave
but here it is
im ready to go
you deserve more than this
:(

Dear me,
You know what? I hate you. I hate you more than anyone else does. The ONLY reason you are alive is because is to look after the important ones, the ones who need looking after. The ones who actually matter. but you cant even do that properly, can you? You FAIL at absolutely EVERYTHING and disappoint everyone... You deserve every single scar you have given yourself. You deserve all this pain. I hate you. Your ugly, worthless, and pathetic. Stupid and disgusting. Your easily replaced and forgotten. i hate you. I Hate You. I HATE YOU.
sincerely me
.

have you ever been down the water spout
way down at the bottom of the water system
there you'll find a little alligator
who goes by the name of alfred; if you do
he's mine.
i lost him.
i threw him down the water spout
and now im feeling lonesome
cuz he's mine.
i miss him

choose me or loose me;
im not a backup plan and im definitely not a second choice.

He was the picture perfect person
loved my mother oh so dearly
You could feel the love reverberate wherever in our building
If it'd feel the same today I wish I know
Sometimes you drive a car and lose control: into poles

hold me closely
i...dont think you should love me
cuz it always feels so lonely
knowing that nothing will ever last forever...

I gave you the world, you threw it away
Leaving these broken pieces behind you
Everything wasted, nothing to say
Why should I go and fall apart for you?
but i still do...

and i'd choose you:
in a hundred lifetimes...
in a hundred worlds...
in any version of reality...
i'd find you and choose you

cuts hurt
big surprise
...

knowing how to touch her
without touching her
really touches her

my happily ever after

im sure you never felt
the love i have to give
im sure you never known
that you're my will to live

im sick of all this
"how'd you get your username?"
"is that your real first name?"
"can u text and can u follow back
cuz its my birthday?"

no one cares what i want
just what i got
and when we sit and count it up
its really not a lot

i wish you were still
just a human to me
i dont want to look at you
and see my mind flooded with poetry

we return to each other
in waves
this is how water loves