You're so full of ****
You spoke so many
Words that meant
****
You never cared
You just ****** me
You never knew how much
I cared for you
It's funny how I thought you
Were comforting
When you're the one who
Made me uncomfortable
In the first place
I hate myself for believe
All the ****
That poured out your mouth
I hate myself for
Falling for your lies
Falling for the way
Your lips touched
Mine
I can't believe
Seeing you now
Sets off all those memories
All those horrible
Lies
All those horrible days
All you did was decieve
Me
Your soul was not any color
Not even black
Or white
It was just blank
A rocky surface
I asked you
"Do you really love me?"
You said
"Of course"
You didn't look me
In the eyes
You looked at my body
While you nodded
Of course I love you
Of course
Of course
You always said that
Never yes
Or duh I love you
Just of course
A broken record
Now I see
How miserable
You made me
I see how miserable
You were in that
Relationship
I don't understand
Why you didn't leave me
I don't understand
Why you pretended
To love me
I don't understand
Why you didn't
Just say no
When I asked you out
On that date
I guess I will never
Understand you
I won't ever comprehend
Why you do the things
You do

My tea has gone cold
And my skin
is still tingiling with
your scent
but my efforts
To make you stay
Failed
Obviously enough
We don't love each other
but our bodies do

I straddled him and he told me
How light I felt
Zero zero zero zero

This feeling is synonymous
to being buried alive
Dirt caught in my throat
Rotting my words
Weighing down my sense
Of right and wrong
Saying one thing
Thinking another
I have no idea what
Is happening
Why this is going on
Again
Hoping underground is dangerous
No one is there to hear you
Cry or think
Doing the dangerous things
To keep me alive
Is what I do best
So I will crawl out of this
Burning hole
That is so close to hell
I will fall into your arms
Hoping you will catch me
Without hiding a knife behind
Your back
Like always
There is a front door leading
To my mind
you have locked it
I cannot get in


You cannot get out

and when i think no one misses me
i think again
clearer this time
because the people that do not miss me
just show they never cared
a week later and you are right back
to her
like i am dust
and maybe in your eyes i am nothing
but that
the people that do miss me
ask me how i am
how i have been
where i want to be
the people that miss me
do not tell me they love me
they show it
with ways greater than words or actions
i was blinded by your
pursed lips
and the way you said my name
i closed a door in their face
and left it wide open for you
which was a big mistake
but when you walked away
know i cried
and when you didnt come back
until you needed something
know i was happy
because
i realized
you mean nothing
except for a
soul and a body
i do not
want to interact with
anymore

as horrible as it may sound
you mean nothing
nothing
to me.

Maybe you are refueling what you once pumped into my fragile veins
Maybe I am falling for your eyes again
Maybe I am
I hope I am
I hope I am not

Sometimes little things
Make me realize
Big things

The theme to Jepoardy
No longer rings
All around my 3D exsistance
Because I am not
In Jepoardy
Of falling in love
With you

Be as real as that pencil on the table
Be as abstract as that piece of art
Be as humble as the calm ocean
And you'll win my heart

Be the evaporating
Tears circulating in the air
sometimes I'll wish
To drown
But you leave too fast
So later on today
When and if
It rains
I will go out
With a big bottle
And catch a few drops
Of you
Hopefully you'll stay
Long enough for me
To admire the way
Tiny versions of yourself
Slip into bigger ones

Poetry shouldn't be based off
Lines or stanzas
It shouldn't have rules
On how to rhyme or how
To write
It shouldn't be pre-planned
Poetry should be you
It should be what you feel
Those impulses that flow from
Your brain and take over your fingers
It shouldn't be forced
You should feel these words flying at you
100 miles per hour
You should write them down
As soon as you think of them
So you don't forget how you felt
In that moment
Your mind is the paint
Your words are the colors
Your world is the paper
Dare to really say
How you feel

he planted a kiss
on my lips
now i'm growing
a garden

You're a parasite and I am the host
You **** everything out of me
Just to make yourself
Feel better

you matter to a lot of people
you may not even know
you matter a lot
to these people
but we all secretly admire
someone

I've uncovered the refresh
Button

I'm never turning back

if you ever feel like your life is grey, just look up at the sky
and you will have a front row seat of the newest (yet oldest)
unique display by the most
creditable artist of all time.

Suicide sounded like a life saver
that was thrown to me
from me


I realize now that
this wasn't the case.

I've memorized
The way your ceiling looks
And how your brown eyes
Work me over
While you hands caress me so softly
Like one wrong move
And I'll shatter
You breathe how much you love
The way my mouth
Forms into a circle
so delicately
And my toes curl
In these moments
All I can think about
Is how we are one
How much I really love you