Tell me I'm crazy with your lips
sewed tightly shut
cover my eyes with dead
leaves from a newborn tree
assure me that my roots
can be adjusted to your
high standards
cut me off from anything
even the things I stray from
draw pictures of you
spanking the clouds
comparing my tears to
the sudden outburst of drops
tell me I'm ****
surprise me with those lilacs
you stole
wrap me up like a present
mail me to yourself
forget me on your porch
even though there is a reminder
on the box that states
Fragile

Be the evaporating
Tears circulating in the air
sometimes I'll wish
To drown
But you leave too fast
So later on today
When and if
It rains
I will go out
With a big bottle
And catch a few drops
Of you
Hopefully you'll stay
Long enough for me
To admire the way
Tiny versions of yourself
Slip into bigger ones

i haven't thought about anything lately and i kinda like not thinking
i'm not thinking because i'm with you and when i'm with you
it's impossible for me to think
usually it's just a bunch of words jerking at the walls of my brain
one million mph
and sometimes we check our horoscopes
and most of the time we think together
so it's not only me thinking and not thinking
it's you
also
and sometimes you play the guitar for me
and sometimes i join in on my ukulele
sometimes we make up songs together
we sit in silence a lot
this is fine with me because i'm comfortable
being quiet with you

he planted a kiss
on my lips
now i'm growing
a garden

Falling for me will result
in pages of uncomprehendable poetry
filled with made up words
tears
and maybe some blood

I want to feel
(Taste
Touch
Live
Do)
Everything

We're all too busy
Trying to make
Things last
We don't notice
How fast
Things slip away from us
We all want
To stop the clock
And be trapped in a perfect
Moment
Yet while we are trying
To make this moment perfect
We are losing the true meaning
Of being with this person
Or place or object
It's perfectness is slipping away
Because we are thinking
And stressing to much

i remember what you looked like
when you first leaned in
eyes got all soft
and dreamy
lips parted
just enough for you
to whisper
my name
could you tell how sweaty
my hands got
did you notice how my eyes
started to widen
in disbelief
my mind was racing
i couldn't believe this
was happening  
but when i closed my eyes
i stepped into a dream

I think of you when the ocean waves
rise over my head
suffocating me
start to dream
about the way your hands
feel on me like
the sand between
my feet
Dream of our lips
Moving together
Much more spontaneous
Than any sun
Our words are a love song
Connected by the stars
Of the brightest constellations
The waves leave me
I collapse onto
The beach
You lean in
So do I
When I close my eyes
I've stepped into sleep
A dream I won't wake up from
Till you say goodbye

Fingerprints last a long time
As do hair particles
And skin particles
They all last as long as some
Memories do
So really
It's like you never left me
Your microscopic self can
be reached
through the part
Of my brain
Where those memories reside
You can be seen under a lens
Deep in the ridges
of my skin

I like to keep my fan
on at night and
when I get goosebumps
from being cold
I'll think of you
stroking your fingers
down my back
I have memorized they way
Your nails softly scratch
The way your delicate fingers
Trace all the bones
And the way your hands
Rub across my skin
I've noticed that we never say
Anything in these moments
We're saying enough by
Touching
My eyes can whisper
"I love you so much"
And my legs can
wrap around you
singing our song
With a million soft touches
We've forgotten what words are
And how to formulate sentences
I don't mind though

You're as underrated as a ****
People see you as something
To pick out the ground
And toss over their shoulders
Like its nothing
You're considered ugly
A bother
But in reality these people
Aren't actually looking at you
They aren't observing you
Taking in all your fragile
Features
The way your tiny petals
Stretch towards the sun
The way your stem carries
You so effortlessly
When you dance in summer wind
I wish to be a ****
Like you

Charisma is embedded into
Your DNA and the blood
That flows in all your arteries
Fascinates me
Your long pale limbs
Shimmer in winters sun
And sway in falls leaves
Eyes hold so much vastness
So when I tell you I get lost them
I really mean it
Counting all the times you blink
Envying the lashes that sometimes
Kiss your cheeks  
You're like a title
To a speechless piece
You can not cram so many
Emotions and feelings
Into a few little words
You are the cups of water
I drink first thing in the morning
feel you travel down
My esophagus
Giving me goosebumps
Every time you look my way
I wonder how someone could be
That beautiful

Poetry shouldn't be based off
Lines or stanzas
It shouldn't have rules
On how to rhyme or how
To write
It shouldn't be pre-planned
Poetry should be you
It should be what you feel
Those impulses that flow from
Your brain and take over your fingers
It shouldn't be forced
You should feel these words flying at you
100 miles per hour
You should write them down
As soon as you think of them
So you don't forget how you felt
In that moment
Your mind is the paint
Your words are the colors
Your world is the paper
Dare to really say
How you feel

