How do you comfort a loved one
Who has been hurt by their lover?
Does it ever get easier to see the bruises
The scars
The shallowness in her breathing?
I look at her
My blood and my soul sharer
How could he?

How treacherous are the days where all my insides fall out of my ears.
I forgot I had all those clogged arteries against my heart
Wrapping around the beating vessel like an umbilical cord around an infants head
Heavenly when it stops beating

Pictures may be
Worth a thousand words
But
These words can be
Misinterpreted
Misunderstood
Why use a picture
When so many things
Go flying through my head
Even if you aren't
Looking my way

Just come
Out

And

Say

It

You always said 8 months
I miss you at night
Seeing you again will probably make me
Cry

Humans: the mess that is my bedroom floor and ***** clothes
Humans: the awe of a full moon and ability to create wonderful things

I belly flopped into a pool of things
I didn't want to happen
but the water rushed up and my stomach caved in I feel
Stinging
the sting of pictures and words I remember
I didn't want to feel
Them
I'm overwhelmed now with the thing I did not want to take place
but I knew it would
Anyways

How naive of me
How childish how illogical
Of me to think
You could love
And I could grow
My memories froze and I am stuck
In the past in the deep past
The sadness entrapped
It does not go away

late at night i feel like **** and i dont have that person to express to i dont have that person who wont judge but just listen i feel like im sinking into an early grave

I hear blood in the form of words
You cut me and scrape scratch slice
Me
'I regret you'
I'm the person you dread
'I wish I never met you'
But you know if you never did
You wouldn't be addicted
You would have substance to your life
But you need hurt
You need violence
And you need need need
Attention
Just like me
Poison for each other
But it's prescribed

Matching spaces in between our ribs
I count the bones in your vertabrae
Its romantic to me and I'm in love
With the feeling of being
Empty

i thought i could replace you
quickly
not even a week later i thought
i had moved on
i hurt him for using him and lied to myself
about using his body
i need to be alone
i need to be by myself
just me
i hope i can do this

I miss you again tonight and I want to ask how you are but it'll hurt you and it'll hurt me and I remember that I told you I don't love you anymore and something left your voice in the long pause but something left and I wanted to take back what I said but then I'd be faking it

Your breathing chest is my pillow
I felt the muscles tense as you smiled
Stroked my head and my cheek

You're gone because I kicked you out I feel empowered knowing this and knowing that you will not touch me again and knowing that I don't have to fear *** because you won't be pushing something down my throat
I feel so good

I thought this was over why is it happening
Again?
I was happy and I thought I was healed
Why is this sneaking up on me in the shower
Why does it feel like my mind doesn't turn on until late at night?

Will I ever be good enough?
Will anyone ever be good enough for me?
If I find you in the wrong time
Please come back to me

I wonder why I blow up in your car and you pat my leg and tell me things will be okay but I don't believe you

This season makes me sad and I'm only on 25 milligrams. If I don't get away soon history will repeat itself

I don't know why I gave up writing
I'm okay now

I'm wallowing
In my robe and in my sadness
I'm naked in a towel
Dripping hair dripping
Sadness
The dirt circling the drain
Doesn't go away
I'm wallowing in
My dirt
In a clean space
I wallow in
Sadness

You step into the suns rays
Skin blooms roses and pretty lillys
Make up your hair
Your body is the most beautiful hill
Eyes turn into moon and stars
Lips are the birds who sing sweetly
Your soul is paradise

i thought a lot of things about you
i thought we would never get to this point
but we did
i dont know how i feel
i have been pretty vacant

I **** him but I still see you

Everything is a spiral
Straining my eyes

I am tired of finding joy in other people

I don't know how to feel about what you did. You ****** my ex but you're supposed to be my best friend.

I'll remember your cheeks
And how you throw your head back
Consumed in a bubble of laughter

someone dies when someone falls in love
someone dies when someones being born
someone lives when someone else is just existing

This is the first day in a while
That I have not had the haze
Clouds fill my mouth
Scents stain my fingertips
I don't want to be sober

Mouth gets watery
Cheeks tense up
Eyes get warm
I'm crying

We broke as quickly as
Someone cutting a thin rope
I can't call you mine anymore
But I'm okay
(For now, at least)

all i do is get drunk and high because im lonely but i dont want you or you or you or any of you.

Being ****** all day has its positives
Time goes by so slow
I melt in the couch and forget all
My problems
Not my problems
Just forget
But then lonely
Lonely
I am bored I am
Lonely

We walk along a muddy trail
Of memories
you're footsteps
Make flowers grow where there
Is only dirt.

you said you didn't want
to kiss me
because my lips were
too red
little did you know
that they were stained
with blood
i bit them too hard
when i saw you
with her

I scream every night and no sound comes out
I didn’t know my body could produce so many tears

Sleep with a journal besides my bed
In case you sneak into my dreams
Sparking up memories
I have to jot them down
Or I'll soon forget
What you sounded like

Today I hope you smiled like how you did that one time where I kissed you unexpectedly in the movie theater and you didn't frown for days

It felt good to finally give in

I miss how things used to be and it hurts knowing they will never be like that again

10:28 I’m in bed the feeling hits every night around this time
I haven’t written
I forgot what words are
Seasonal depression is ******* dumb

I don't want to say our love is like a dream
Because sooner or later
One of us will wake up
Struggling to remember