You're so full of ****
You spoke so many
Words that meant
****
You never cared
You just ****** me
You never knew how much
I cared for you
It's funny how I thought you
Were comforting
When you're the one who
Made me uncomfortable
In the first place
I hate myself for believe
All the ****
That poured out your mouth
I hate myself for
Falling for your lies
Falling for the way
Your lips touched
Mine
I can't believe
Seeing you now
Sets off all those memories
All those horrible
Lies
All those horrible days
All you did was decieve
Me
Your soul was not any color
Not even black
Or white
It was just blank
A rocky surface
I asked you
"Do you really love me?"
You said
"Of course"
You didn't look me
In the eyes
You looked at my body
While you nodded
Of course I love you
Of course
Of course
You always said that
Never yes
Or duh I love you
Just of course
A broken record
Now I see
How miserable
You made me
I see how miserable
You were in that
Relationship
I don't understand
Why you didn't leave me
I don't understand
Why you pretended
To love me
I don't understand
Why you didn't
Just say no
When I asked you out
On that date
I guess I will never
Understand you
I won't ever comprehend
Why you do the things
You do

We all say we aren't valuable
Yet we value others
Sometimes these people
Don't know we value them
So how can humanity
Me
You
Him
Her
Really say we aren't valuable
To anyone
Someone out there
Is loving you
Is valuing you
And you don't even know it
It's our little secret
We have no idea
That we share it

Part of this world
Is heaven
And part of it
Is hell
It's heaven when the sun
Shines through my window
And glistens on my skin
It's warm and sparkly
It's heaven when the wind
Whisks through my curls
Providing a comforting breeze
On my face and neck
It's heaven when cute little babies
Or cute little animals
Are born and everyone is happy
And innocence is restored
As well as hope
This world is hell when
People hurt others
When people bomb others
For no reason at all
It is hell when war is taking place
When we're threatening
Our neighbors
When they're threatening
Us
It is hell when loved ones
leave us
physically or mentally
It is hell when my mind won't
Stop thinking
Horrible things
And those horrible voices return
But soon the sun will shine
And I'll learn to dance in
The gloomy rain

I am the stormy cloud
That shades the pretty sun
When you want to tan
I am the pencil shavings
That you blew off
Your desk
Because you didn't
Want me there
Anymore
I am all the rips
In your favorite
Jeans
I am your math book
Hibernating in
The bottom of your locker
You never take me
To class
Because you forget me
I am the petals
You pick off the
Sunflowers
While you chant
"She loves me,
She loves me not"
You'll never know if I do
You always pluck me off
And throw me on
The ground
I am the shadows
In your room at night
You get afraid
And turn the other
Way

I decamped my presence from your life
You never noticed when I first
Started to fade away

i could write a poem about your eyes
and how i get lost in them
i could write about your lips
how i love to trace them with my fingers
from time to time
i could write about your touch
they way you graze my skin so gently
how it makes me shiver
if i look at you
how i look at the moon
you'll know i love you more than
the way she changes every night
still surprising me
if i am patient with you
like how i am waiting for
a full moon
you'll know i want to make this last
if i want to touch you as bad
as i want to touch the stars
you'll know i never want to be away from you

This feeling is like
Walking on the outside circle of the earth
Sleeping in the craters of the moon
Hitching a ride on a shooting star
Searching for another galaxy
It is crying in an empty cinema
On venus
Searching for the other half of myself
On mars
I'm scattered everywhere
And in an alternative universe
I am sleeping on your
Breathing chest
In reality I am just
Dreaming

I'm trying to love
These demon things
I may never
Reach my goal
Of admiring my
Mistakes

He's an introvert
Yet an extrovert at its finest times
He's optimistic
And a pessimist
He is the heart of a hurricane
And the floor of the calm ocean
He fixes things
Says he is broken
He contradicts himself
But acts as though he will never
Be wrong
I love how upside down
He is
I love this boy because
Of his backwardness
And his tendency to make up
Words
And places
I love this boy because
He follows the rules
But also breaks them
He is the ultimate roller coaster
I feel daring and unbuckle
My seatbelt
The drops the dips the spins
The curves
My body is thrown off
I bonk my head on the ground of his
Brain
He doesn't make sense
But he does
At the same time

Does the moon look down
At us humans
And shed a tear because
We are always writing about
How she shines
And not her being or
How she resides in the sky?
It's similar to a story about
A girl with a pretty face
We always hear about her lovely
Angles
Her lovely eyes
And how lovely her face shines
But we don't look into her
We are blind to her way of life
She wants us to notice her soul
But it's floating away
Towards the moon
And they can cry
Together.